-~+Life of a Hopeless Romantic+~-

9 laps

2005-04-06T17:13:00.000-07:00

OMG OMG OMG! I totally got 9 laps in P.E. for the first time EVER! I got this huge migrane and almost threw up on my last lap (I stopped and was seriously gagging.. it was SCARY) buuuuut still. Ugh I'm SO bad at running :( But anyways, 9 laps is REALLY REALLY good for me! I was super proud.

Desmond is a WEIRDO! Every time I passed him he's all "Jamie you can get 9 laps" "I know you can do it" "I have FAITH!!!" It's like he thinks his confidence in my effects me at ALL. *cough* bad teacher *cough* I made him feel bad last week when I said I gave up on getting 9 laps... haha. So I guess he felt bad because I was about 30 seconds late after he did his count down from 10, because of my gagging experience, and he still gave it to me..

So that was my fun day! HAWAII IN THREE DAYS!

CHANTELLE'S B-DAY IN TWO!!! ;) lol

XOXO,
Jamie

I am...
I am a little girl trapped in a teenage body, learning to love
I wonder if love can overcome everything,
I hear the hearts of everyone, beating together to a rhythm,
I see the love in the eyes of everyone around me,
I want to live out my life and die with no regrets,
I am a little girl trapped in a teenage body, learning to love.

I pretend to be always happy,
I feel the pressure to succeed, bearing down on me,
I touch the hands of those less fortunate then I,
I worry that I will never be good enough,
I cry at the thought of losing someone I love,
I am a little girl trapped in a teenage body, learning to love.

I understand that no one can live forever,
I say that we can live forever in the hearts of the people who love us,
I dream of flying, of escaping it all,
I try desperately to fit in,
I hope to go to heaven and live with the people I care about for all eternity,
I am a little girl trapped in a teenage body, learning to love.

--Jamie O'Neil

IPOD EASTER SHOES

2005-03-28T18:48:00.000-08:00

Sooo, how about a little update on the past few weeks!

Last tuesday I bought myself the new mini IPOD, 4GB. Bright pink.. it's adorable! I haven't got a case yet.. but I found some really cute Juicy ones online I'm thinking about! ;)

Then there was EASTER! Which OMG I was so excited for. I am now back to eating candy.. you have no idea how hard that was. Not eating Cadbury eggs.. those things are SOOOO good. I think next lent I'll do something less drastic.. maybe just giving up chocolate like my parents do every year, or french fries or something... nothing that big. ;) So yesturday I ate like 15 peeps (soooo good) and 6 of the LITTLE cadbury eggs, not the big ones. And one of the 36 boxes of sweethearts that Harrison bought me on our 6 month aniversary!

And today I got these totally adorable sandals, I totally copied Moureen (wow I butchered her name, sorry!) if you've been her blue Steve Maddens, only mine are pink.. I would post a picture but I totally can't fine one ANYWHERE!

Only 11 more days until HAWAII with Meg I'm SOO excited!!!!!! :)

XOXO,
Jamie

6 months

2005-03-12T21:47:00.000-08:00

Soooo, today is Harrison and I's SIX month aniversary. My god did it go by fast! I've never kept a boyfriend this long in my life, lol! So yesturday he came over to my house and I made a picnic in my room and put glow in the dark stars on the ceiling so we could lie under the stars ;) Because the grass at the park by my house was wet and icky. And for presents I got him tickets to a mariners game (he's NEVER been to one!!) They're really good seats like 30 rows back or something directly behind homeplate! (Expensive! Blah...) And I put a print out of where the seats are at and the view in a bag with 2 disposable cameras for us to take pictures and I get to pay for those being developed.. and Statium food (which can be retartedly expensive) The game's on Ichiro Bobblehead night, so we get free bobble heads (yeah I know thats awesome right? ;)) Also got him a new alarm clock.. since he NEVER wakes up on time! It's cool and like projects the time on the ceiling, lol. I dunno maybe I'm just easily amused. And I got him one of those Fom pillows from Brookestone.. only it was from like bed bath and beyond because it's the same only cheaper and I stuck it in a Brookstone bag! Lol.

Then today I went shopping with my mom.. and got new earing (I can change them now!) And new sunglasses for Hawaii, then I went over to Harrison's house. He had a sign on the door saying "Come In" and there was a little trail of Cabury eggs leading down to his room where there was a chair full of peeps, sweethearts, and cadbury eggs. Like my three totally favourite candies EVER. Which was sooo cute, but evil since I gave up candy for lent!!!! But lent's over in like 13 days or so, so it's all good. I also got.. really pretty small hooped diamond earings which are sooo goregous. And a COACH WALLET. Which I TOLD him not to buy because it was freakishly too much money!! But it's so adorable!! Definatly never bringing it to school, I've already had a wallet stolen once.. luckily it was fairly cheep, if this one got stolen I'd die. Which is exactly why it will never come to school most likely.. and my purse probably won't again since even though Bellevue is the richest school like in the bellevue school district, all the rich ass kids decide to steal things from people... it's not like their daddies wouldn't buy them it anyways. But whateverrr. So then his dad brought us taco time (mmm.. SOO good) and we went to the park to eat it and then lied down under the stars (what a total copy cat.. outdoing my picnic + glow in the dark stars *pout*) It was totally cute. And when we got back I got him to play me a song on his guitar and sing. It was REALLY REALLY good too! Perfect end to the night! :D Plus when I got in the car on the way home my parents were listening to some random 70's station and it was playing a song called "Happy Aniversary!" Craziness ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

Icons

2005-03-02T19:46:00.000-08:00

For those who don't know I have this terrible addiction with making aim icons (its pathetic really and I can't stop! lol) If you wanna see 'em they're all on this site:

http://www.dollbuddieicons.net/?id=ushow&ud=11335&start=1

Beware.. as you go back farther they start to get really really really bad! lol :P

XOXO,

Jamie

Community Serivce

2005-02-28T18:41:00.000-08:00

I added a cute new layout to my xanga.. it's also themed hopeless romantic! :D I was happy when I found it and totally thought it was perfect! To see it Click HERE

So I figured out that at Samena doing the Junior Counseling last summer I did 352 hours of communitry service.. holy SHIT. That's crazy! So that'll look pretty damn good on my college application... ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

Tolo blog

2005-02-23T15:11:00.000-08:00

Incase your wondering.. That thing about Chantelle in my Tolo post was not meant to call her desperate. I dont know WHERE you people get this from.. I was saying Glenn was an ass for ditching her and Chantelle didn't diserve it. But somehow everyone gets mad at me saying I called her desperate. Will the rumors ever stop?

Why would I say Laurel is fat? Shes about the skinniest person ALIVE!

I love Chantelle, in no way did I SMIRK or LAUGH at her for not having a Homecoming date.. I actually felt bad for her when I said I was sorry she didn't have a date.

I never told Shula her date was ugly. I didn't think he was hot, but I didn't find him ugly. And I'm not a dumbass who would be like "You're dates ugly" to someones FACE. Especially since I didn't even think that.

It seems all these people have these messed up views of me as some evil person trying to put everyone down. Or as Teo said to Harrison "Jamie just puts other people down to make herself feel better."

I guess if the people who are supposed to be my friends can't even tell I don't do that, who am I supposed to trust to be able to tell who I actually am?

XOXO,
Jamie

Wallet

2005-02-15T16:43:00.000-08:00

Okay my wallet has dissappeared.. during 2nd lunch today. I think someone actually took it our of my backpack. Its white, pink, and black.. like black and white pictures with soem pink accenting and stuff. So if you have ANNNNY idea where it is please tell me!! :(

XOXO,
Jamie

Vday!

2005-02-14T19:48:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines day everyone! Hope you all had fun. I know I did with my hands full with those 10 balloons, dozen roses and 2 carnations! Lol. It was hard walking through doors ;) But it was really fun, Harrison is such a sweetheart! (love you!!)

I don't think I can even count how many people came up to me and went "You got Harrison the Ipod shuffle for Valentines day?!?!?!!" Lol... YES, it's not like he's lying and saying I did ;)

So anyways, just wishing everyone a happy happy V-day! :)
It's so nice not to be single ;)

MWAH!

XOXO,
Jamie

TOLO

2005-02-13T08:48:00.000-08:00

So I haven't updated this in forever.. so I decided maybe I'll just update it every so often when something actually HAPPENS in my life! ;) I know you'll all miss my frequent updates though.. riiiight? Lol sure w/e!

Sooo lets start with Tolo!

Vesi, Chris (her tolo date from some island somewhere), harrison, and I went to go see Hutch before Tolo. It was a REALLY good movie by the way, so you should go see it! So in the middle of the movie the fire alarm goes off (great) so we got to go outside and stand there in the cold wind! HACE VIENTO! (Haha my spanish rocks!) Y HACE FRIO! But anyways, eventually we got to go back inside and the movie continued where it left off. But we didn't even get a free movie pass or anything, it was dumbbbb. So the alarm went off because of food burning somewhere or something like that. They're like "oh it happens all the time" Haha, great. You think they could fix that!!!!

So after the movie I went to MAC for my makeup, and Chantelle was there getting hers done at 4:30 (mine was at 4.. not that you care) So the lady who did mine did it really cool, but like she make me look EVIL because of like the angle that she did my eyeshadow at.. so I ended up fixing it up a bit.. I think it looked pretty good :) She also REALLY didn't know how to do lipliner. Like she outlines my lips all jagged and weirdly... I took that ALL off later and just wore some bright red lipgloss I had. No clue WHY the hell I havr right red lip gloss, but still.

So then I went home and got ready.. yadda yadda yadda.. my parents took a ton of pictures and stuff, and then we went to Harrison's house to pick him up, and my mom took MORE pictures.. And then we got to go get the professional pictures done.

Then after that Harrison goes "I left my wallet at my house" And then goes and asks my mom if we can go back and get it before dinner. Keeping in mine he REFUSED to tell me where dinner was going to be at. So we get to his house and he goes downstairs to his room and I didn't follow because I didn't feel like walking down a ton of stairs in high heels. So he ends up coming BACK up and making me come down and then we get to his room and he says "open the door slowly" and I'm standing there thinking "What the heck?" SOOOO I open the dooor and.... andd... annnnnd... I know you're all excited for this arn't you? ;) lol. He had decorated his entire room with pink and red tissue paper, and these cute little pink, red, and white scented candles, and a bunch of big heart balloons, and then he had a table set up in the middle with 3 roses and two chairs. I'll put some pictures at the end of this. But it was SOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE!!! Lol. And so we had salad, spaghetti, and cake. Haha. It was perfect (he did a good job picking out foods I love) I know everyone who is still reading must actually be somewhat interested in my lovely story so I'll keep going!!! lol. So then after dinner he switches the song (it had been one song playing over and over and over) and asks me to dance (hehehehehe) Then he turns on the T.V. and its playing The Notebook (which i've been DYING to see since it came out.. LOVEEEE that movie!!! So it was all very cute!

After the dinner it was off to Tolo! When we first got there like NO ONE was there, and we were 30 mins late ourselfs... but after a while people actually started coming and it was alot of fun... Got to see Devon again since obsessing over him last year.. he's.. not really... good looking anymore. And he's SUCH a liar. He started off talking about the De La Salle game and how he went to it (which he didn't) and he kept saying he knew Harrison from somewhere (which he.. didn't) And then called our musical Fame last year "Frame" and was all like "Yeah I liked you too last year I jsut didn't want to tell you" MMMHM SURE! When you see me again and I look better! Lol. Then it's "oh yeah.. i liked you too." But the best part was after when he goes "I didn't want to go out with you I jsut wanted to hook up with you" Aww wow, thanks for that compliment buddy! And he kept acting like he knew all this stuff about me when he didn't.. it was pretty pathetic actually. Lol. Then he ended up liking Callie and claiming she kissed him, yeah SURE SHE DID DEVON. But anyways, enough of my Devon rant! lol!

So Chantelle wound up dateless because Chelsea convinced Glen (SHS people) not to go with her. He kept making up these excuses and Chantelle would like find solutions and then he was still like "I have to work and I need my sleep" Can anyone say Bullshit?!?! And Seriously CHANTELLE! She is SUCH a sweetheart, she doesn't deserve that at allllll. (for those people who are fucking retards.. i feel BAD FOR HER! THis is no way was calling her DESPERATE!!!)

I've also noticed.. just about everyone exagerated their dates and their "hotness" Like a VERY surprizing amount. I heard about 4 different guys were "Totally hot" or like "drop dead sexy" and found them... not very attractive. And I'm really NOT that picky about looks, so it was suprizing. I was just like, "Wait YOU'RE her date? *ahem* OH of course he's cute!!! (haha not)" But hey thats okay.

So my parents wouldn't let me go to any parties or anyones house after. Ya know I might have been able to except for the people I was with are like incapable of planning things! (I love you guys though SOOO much!) But like I was just upset because my parents, unlike theirs I guess, wont let me call at midnight and say where I'm going. They actually like to know in advance. And I asked them at the beginning of the dance what was happening after (which is even late to be planning things I think) and still no one knew. Soooo it's kinda like everyone else ruined that part of the night for me, but no worries.. I'm over it! Kinda glad I went home. I ended up waking up at EIGHT!!!! AHHH I only got 6 hours of sleep, and I could NOT get back to sleep, it was the worst thing ever!

But yeah, So I'm not looking forward to school... :(

NOW FOR THE PICTURES!

Harrisons room:

Harrison looking scared in his room:

Harrison and me and my hair being weird:

And me looking sexxay! (haha jp):

XOXO,
Jamie

Random quiz:

1. How does valentine's day make you feel? Well this year I feel AWESOME! Lol. But if your single its really not as fun
2. Would you rather get a dozen roses or a box of chocolates from your significant other on valentine's day? Roses, they last longer and don't make you fat ;)
3. Is life really like a box of chocolates? Sure...
4. Describe your dream date. Harrison ;)
5. Your boyfriend is coming to your house for dinner tonight. What music to you select to set the mood? Italian jazz
6. If you could date any TV character, which one would it be? RYAN FROM THE OC!! OR Seth, cuz Seth's a cutie ;)
7. Do you like to eat those little candy conversation hearts? OMG YES! I can't believe I gave up candy for lent :(
8. Favorite romantic movie. Titanic! It's soooo good!
9. Which celebrity couple do you hope will stay together forever? Uhm.. Jessica and Nick?
10. When you were a little kid, did you buy valentine cards for everyone in class or did you make them? I bought ones... like little Barbie ones. It was greatttt! In 4th grade they were Britney Spears ;)
11. Who do you go to for love/relationship advice? Usually people come to me I guess.
12. Do you associate the color red with the word love? No, it's more of a lightish pink. Because pink makes me happy and so does love :D
13. What do you do when you have a broken heart? Never happened. But I'm sure multiple chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream boxes would be involed. And lots of pizza ;)
14. Have you ever been on a blind date? Naw, I prefer to know the people I'm dating.
15. Do you remember your first crush? Haha yeah. His name was Bryan and it was Kindergarden and my best friend wouldn't talk to me for a month because she liked him too and I got invited to his birthday party and she didn't. Lol

pain

2005-01-31T21:14:00.000-08:00

Updating this has become and pain in the booty ooty smooooty. Yeah. You heard me... TAKE THAT! So ya'll better appreciate it!

So... this was a fun 3 day weekend! Saturday I hung out with Harrison, then we both went to my brothers "puppy warming" party. It is SUCH A CUTE PUPPY!!! But yeah. It's a little tedddy bear. And so that way pretty fun.

Yesturday I went to the mall with Vesi, Shula was SUPPOSED to come but shes a butt ;) And It didn't work out. But thats okay I still love her. So we looked for tolo stuff and both of us only got some of the acessories we wanted.. I got a nice giant ring that looks like an engagement ring, and a necklace that I'm not sure I wanna wear, and i TOTALLY cant find a dress! :( Someone tell me where to get one, I want it black... and then I found REALLY cute shoes, but they're open toed and I want some closed toed ones sooo Imma look for some other ones.

XOXO,
Jamie

(songs have been cancled for lack of caring)

Finished Finals

2005-01-28T20:03:00.000-08:00

So finals finally finished (finals.. finally.. haha) And you know.. they weren't THAT hard. Like my english was a quick vocab thing which I was the fisst done., and then watching a BORING movie. I finished Biology first out of everyone, and never used my notecard once. In math I was like the 2nd done. I HAD been scared because Mr. Marble was saying how long it was and how people didn't finished, but I finished with an our left- so that was special. And my 200 question spanish final took me.. like 45 minutes. Not that I did GOOD on it... LOL. But I got it done fast that's for sure!

School got out at 11:45. Which was COOL! Lol. But they should have started it an hour later and got out at 12:45.. but I guess they couldn't cuz of make ups. OH well.

So after school Harrison and I caught a bus to my house. The driver was SUCH a bitch!!! Like we had to run to catch it and she started pulling away so he tapped the window and she goes "Next time you bang on the bus I'll leave you behind" Like we'll ever have her again anyways. And then I had my feet up on th sheet next to me.. since there was only like 3 other people on the bus. So she said "will the young lady in the back sit up with both feet on the floor" So I slid my feet onto the floor and I was kinda like sideways leaning on harrison and she goes "DID YOU HEAR ME? BOTH FEET ON THE FLOOR" and i was like "I HAVE both my feet on the floor!" God dammit I wanted to fuckin punch her. Like it doesn't SOUND that bad. But it was. She said it in a totally bitchy bitchy tone. >:( Grrrness.

But anyways, Harrison and I had fun and stuff and then my brother and his wife brought over there ADORABLE new puppy. Its a mix between a Maltise and a poodle. See it here Thats from the website of the puppy farm place... It totally looks like a stuffed animal though! It's SOO cute! It's about.. 6 pounds now and will end up being only like 8-10... TINY TINY puppy. I want one! *pout* Oh well. It totally looks like Jessica Simpsons new puppy though. Cuz Brenda (my brothers wife) like follows Jessicas every move. I dunno, she used alot of stuff from Jessicas wedding for hers and even did her hair like Jessicas.... but ya. CUTE DOG

XOXO,
Jamie

Finals

2005-01-26T18:21:00.000-08:00

So we had our first set on finals today.. periods 1 and 3. Which for me = P.E. and Jewerly.

P.E. WAS HELL! What else would it be? 2.5 miles in 30 mins. Doesn't sound that bad.. but god I wanted to shoot myself after that :( It's like 6:45 now and im still DEAD tired. Blahness. It was so no fun. We also had a 100 question quiz on like rules of the sports we've done. Total bombing for Jamie there :( HOPEFULLY I still get an A *please please please*

In jewerly we presented out final lines of "jewerly" which were crappy wire things that we had to attach really big ugly glass pendents too. Wow. Mine was like.. amazingly creepy. WHO WOULD WEAR THAT? But still... no harm done. Hopefully I get an A cuz i only have a 93%.. and like its a BIG project and we've only had a few projects. So it will like.. decide my grade. If my GPA is like ruined by a b in JEWERLY Im gonna KILL THE STUPID TEACHER! Shes this evil old woman whose so lonly she makes everyone in the world stay for tutorial. >=( GRRR NESSSS!

So anyways, after school Shula, Harrison, and I went to Taco Time and were there for like 2 hour talking about stuff. Theeeeeen I went to Harrisons house. And we had hard passionate sex in his room and... JOKING!! HAHAHAHAHAhahaHAHAHhahaHAHAH I crack myself up ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

Shopppin (more)

2005-01-22T18:19:00.000-08:00

Today Megan and Elizabeth and I went shopping, and bumped into Kelly and Cj at the mall! CJ has a new puppy! Mini schnauzer cuz she copied me! ;) Cuz they are the BEST DOGS! Lol. yupyup ;)

We ended up sitting in Taco Time for like 2 hours after shopping for like four... and changing all of our Voice messages on our cellphones. Mines.. interesting now. Kelly's has a very nice rap that I made up and sang for her. haha! "Her name is Kelly, she has a belly, she isn't smelly and she eats at a delly, shes hotter then Nelly and she likes to... yelly!" It was damn beautiful and at the end Kelly went "Wooooord" Very nice, I liked it ;)

I ended up not buy anything (grrness) but Imma order a Hollister zip up offline.. since they had no mediums... and the larges are was too big. I hope a medium isn't too big. Ahhh, it shouldn't be. I think I'll order a Abercrombie hoodie too... just for the heck of it ;)

After THAT I went over to Harrisonsssss to help babsit ;) And I watched Ice Age for the first time ever... it looked so crappy I never bothered to see it before. It was.. uhm... okay I guess. Lol. Not like terrible or anything.

XOXO,
Jamie

Late

2005-01-20T17:26:00.000-08:00

K wow.. I haven't updated this is a while! Sorry people!

So I went to Vegas for my cousins wedding! She's GOREGEOUS by the way, and her husbands a firefighter, and pretty good looking himself. They're like a little couple off the top of the wedding cake. But anyways, I left tuesday night and got back thursday morning. SO not enough time for VEGGGGAS! But we stayed at Excaliber on the Strip, it's the hotel shaped like a castle with little towers and stuff! SO cute! How fun would it be to say "I got married in a castle!" Even if it was like a 30 minute vegas wedding.. but still! It was alot of fun, got to see all my relatives I haven't seen in a wee bit of time (haha) It was just a blast.

Then it back back for half of thursday and then I left again FRIDAY for Montana! Where at night it got to less then negative 19 degrees. WARM huh?

But it was good, because my mom bought me a hair of Uggs! Totally for no reason too, which usually doens't happen with me! So I was HAPPY!

Then two days after I get home my new northface arrives! (i got the wrong size at x-mas..

So even though I was away (and missed my Harrison a ton ;)) I still had an Ok time.

XOXO,
Jamie

PLEASE SNOW!

2005-01-06T17:32:00.000-08:00

It's gonna snow tomorrow, it HAS to!!! I'm predicting like 2 hour late start, which is better anyways cuz it counts as a day of school and you don't go into summer.. but yeah. And you can SLEEP IN!!! :D

I've been sore ALL day, it's weird cuz it's from dance on TUESDAY, but it didn't affect me until today. After not streching my splits for a month, and then over streching my middle splits in class.. walking is painful! lol. And I had to see my ENTIRE bus ride home.. like REALLY REALLY REALLY BAD! And it SO doesn't help that busses don't ride smooth at all and there are tons of bumbs and stuff.. that was off topic though. So I had to walk up the little hill to my house.. while in extreme paint from soreness and the added pain of having to pee like a mo-fo. It was REALLY REALLY lovely.

So I got my x-mas present from Sean today (just a lil late) its a big framed poster of Orlando.. and surprizingly enough its NOT one I have.. and he looks DAMN FINE in it! Haha. Can't wait to put it up! hehehe.

CANT WAIT FOR THE OC!!

XOXO,
Jamie

Skin Doctor

2005-01-05T18:24:00.000-08:00

So yesturday not much happened that I can remember (I really need to stop skipping days.. my memory SUCKS) Except we had this totalll bitcho crazy ass old sub for Biology. Who Laurel and I decided will be what Mrs. Hudson will look like in 30 years, because she kinda looked like her.

Today in P.E. we ran back and forth inside, which everyone started complaining about like 1/2 way through... but then I realised it was WAY BETTER then running inside by like a bazillion times! But STILL.

I'm really behind in Jewerly. Lol. I haven't even STARTED my ring, that was due like a month ago because the one I WAS working on broke into like 4 pieces so I have to start all over and it takes forever. And Yesturday we had an ugly wire necklace thing due, which I'm not finished yet and I wanted to work on it today but she talked the ENTIRE period about all this stupid glass crap. And it's not like anyone at ALL was listening... blah.

Afterschool Kim, Harrison, and I went to Taco Time... then Harrison came to my house and we watched a movie. Mean Girls actually, and he seemed very fixated on the T.V. ;) Not sure if it was the movie or all the hot girls in the movie, but thats ok. Lollll

After that I went to the skin docter lady for "Acne Sergury" even though I don't really have bad acne... basically she poked all my black heads on my forehead with this needle thing, it felt like getting a shot.. and she did it about 20 times (and like 2 on my cheeks and chin) and then used with weird metal thing with a whole to push down REALLY REALLY hard on all of them. It hurt!!! :( And now my face is all funky and red, but she claims it will be better by morning... *CLAIMS* But atleast she said I can wear make up in the morning so it's all good ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

*Insert Song*

School Days School Days

2005-01-03T18:20:00.000-08:00

Yippee... school again! *ugh*

We started volleyball in p.e. which is funa dn I'm not TOTALLY hopeless at it, but it KILLS your upperarms like hell! I have like 5 bruises and my arms turn like BRIGHT red from it. :( Owie...

Today was pretty.. plain. Just like a getting back to school, attempting to remmeber stuff.. and almost totally forgetting every tiny ounce of spanish I've learned this year! That final is going to be HELL!!!

And that's about it..

XOXO,
Jamie

*Song goes here*

Sign Language

2005-01-02T17:47:00.000-08:00

SCHOOL TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH!

So today my evil parents woke me up at 8:30! It was my last day to sleep in too!!!
:( We had to go to some random catholic church to see in my brother wants to have his wedding there.. it was kinda plaiiin though. So I doubt it will be happening. We were planning to have brunch after with my brother and his fiancee by she was sick so she didn't come so we ended up eating at Taco Time for lunch. Lol. It's sad how we can go from a nice family brunch at a nice place to eating in our cars at Taco Time. :P

Anyways, turned out the mass we went to was a special sign language mass... so the whole left side of the small church was all people who were deaf or people with deaf people. And they were all signing to each other and stuff. It was interesting to watch. And there was a lady who stood up on the.. i cant remember the word right now so i'll just say STAGE- even though thats not it. OH ALTER! Or is that the table? Well whatever... she stood up on the stage/alter off to the left and signed everything that was said by the preist and the songs and stuff. And she like made faces along with it too.. she looked like a cartoon character! :P

And then we had to like go up for communion (which for you who don't know, is when u get the piece of bread and drink wine) And I'm use to these thin little pieces of bread that taste like nothingness and are about the size of a poker chip.. only thinner. And they have like 1 inch squares of soggy actual like BREAD that you have to chew up like crazy cuz it's squishy and leaves a nasty taste in your mouth. And at our normal church we get like almost watered down wine, but they had like REALLLY REALLY strong red wine. And it's not like it was GOOD wine or anything, it was badddddd wine.

But yeah, so that's my little expierence with a new church... lol.

Then when I got home it was time to take down allll the Christmas decorations "with my mom" which was really my mom running around and leaving me to take down both our trees (one real and ne fake) but she did end up eventually helping towards the end. lol.

And to end the day I went to bell square with Harrison.. which was really confusing and stuff and YEAH I'm not going into it but he ended up only being able to stay for like 1/2 hour... but it was still fun!

I am so NOT looking forward to school.

2005!

2005-01-01T23:59:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone! :D I've gotten on my schedule of sleeping in until noon... which is weird because I've never been able to sleep in past like nine. I think i caught it from Harrison ;)

Can you believe the last day is tomorrow!!! Ugh.. I want summer to come back :( only like.. 6 months away.. *sigh* Thats depressing!!!!!!!

So anyways, today was another Harrison-filled day. Which is another word for a perfect day ;) lol. We met up in factoria and hung around at the mall and stuff and then watched The Terminal at his house. And from waht I saw of the moviue it was pretty good. I think Tom Hanks was really what like, made the movie good. I don't think anyone else would have been able to really pull off that character at all- and the movie would have sucked with anyone else because like the rest of it besides him wasn't all that great.

So yeah... fun day. :D

XOXO,
Jamie

*will insert song.. eventually*

Goodbye 2004

2004-12-31T12:00:00.000-08:00

Soo its the last day of the year!!! I've got 2 New Year Resolutions decided.. but they're secret so you guys can't know! Sorry! ;)

But anyways, 2004 has been a pretty good year. Considering how much I've changed throughout the year it's pretty funny actually. Not as much as I changed throughout middle school- but still I have changed alot! Considering I like morphed into a totally different group of people I hang out with. You all rock btw ;) Anddd I got an adorable boyfriend. (lol ;)) Soooo no complaints about this year really.

Was it seriously already like 5 years ago everyone was going crazy with the new millenium and thinking all the computers were going to explode and it would be the end of the world? Okay, call me crazy... but that seems like it was REALLY not that long ago.

So alot of today was spent being lazy, and then it turned into being lazy while getting ready for dinner at the Washington Athletic Club. It's one of my parents accounts, and they had like a 100 dollar off a meal so we decided to go there for dinner.. and we dragged Harrison along. But he survived the dinner with my parents and my brother and my brothers girlfriend, so no problems. lol.

Then I went to Safeway and bought Oreos, M&Ms, and Candy Corn for my New Years celebration. What's New Years without a load of candy? A boring New Years. Soooo I loaded up on the goods. Haha.

Harrison stayed until like 1ish.. we *WATCHED* Alex and Emma... I wanted to watch the Terminal, but they didn't have it on VHS and our only DVD player was being occupied by the 'rents, so we got to watch a nice girly chick flick. I also got a nice show by Harrison playing DDR. Lol. And he really wasn't bad at all, which was surprizing ;) lol jpjpjpjp.

Anyways, it was a good last day... and I got my kiss at midnight. :P

XOXO,
Jamie

*I owe you one song when my computer lets me go to the page I get lyrics from.. lol*

Merry Xmas! And SORRY

2004-12-30T21:30:00.000-08:00

Sorry sorry sorry! I have I have a much much much delayed update here... Well my computer is nutso, and won't let me access certain sites that contain too much data (I.E. blogger and my e-mail! Which is a bummer...) So I have to go upstairs to the office to do anything on those types of sites, and the office is big and cold and my mom wont let me download aim or anything on the business computers. :P Blah

Anyways, I think I left off on thursday, where I was sick and had to get a strep throat test done for the first time in my life - really not an enjoyable experience! Lol. But I didn't have strep, which is realllly good. Just a viral infecccction, not contageous.

Friday at school was a blast, giving/getting all the presents! :D And like everyone was in a good mood because it's the holidays and stuff

So far break has been alot of.. movies and shopping and hanging out with a certain guy. ;) Which are really about the 3 best things there are, so no complaints from me! :D I've had a good time.

My mom has finally gotten over her Milkshake obsession. No more embarrassing outbreaks of her going "MY milkshake brings all the boys to the yard" But yeah... now she's moved onto 1,2, step by Ciara.. which is a really good song. My mom is a bit too obsessed though. She like fails her arms and dances all funny to it... and get this... she downloaded it as her CELLPHONE RING TONE! lol.. Shes such a dork :P But I love her to death.

My family has a tradition of always opening all our presents xmas eve.. it's because we'd open presents from each other xmas eve.. then presents from santa xmas morning. And after santa died, we just kinda left it the way it was. Also my brother flew out at 6 on xmas morning to Portland to be with his wife and her parents as a surprize because she wanted to spend xmas with them since shes an only child, and wanted Randy to stay with us. Shes such a moody girl though. Like she came over the day before xmas eve and was all cranky about them not being together on X-mas and like wouldn't even sit at the dinner table with us during dinner and didn't talk thr whole night- it was ridiculous. Shes got really good fashio sense though! ;)

For x-mas I got a dooney and bourke!!! :D Click here to see it That's it in pink.. got it in white.. and it's wayyyy cuter. And I got a really cute victorias secret bra.. its pink and lacey and it has these attached sprakles! I absolutly adore it! I also got a northface. But it's the worng color and size cuz they were out of what I wanted, so my brother just bought me a random one and said I could return it! lol. Then I also got... a 50 dollar hollister GC, diamond stud earings.. 125 bucks cash... and alot of other lil things like dvds and make up and stuff that I wont list for fear of boring you to death.

So now onto the two questions I must have heard a dozen times in the past week or so "What did you get Harrison" and "What did Harrison get you?"...
For the what he got me I've got a piccccture! Click here! It's perfect! ;) It's a white gold locket, with us from homecoming all shrunk smaller and just our heads, and it's engraved. And REALLY REALLY REALLY goregeous! (Yes I am allowed to brag, thank you very much! ;))

Annnnd letsee I got him a 30 dollar movie gift card thing... since I figured we'd put it to good use ;) White boxers that I used red fabric paint to put hand prints on the butt and write "hands off" and kiss marks on the front and wrote "Jamie's Property" They were a blast to make ;) lol. And a Mix Cd with like.. songs and reasons why I chose them. For exxxample... uhm... oh! I did Pretty Fly for a White Guy and wrote "Because you are" That was also reaaaaaally fun! And then I also got him a belt that isn't the right size even though I basically had him try it on!!! But thats okay, cuz he can just like poke another hole in it. lol. :P And I did lots of boxes... like a box inside a box type thing.. only each time there was a gift and then another wrapped present he had to open- which was ALSO really fun. So to sum it all up... it was all fun to do. Lol. Oh! And I stuck 2 candy canes together to make a heart on the top on the wrapping paper! ;)

Great, so now maybe THAT question won't get asked quite as much. :D

So there's only a couple more days left in break... seriously, how much does that SUCK?!?!?!?! I wish it was summer.. All warrrrrm and no school. The cold just isn't all that great! Mmm... yeah, I hate it. Lol.

So Merry Christmas everyone! And a Happy new year!!!!! Here comes 2005. Hope you've got your New Years Resolutions down. I can't remember what mine was more this year. I think it mgiht have been to get a boyfriend. haha. In a desperate act to find a resolution I tend to come up with some crappy ones. :P But hey! I fulfilled that one! So no problems there!

XOXO,
Jamie

Sugar Rush
A-Teens

I get a high whenever you're around
Sweeping from my head to my toes
I, I gotta get my feet back on the ground

'Cause you make me go
Out of my way, crossing the line
Making me say what I have in mind

You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
Ain't nothing better, baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I'm losing touch
You are my sugar rush

I got a sweet tooth
And a taste for you
And I might be too obvious
But I…I can't help myself from what I do

'Cause you make me go
Out of my way (Out of my way)
Crossing the line (Crossing the line)
Making me say what I have in mind...

You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
Ain't nothing better, baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I'm losing touch
You are my sugar rush

You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
Ain't nothing better, baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I'm losing touch
You are my sugar rush

Baby you're my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted
Baby you're my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much

'Cause you make me go
Out of my way, crossing the line
Making me say what I have in mind

You make me so excited
And I don't wanna fight it
I start to blush
You are my sugar rush
Ain't nothing better, baby
Is it for real or maybe?
I'm losing touch
You are my sugar rush

Baby you're my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted
(You are my sugar rush, baby)
Baby you're my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much
You're the sweetest thing I ever tasted
(You are my sugar rush, yeah-eah, eah-eah)
Baby you're my sugar rush
I get weak and talk too much
You are my sugar rush.

Home Sick

2004-12-15T15:30:00.000-08:00

So today I stayed home sick from school. My throat hurts like a mother and I've got a headache in my head that goes all the way down through my neck. I basically jsut feel like crap. I woke up at 9:30 and I'm still unbelieveably tired and worn out and I've been awake for like 6 hours. Ugh.

I worked alot of my Christmas presents today! They're really fun to do. Lol. I'm exciiiited to give them out! ;)

So ya, other then that my day has been filled with forced liquids and aches and pains.. sounds like fun doesn't it?

XOXO,
Jamie

I've Been Thinkin'
Jennifer Lopez

All I need is a place to be
And a way to feel
A space to figure out where I belong
A chance to know my thoughts
And find a way to show
What I feel
And if this is real, yeah

Don't wanna disappoint you
Don't wanna let you down
'cause that's the last thing I would do
I'm asking for you patience
I realize I could lose you
But lately I've been so confused

I've been thinkin'
You've been on my mind
So I've been praying
To find a way that I
Can be sure, the way that
You've been sure with me
Don't you want that for me

Wondering endlessly if this is right or wrong
Or if it's just about me all along
All I need is time to search within my soul
So I can share a deeper part of me, yeah

Don't wanna disappoint you
Don't wanna let you down
'cause that's the last thing I would do
I'm asking for you patience
I realize I could lose you
But lately I've been so confused

I've been thinkin'
You've been on my mind
So I've been praying
To find a way that I
Can be sure, the way that
You've been sure with me
Don't you want that for me

Baby, what's meant to be
Will surely be
if you love me baby you would understand
But I can't give you anything
I don't have myself to give
And it's killing me inside

I've been thinkin'
You've been on my mind
So I've been praying
To find a way that I
Can be sure, the way that
You've been sure with me
Don't you want that for me

I've been thinkin'
You've been on my mind
So I've been praying
To find a way that I
Can be sure, the way that
You've been sure with me
Don't you want that for me

101.6

2004-12-14T22:36:00.000-08:00

I woke up with a REALLY bad headache this morning, and it basically lasted through the entire day.. which was REALLY not fun. Shula, Tamar and I went out to Starbucks and then 7-11 for lunch. Then Harrison got let out of his class early AGAIN and we bumped into him by Subway.

After school it was SOO cold! I couldn't stop shivering even when I was in Starbucks, my whole body felt like shit and I just wanted to lay down right where I was.. and my headache had gotten even worse. All I wanted to do was get home as fast as I could, and it felt like I wasn't going to make it. I got home and collapsed onto my couch and slept for an hour until my mom came down and took my temperature.. 101.6. So I went on feeling all crappy and sitting in a chair with a dozen blankets over me until I went to the chior concert at school - much to the dislike of my mom. But I REALLY wanted to go, and I'm glad I did because Harrison kicked some serious ass with his solo! It was REALLY REALLY REALLY good. I was amazed and my mom leans over and goes "Wow, he can actually sing" It was really cute, I couldn't stop smiling through the entire song. :D

So after that I got some stuff for my x-mas presents I'm making and then fell into my bed and went to sleep.

XOXO,
Jamie

It's Love
Jennifer Lopez

What a strange sensation
Your magic captured me
With you I lost all my faith and control
It was your willingness, your weakness
and my obsession with you
you can leave after one more kiss
I lost reason

It's love, that's what I know
The craziness and the desire
It's love that you gave me
This intense fire

I got used to you
In dreams I felt you
Fly for my body making love
I want to get lost inside you
Burning in heat
It always quinched your thirst
Drinking my love up

It's love, that's what I know
the craziness and the desire
It's love that you gave me
This intense fire

It's love, that's what I know
It's consuming me
It's love that you gave me
What a naked feeling

Whole-y moley

2004-12-13T18:42:00.000-08:00

Making more parts of my presents... its a pain in the butt! But I'm having fun.

I have a big WHOLE in my sweatshirt! And I have NO idea where it came from, but it keeps getting bigger and its making me MAD! >=( Cuz I have like 2 sweatshirts, and my other one is like getting thing patches in the pocket, and now this one has a big whole in the packet! Grrrrness.

ONLY FOUR MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL! Yesssss!

My Victoria's Secret order is SUPPOSED to come tomorrow and I'm all excited! :D lol

I'm more excited about my presents and stuff. Like.. it's more about wanting to give them out then about wanting to GET presents. For like, the first time EVER! lol. Usually I'm like a little present hog, but ya. :P

XOXO,
Jamie

I'm Glad
Jennifer Lopez

Baby when I think about (about, about)
The day that we first met (the day that we first met)
Wasn't lookin for what I found
But I found you
and I'm bound to find happiness in being around you

I'm glad when I'm makin love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I'm glad when I walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

I dig the way that you get down
(you get down for 'bout)
And you still know how to hold me
(and you still know how to hold me)
Perfect blend, masculine
I think I'm in love, damn finally

I'm glad when I'm makin love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I'm glad when I walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

I'm glad, that you, turned to, out to be
That certain someone special
who makes this life worth living
I'm glad, you're here, just loving
So say that you won't leave
Cause since the day you came
I been glad

I'm glad when I'm makin love to you
I'm glad for the way you make me feel
I love it cause you seem to blow my mind every time
I'm glad when I walk you hold my hand
I'm happy that you know how to be a man
I'm glad that you came into my life
I'm so glad

Oceans 12

2004-12-12T20:48:00.000-08:00

I went to Oceans 12 with Harrison at the Galleria. Considering I never say Ocean's 11 it was confusing, but Harrison did a good job of explaining it to me! lol. So ya, it was a good movie. I would suggest seeing it. It had a few really funny parts. And BRAD PITT! And MATT DAMON! And if thats not good enough reason to see a movie - I don't know WHAT is.

Patrick Daily lead one of the songs at my church! It was kinda creepy to watch. Like.. here's this nerdy tall kinda gangily kid I've known since first grade up and singing infront of the whole church. And he really wasn't that bad!

So today my mom made me go to blockbuster while I was totally dead after the sleepover. Do you notice that? Like after sleepovers you feel all gunky and ugly and blah? I dunno, maybe I'm just crazy. Or maybe it's from all the food. lol. I'm not sure. But still.

So in church there was this guy behind me singing SO LOUD. And he like tried to harmonize with the chior and everyone else. And was like adding in runs and it was SOOOOO obnoxous. My parents and I were cracking up.. that's how sad it was. And like when we said the Our Father prayer he said it REALLY loud and like one second early on every word. Blahhh. I wanted to turn around and just be like "HELLO!!!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING" But I resisted the urge so God wouldn't hurt me ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

Feelin' So Good
Jennifer Lopez

When I opened up my eyes today
Felt the sun shining on my face
It became so clear to me that everything is going my way
I feel like there's no limit to what I can see
Got rid of fears that were holding me
My endless possibilities
Has the whole world opened for me
That's why I'm feeling...

I'm feeling so good
I knew I would
Been taking care of myself
Like I should
'cause not one thing
Can bring me down
Nothing in this world gonna turn me round...

Now the day is turning into night
And everything is still going right
There's no way you can stop me this time
Or break this spirit of mine
Like the stars above I'm gonna shine
Anything I want will be mine
Tonight I'm gonna have a good time
Call a few friends of mine
'cause I'm loving life
And tonight’s for feeling...

I'm feeling so good
I knew I would
Been taking care of myself
Like I should
'cause not one thing
Can bring me down
Nothing in this world gonna turn me round...

I'm feeling so good
I knew I would
Been taking care of myself
Like I should
'cause not one thing
Can bring me down
Nothing in this world gonna turn me round...

Laurel's Party

2004-12-11T17:18:00.000-08:00

Today started off with lots and lotsa of cleaning. We got our X-mas tree, but we haven't decorated it or anything yet... We'll prolly end up doing that tomorrow.

After that Tamar and I went to the mall for a little while, met up with Harrison for a little bit and Tamar and I got Laurel her present andddd I got another present for someone else :D It was fun.

Then Harrison left and Tamar and I went to Pagliachi's and met with with Laurel and everyone. After we ate we took the bus to her house, and the entire way to the bus stop and while at the bus stop we were screamin out lyrics to songs... There were these people going up and down the street on this horse carriage thing, and the horse had flashing red and green lights! ;) And they wished Laurel a Happy Birthday! lol. So after the long and creepy walk at night in the dark to Laurels house (naw, it wasn't that bad) we chilled :P Ya, so basically it was a total blast. Tons of fun! Except someone accidently turned off the heat when they were putting up streamers so it was FREEZING COLD the entire night! I actually had a good blanket though, so it didn't effect me. But sorry for everyone else who wasn't as lucky ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

Dear Ben
Jennifer Lopez

I just cant control myself
I cant be with no one else
It seems Im addicted to the way you like to touch me

I dont think they understand why I love at your command
From the words you speak, so deep
Our bodies meet, I had to have you

I love you, youre pertect
A manifestation of my dream
You make my body feel about a million different things

I think God made you for me, a mix of passion and fidelity
Baby, youre so complete
I write this song to let you know that you will always be to me
My lust, my love, my man, my child, my friend and my king

I love you, youre perfect
A manifestation of my dream
You make my body feel about a million different things
Theres no way Id leave you
Its just not a reality
Sometimes I feel like I?m living in a fantasy

Mrs. Lambert!!!

2004-12-10T23:58:00.000-08:00

We had a 60 minute assembly today.. basically honoring all the fall sports- it was really boring. But that's ok. The dog racing was hilarious! I felt really sorry for that totally fat kid who like stopped crawling and just lied there and sort of rolled. I actually feel more sorry for all the other people who had to carry him. That was REALLY mean!!! But still... it would be HARD to do that! It was really funny at the time though, but now I kinda feel bad for him.

So after lunch (instead of going to 6th and 7th period) Vesi, Harrison, Alex, and I went over to Odle to visit Mrs. Lambert! AHHHH!!! I'm going to miss her SOOOO much!!! :( She was my favourite teacher everrrrr. Mood swings and all! So for those who don't know anything about this... She was the drama teacher at odle. Who is now moving to Australia, getting married, and living there from now on! I'm hoping she'll hate it and coem back to me ;) But tough luck there. Does anyone know if shes actually pregnant or if that was just a rumor? Because I'm not sure.

Then later on at night Harrison came over and we rents two movies- Shrek 2... because he's a weirdo and hadn't seen it yet! ;) lol jp!!! And Spiderman 2, because I figured I might as well continue with the sequals. lol. But it was alot of fun! I collapsed into bed again around 12. I NEEEED to get more sleep.

XOXO,
Jamie

Can You See?
Jennifer Lopez

Some say that we should not be together,
And that I deserve so much better.
But they are just blind,
I would choose to be with you or simply die.
You would be blind to not see how I feel,
And that my love is strong and real.

Baby can you see,
How much you mean to me…
Can you see that I would die for you
Or are you just blind too?

Some people don’t see very much,
But they can see I love your every touch.
Every now and then…
I feel your touch upon my skin.
It sends chills down my spine,
I’m going to love you till the end of time.

Baby can you see,
How much you mean to me…
Can you see that I would die for you
Or are you just blind too?

Those who can see it all,
Can see that it is for you I’m going to fall.
You make me feel so happy, you make me smile.
You make my whole life worth while.
Sometimes baby we fight,
But its because I love you, and its going to be alright.

Baby can you see,
How much you mean to me…
Can you see that I would die for you
Or are you just blind too?

Lion King

2004-12-09T23:48:00.000-08:00

More bowling in P.E. today! It's actually pretty fun... better then all the other stuff we've done. Maybe that's just because I am terrible at sports. Urrrrgh I cant wait until we do dance!

But anyways, so today Laurel made this HUGE packet for Mrs. Hudson about how she should give us credit. You could tell she loved it. After class she was talking to us and she was like "Well I was GOING to maybe give you the grade if it makes a difference between and A and a B for you at the end of the semester... but you've been rude so I'm not sure I want to do it anymore. Here's a tip for you from my dad 'Kill them with kindness'" Riiiiiight. Crazy ass woman. "Kill them with kindness" What? She wants us to butter her up... BRIBE her or something? Urgh shes dumb.

After school today I went to Harrison's house, we stayed there for a little while.. and then we went with his mom and 6 year old brother to the Lion King at the paramount. It was SOOO AWESOME! The costumes were freakishly cool. Like, I can't even explain how awesome they were. And the actors used them really well too. The people who played scar, simon and pumba sounded EXACTLY like the people in the movie. Which was cool :D I really liked the girl who played the mokey. She had an AWESOME VOICE. So did the 11 or so year old that played young Simba. He was a realllly good singer. When he did the "I just can't wait to be king" song with the girl who played Nala I couldn't figure out which was which since he sounded so much like a girl. It was pretty funny.

So ya... it was an AWESOME show! Harrison's brother is a cutie. He was singing along and would get these huge grins and just look AMAZED by it all. It was the cutest thing ever. :D I got to sleep at like 11:30 and seriously like collapsed into my bed. I was TIRED.

XOXO,
Jamie

Could This Be Love
Jennifer Lopez

Love makes no promises
If you only knew what i've been going through
Waiting and wanting you
Could this be love
How tell me how will I know
Will my heart make believe it's so
Or can I trust the way i feel
If you could read my mind
You see how hard I've tried
Still I can't decide

If you only knew what I've been going through
Waiting and wanting you
Could this be love
Oh tell me could this be love

El amor no hace promesas

Do you know if it's true
That real love lasts a lifetime
Does it shine like the stars up in the sky
And do you know if you can fall for just a moment
Is a moment for all time
Why, why am I so unsure
Is that love knocking at my door
Or the sound of my beating heart
If you could read my mind
You know i just can't hide
What I feel inside

If you only knew, what I've been going through
Waiting and wanting you
Could this be love
Oh, tell me could this be love

Could this be love
Could this be love
I wanna know

El amor no hace promesas

If you only knew
Love makes no promises

Ray

2004-12-08T23:02:00.000-08:00

Today in P.E. since it was raining... instead of running the mile we ran back and forth in the Gym and then whenever desmond blew his wistle once we had to do stop and do 10 crunches, and if he blew it twice we had to stop and do 5 pushups. I think he enjoyed watching it. But it was better then running around in the freezing cold out on the field.

Mrs. Hudson had a sub today.. She was REALLY REALLY tall and REALLY REALLY thin.. and kinda creepy. But nice. Nicer then evil Mrs. Hudson ;)

After school a few of us went to Taco Time (again..) Mr. Burrito man was there (geez Shula! You missed him! lol) Btw- Tamar agree's he's cute for every1 who thinks he's not. But anyways... no I don't just go there to look at the random dude. I just point him out. He's not THAT hot.

Thennn Harrison and I went to X-roads and saw Ray. It was REALLY empty. There was like 3 other people in the theater. It's kinda a depressing movie though, the guy had a tough life. I can't imagine being blind. That would be really terrible. :(

When I was waiting to be picked up from the mall I was sitting in the Starbucks are place by all the magazines, and there was this creepy hobo-ish looking guy who kept talking to me. It was kinda weird. I was sitting there thinking "Dont rape me! Don't rape me!" Hopeing desperatly my parents will show up soon. lol. But it was an okay day.

XOXO,
Jamie

Carino
Jennifer Lopez

Baby, never have I ever wanted anyone like I want you babe
Come and let me show you just how much I feel inside
I got so much love
Oh baby, when I get near you
Ooh, I can't control what I'm feeling
Baby
I got so much love to give that I would probably want all the time

Carino, carino, carino, carino
I gotta have your love, carino
Need to feel your touch, carino
Never get enough, carino, carino

I wish that I could spend all my days
And nights wrapped in your arms
Spending time with you 'cause all I see
In this world is me and you and no one else, ooh
I want you more and more
Oh baby, please understand me
I think that you deserve me
Cause I'm the type that would give you all the love
And affection that you need

Carino, carino, carino, carino
I gotta have your love, carino
Need to feel your touch, carino
Never get enough, carino, carino

It's raining men!

2004-12-07T18:31:00.000-08:00

So today was.. normal I guess... more bowling in P.E. My ring for Jewerly broke AGAIN. I really hate it. In Biology Laurel and I were calling Mrs Hudson things the entire time and sayign thigns like "you should write that down.. it might help you ace the next test.. oh wait it wont matter.. YOU'LL GET A ZERO ANYWAY!" Laurel drew a BEAUTIFUL picture of Mrs. Hudson if I do say so myself ;) And we were talking realyl loudly and seriously being pains in the ass and bursting out laughing. And shes like "Can I talk to you two after class?" And she didn't even explode.. it was awesome, but also made me hate her more. Lol. She was like "I understand you two are upset, dn you've been being pretty roudy today..." GRRR DIE. She continued with aimless blabber to try to explain why she was such a bitch who had a pole shoved WAY TOO FAR UP HER ASS. I figure back when she was a gothic vampire that sucked blood, that she went through some tramatic incident that made her an unfair blood sucking freak. :P

So.. other then that...Not much out of the ordinary happened. It was raining alot which sucks.. And there was this REALLY loud obnoxous woman on my bus who was like laughing loudly and telling dumb jokes to the driver who would also laugh loudly. lol. it was really annoying... And this skater kid came on, he looked like a freshman and he was playing with his lighter and kept staring at me. And then this lady came on and TOTALLY wiped out when she walked up the stairs and he burst out laughing. It was pretty interesting. The lady's fall scared me at first, then I felt sorry for her, then I sort of giggled a little. But I did good at hiding it ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

Baby I Love You
Jennifer Lopez

boy i never knew i could feel
the way i felt when i felt the way
you were feeling me baby
i'm so out of control, yeah

everytime you look my way
i realize more and more
how much i adore those pretty eyes
of yours i'm helpless baby

what i wanna know is
are you willing to try
can you love me for a lifetime
in just one night

baby i love you (love you)
baby i need you(need you)
i gotta have you(gotta have you babe)
can't be without you
(repeat)

blessed and cursed on the same day
the day that i first felt the power of you
inside of me, such a strong feeling
there comes a time in everyone's life
when you know, and everyone around you knows
that everything is changed,
you're not the same, it's a new day

oh what i wanna know is,
are you willing to try
there's gotta be more meaning to this
than what meets the eye

baby i love you
baby i need you
i gotta have you
can't be without you

oh, i love the way you kiss me
oh, baby please
i'm about to lose my mind
oh talk to me, cause i'm begging for you
and i'm down on my knees
baby, i know you're the one that i need

baby i love you(love you)
baby i need you(need you)
i gotta have you(gotta have you babe)
can't live without you(be without you)

Biology

2004-12-06T21:13:00.000-08:00

I HATE MRS HUDSON!!!! STUPID EVIL GOTHIC BITCH SHOULD GO TO HELL! So we had out bio test today. Which I'm sure I totally and completely Aced.. like by a LOT!!! Like.. argh. So I finish my test, so does Laurel and like everyone around me and I quietly whisper to laurel "Can I have a piece of paper?" And she whispers back something I didn't really understand.. and Mrs. Hudson gave us BOTH zero's! WHAT THE FUCK! It rought my grade down from a 95% to an 88%!!!!!!!!!!!! AKEJWAELKDFJALKCHNWELKFHALWKJFAKLSJCVSADKLC. SOOO pissed off. And we went in to talk about it with her and she gave us this bullshit explanation. It was obnoxous cuz she was all nice about it. "I'm sorry girls... but it's not the end of the world." If I get a B in that class it WILL be. UGH. I just walked out without saying anything cuz she pissed me off so much, I know I would have exploded at her if I didn't.

So anyways.. that was basically the highlight of my day there.

We started BOWLING in P.E. Lol. I LOVE it! It's hilarious. :D Loads of fun. I suck.. but hey, I do at everything in P.E. so its okay. ;)

Other then the BIO incident.. Today was a pretty normal day. Almost everything that was happening sunday got totally cleared up, which I thank god for. I'm really happy about it! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

Ain't It Funny?
Jennifer Lopez

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It seemed to be like the perfect thing for you and me
It's so ironic you're what I had pictured you to be
But there are facts in our lives
We can never change
Just tell me that you understand and you feel the same
This perfect romance that I've created in my mind
I'd live a thousand lives
Each one with you right by my side
But yet we find ourselves in a less than perfect circumstance
And so it seems like we'll never have the change

Ain't it funny how some feelings you just can't deny
And you can't stop move on even though you try
Ain't it strange when your feeling things you shouldn't feel
Oh, I wish this could be real
Ain't it funny how a moment could just change your life
And you don't want to face what's wrong or right
Ain't it strange how fate can play a part
In the story of your heart

Sometimes I think that a true love can never be
I just believe that somehow it wasn't meant for me
Life can be cruel in a way that I can't explain
And I don't think that I could face it all again
I barely know you but somehow I know what you're about

A deeper love I've found in you
And I no longer doubt
You've touched my heart and it altered every plan I've made
And now I feel that I don't have to be afraid

Ain't it funny how some feelings you just can't deny
And you can't stop move on even though you try
Ain't it strange when your feeling things you shouldn't feel
Oh, I wish this could be real
Ain't it funny how a moment could just change your life
And you don't want to face what's wrong or right
Ain't it strange how fate can play a part
In the story of your heart

I locked away my heart

But you just set it free
Emotions I felt
Held me back from what my life should be
I pushed you far away
And yet you stayed with me
I guess this means
That you and me were meant to be

Blah

2004-12-05T21:38:00.000-08:00

From the party:
Olga:* "Why the heck do guys have balls? They are UGLY!!!"
Roberta*: "They carry the SEA MEN!"
Everyone else: Bursts out laughing.

Lol I just remembered that. Priceless priceless times.

*Names have been changed to protect the innocent.

Today was a very blah day.. just totally blah. Dramatic.. there was a dumb fight thing I got myself into that I feel really stupid about. And I totally over reacted and like burst into tears. I'm a cry baby I guess.. I don't know. And I wish it never happened because it really had no point. We're over it now though. And then it was just.. there's more to it and stuff, it's hard to explain and it's not all about my day, someone else had a bad one too and it just sort of combined and became one GIANT bad day. But it really made me realize.. shit happens. And I'm glad I have someone to get through it with, I never really noticed how great that feels until now...

XOXO,
Jamie

Cry
Mandy Moore

I'll always remember
It was late afternoon
It lasted forever
And ended too soon
You were all by yourself
Staring up at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

The moment that I saw you cry

It was late in september
And I've seen you before (and you were)
You were always the cold one
But i was never that sure
You were all by yourself
Staring at a dark gray sky
I was changed

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

I wanted to hold you
i wanted to make it go away
I wanted to know you
I wanted to make your everything, all right....

I'll always remember...
It was late afternoon...
In places no one would find...

In places no one would find
All your feelings so deep inside (deep inside)
It was then that I realized
That forever was in your eyes
The moment I saw you cry

FTF!

2004-12-04T23:56:00.000-08:00

First to four! BHS football kicks ass!!! The game was really close though... got a little scary towards the end. But we pulled through ;) Cuz we rock that much. I didn't go to the game, I'm way too lazy. Watched it on T.V. and listened to it on the radio some though...

Today I went to Factoria... started off at Harrison's house a little bit and then we walked down to Factoria and met up with Shula and went to Target to get some X-mas shopping done. I keep buying more things! lol. But it was fun!

After that Shula and I went to Ashley's birthday.. which was REALLY REALLY FUN! Laurel, Megan, and I kicked ass at the scavenger hunt! ;) lol. It was a ton of fun! :D I miss spending time with everyoneeeee.

I'm out of Jessica Simpson songs! Grrr.. so I've moved on to J-Lo! Lol.

XOXO,
Jamie

Again
By J-Lo

Like an angel out the sky you came
Clearing up all the clouds, the sadness and the rain
So pure and healing was the love you bring
I knew inside... ( it felt so right )

For me, Ive struggled all my life
To find that thing that makes it right
With you it seems I may have found
Some other kind of love

I will love you all my life
Always be by your side
And I will give you all I have
Cause you gave me peace and joy
Again, again, again...

I was scared to let go and trust your love
After what Ive been through I had had enough
Whispering through your eyes, you never said a word
But something said... ( your hearts safe )

For me, Ive struggled all my life
To find that thing that makes it right
With you it seems I may have found
Some other kind of love

I will love you all my life
Always be by your side
And I will give you all I have
cause you gave me peace and joy
Again, again...

A friend is what youll always have in me
Im so grateful for the man you turned out to be
And it doesnt matter who you happen to meet
Youll forever be... ( a sacred part of me )

I will love you all my life
Always be by your side
And I will give you all I have
cause you gave me peace and joy
Again, again, again...

Thursday and Friday

2004-12-03T22:11:00.000-08:00

Thursday:

It seems like every teacher is having tests this week. In English we've had 2 days to write a 5 paragraphs.. each 3 chunk on Night and I haven't finished.. we only get class time and we have to leave them with the teacher after class so we can't work on them at home. Tomorrow we have to type them up all period, and mine is 4 pages back and front! Urrrgh! So not happy!

After school today I went to the mall for a little with Harrison and Elizabeth, ended up missing my bus and finally got home around 5:30 to a not very happy mom.. but yeah!

Friday:
We took our P.E. test toay.. it was like 60 questions or something. I just checked my grade on it... 58/60 and yet my grade in the class is still an 87% grrr!!!! >=(

They were selling freshman shirts today, but they had no smalls and I didn't want to buy a medium because its ugly anyways and it would be majorly ugly if it was also gigantic on me!

Tonight I went to the mall and did a little shopping in Victoria's Secret for x-mas presents! :D Thennn I went to see Christmas with the Kranks with Harrison. It had some funny parts.. but it wasn't all that great. And the theater was actually very crouded (unluckily) which was weird since the movie got REALLY REALLY bad reviews... but hey that's alright. There was a really obnoxous group of girls in the front row who were moving around and were really loud and at one point they turned around and were like calling to their friends across the theater... GRRR I wanted to hit them! I know I'm probably very annoying sometimes when I go with a group of my gals to a movie- but not THAT bad.

SOOO EXCITED FOR CHRISTMAS!

XOXO,
Jamie

With You
Jessica Simpson

The real me is a southern girl,
With her Levi's on and an open heart.
Wish I could save the world,
Like I was Supergirl.
The real me used to laugh all night
Lying in the grass, just talkin 'bout love.
But lately I've been jaded,
Life got so complicated.

I start thinkin about it,
I almost forgot what it was like,
To know when it feels right...

But with you,
I can let my hair down,
I can say anything crazy,
I know you'll catch me
Right before I hit the ground.
With nothing but a t-shirt on,
I never felt so beautiful,
Baby as I do now,
Now that I'm with you
With you, with you, with you
Now that I'm with you.

You speak and it's like a song
Just like that all my walls come down.
It's like a private joke,
Just meant for us to know.
I relate to you naturally,
Everybody else just fades away.
Sometimes it's hard to breathe,
Just knowing you found me.

Cuz I start thinkin about it,
I almost forgot what it was like,
To know when it feels right....

Cuz with you,
I can let my hair down.
I can say anything crazy,
I know you'll catch me
Right before I hit the ground.
With nothin but a t-shirt on,
I never felt so beautiful,
Baby as I do now,
Now that I'm with you,
With you, with you, with you.

Come and take me
Love you, save me
Like nobody else
Now I can be myself with you.

I can let my hair down.
I can say anything crazy
I know you'll catch me
Right before I hit the ground.
With nothin but a t-shirt on,
I never felt so beautiful,
Baby as I do now
Now that I'm with you.

After The Sunset

2004-12-01T22:05:00.000-08:00

And yet.. another wednesday! Lol. Today was.. bland I guess, not much really happened. The whole no-lunch thing is bugging me.

So the freshman shirts say "Freshman soup" on the front.. like cambels soup or w/e it is. And on the back it says "mmm mmm good!" mmm mmm lame. Lol. I'm not a very big fan of them, they're kind of... ugly. But hey- what else can you expect freshman year I guess.

Today Harrison and I went alll the way out to Redmond Town Center to see After the Sunset (I had free ticket things to there becuase of the fire alarm going off a while ago... I'm sure it's somewhere in my blogs... lol) The bus ride was like 40 minutes! But the mall was totally empty. Lol. It was pretty funny to see. I'm sure not many BHS people go to RTC, but it's a pretty cool mall. Much better in the summer since it's all outside and is VERY VERY cold in the winter.

I wouldn't really suggest seeing After the Sunset, I don't think it's really worth the money... at all. Like it's not terrible, but it wasn't really good. And to top it off the movie theater in RTC has arm rests. :P Which is also really dumb!

XOXO,
Jamie

Ho ooh.
When I see you there Im so aware how lucky I am baby.
Cause I don?t deserve I dont come close to understanding baby.
The logic of your kind of trust. It amazes me.
Its the more like you would care enough to just believe.
Your faith in me. It pulls me through when theres nothing around to hold on to.
When I fall when Im weak all the strength that I need is your faith baby.
Your faith in me.
Hao.
Even with your love I get along cause Ive always been, baby,
Its a nice salvation to my soul cause thats how it feels, baby.
The sacred thing that I keep close to carry on.
And I know that I will be all right and youre here at all.
Your faith in me. It pulls me through when theres nothing around to hold on to.
When I fall, when Im weak, all the strength that I need is your faith, baby.
Your faith in me.
You make me feel I can walk on water. (I can reach above the stars)
And now then comes our guessing, safe within your arms.
Your faith in me. It pulls me through when theres nothing around to hold on to.
When I fall, when Im weak, all the strength that I need is your faith, baby.
Your faith in me.
When I fall, baby, when Im weak, baby. All I need, baby. Is your faith in me.
When I fall, baby, when Im weak, baby. All I need, baby. Is your faith in me.
When I fall, baby, when Im weak, baby. All I need, baby. Is your faith in me.
When I fall, baby, when Im weak, baby. All I need, baby. Is your faith in me.
Hoooo.
Your faith in me

Sleepin In

2004-11-29T18:41:00.000-08:00

My parents let me sleep in today because I was sick (YES NO P.E!!!!) I got up at around.. 8:30 or so. 12 and 1/2 hours of sleep.. :D I got to lazily get ready for school, and ended up getting there right as first lunch started.

Afterschool I went to tutorial to talk to Mr. Desmond about making up everything I missed and Teo and Vesi were supposed to go and run for 20 minute and he goes "I wont be able to watch you, but I'll just have to trust you. O'Neil you can run too." And I'm like "But wait.. I have to go I can't run" And Teo goes "Jamie he wont be WATCHING US!" And Desmond just nods and walks off. It was pretty funny. I was like OHHHHH.. riiiiiiight. Nice Mr. Desmond letting me off for once. ;) He's just a pedafile.. but w/e. Did I even spell that right? 'eh...

So I'm not toooo sick anymore, my throat still hurts in the morning, but it gets better. My voice is all froggy and my nose is stuffy.. its not fun! :(

XOXO,
Jamie

Where You Are
Jessica Simpson

There are times
i swear i know your here
when i forget about my fears
feeling you my dear
watching over me
my hopes seek
what the future will bring
when you wrap me in your wings
and take me...

where you are
where you and i will be together
once again
we'll be dancing in the moonlight
just like we used to do
and you'll be smiling back at me
only then will i be free
when i can be, where you are

and i can see your face
your kiss i still can taste
not a memory erased
oh how i see your star
shining down on me
and i do anything
if i can just..be right there..

where you are
where you and i will be together
once again
we'll be dancing in the moonlight
just like we used to do
and you'll be smiling back at me
only then will i be free
when i can be, where you are

where you are
where you and i will be together
once again
we'll be dancing in the moonlight
just like we used to do
and you'll be smiling back at me
(and you'll be smiling back at me)

only then will i be free
then i will be free
so take me where you are

now baby there are times when selfishly
im wishing that you were here with me
so i can wipe the tears from your eyes
and make you see
everynight while you are dreaming
im here to guard you from our fall
)and anytime i feel alone
i close my eyes and dream of...

where you are
where you and i will be together
once again
we'll be dancing in the moonlight
just like we used to do
and you'll be smiling back at me
only then will i be free
when i can be, where you are

where you are
where you and i will be together
(and we will be together baby)
once again
we'll be dancing in the moonlight
(we'll be dancing in the moonlight)
just like we used to do
and you'll be smiling back at me
(and you'll be smiling back at me)
only then will i be free
then i will be free

(together) baby i still believe
oh i got to believe
( i still believe)
i will touch you that sweet day
(that sweet day)
that you take me there
where you are
i still believe
oh i got to believe
(i still believe)
i will touch you that sweet day

(that sweet day)
that you take me there
where you are
oh oh where you are
i still believe...fade
then i will be free
so take me where you are

Sick

2004-11-28T22:19:00.000-08:00

Urrgh! I woke up REALLY REALLY sick this morning. Half the day I could barely talk, and when I could I sounded like a dying horse! It was NOT fun. I was all drugged up on sudafed and asprins and blah.. but they didn't really help much.

Went to Southcenter today with my mom, brother, and sister in law. We went to Nordstroms and I got a couple pairs of pants and they did some x-mas shopping because Brenda (sister in law) works at another Nordstroms and could get like 30% off that day or something. Hopefffffully my Mom bought what I asked for for X-mas.. but who knows...

After that I went to Forever 21 and Wet Seal... neither of which are as good as they use to be. And I also went to American Eagle, which I love. :D

Other then that the day was pretty boring and.. sicky. I went to bed at like 8 because I was all sick and tired and stuff. :(

XOXO,
Jamie

This I Swear
Jessica Simpson

You're there by my side
In every way
I know that you will not forsake me
I give you my life
I would not think twice
Your love is all I need believe me

I may not say it quite as much as I should
But when I say I love you darling
That means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you
Until forever
Until death do us part
We'll be together
So take my hand
And hold on tight
And we'll get there
And this I swear

I'm wondering how
I ever got by
With out you in my life to guide me
Where ever I go
The one thing that's true
Is everything I do...I do for you

I may not say it half as much as I should
But when I say I love you darling
That means for good
So open up your heart and let me in

And I will love you
Until forever
Until death do us part
We'll be together
So take my hand
And hold on tight
And we'll get there
And this I swear

And so when ever you get breary
Just reach out for me
I'll never let you down
My love (You're my love)

And I will love you
Until forever
Until death do us part
We'll be together
So take my hand
And hold on tight (And hold on tight)
And we'll get there

And I will love you (And I will love you)
Until forever
Until death do us part (Until death do us part)
We'll be together
So take my hand (So take my hand now baby)
And hold on tight (Hold on tight)
And we'll get there....ohhhh
We'll get there

....And this I swear

Cookies

2004-11-27T22:00:00.000-08:00

Megan and I went to Angela's annual cookie party thing today... lol. It's alot of fun, got to see a bunch of people I basically hadn't seen since the start of summer.. and decorate cookies. lol. Her family makes like a THOUSAND sugar cookies, and then Angela and her little Sister get to invite over friends and we hang out and then decorate the cookies and stuff.. and then EAT them! lol. I made SOOO many.. it's crazy.

I woke up sick this morning! I decided I have the Megan-Harrison flu. I got a sore throat from Harrison and a stuffy nose/cough from megan! *pout* But it's ok, I don't blame them (atleast not Harrison.. lol Megan!)

After Angela's party I went home for a while and CHILLED. Literally, my house was REALLY cold. And then went to Harrisons house to help him "babysit".. We basically gave his brothers a movie to watch and then we watched Meet The Parents. Pretty good movie from what I saw of it, now I can actually go see the new one coming out because I've seen the first. Lol. So yeah.. loads of fun! :D 'Cept I was still kinda sick.. :(

XOXO,
Jamie

There You Were
Jessica Simpson

I was counting down the minutes
I was wishin' on the stars
I was prayin' for a sign
And tryin' to beat the odds
I was dreamin' of you
From before I saw your face
And there you were
Waitin' for that day
Then you reached through the hurricane
When you baby you called my name

You broke through the storm
And you turned back the night
Baby you are the fire
Burnin' the midnight sky
And your love
Keeps taking me higher
Just when all hope was gone
Where the hero belongs...
There you were

Must have broken into heaven
Just to roll back the clouds
Were you on a mission
Were you seekin' me out
Was I that one in a million
Was I that one sacred kiss
That you couldn't chance
You just couldn't miss
Then you babe you whispered through the silent tears
When you, you swept away all my fears

You broke through the storm
And you turned back the night
Baby you are the fire
Burnin' the midnight sky
And your love
Keeps taking me higher
Just when all hope was gone
Where the hero belongs
There you were babe

Standin' in the middle of nowhere,
With your arms wide open and you,
You were the reason when there was no reason in my life
You're the reason in my life

You broke through the storm
And you turned back the night
Baby you are the fire
Burnin' the midnight sky
And your love
Keeps taking me higher
Just when all hope was gone
There you were babe

You broke through the storm
And you turned back the night
Baby you are the fire
Burnin' the midnight sky
And your love
Keeps taking me higher
Just when all hope was gone
Where the hero belongs...
There you were

Like the light in the eye of the storm
Tellin' me not to cry anymore
There you were
Where I watched my whole world fall apart
Shinin' through like on angel from afar
Oh like an angel

You broke through the storm
And you turned back the night
Baby you are the fire
Burnin' the midnight sky
And your love
Keeps taking me higher
Just when all hope was gone
There you were babe

Shopping

2004-11-26T23:58:00.000-08:00

The shopping season has begun! ;) Lol. Today I slept in... Which is always great! Then I hung around and was lazy for a while until I decided to go to the mall and maybe look for a few presents - met up with Harrison there. The mall was PACKED. It was like herds of people wandering around. It was dumb because its like there's all these people invading MY mall! MINE! Not there's! I'm there like everday! Well, not everyday... but I'm there alot. :P

I got a couple gift ideas... and got part of Megan's gift. If you know anything to get a certain guy *cough* Harrison *cough* I need a few ideas ;) Anything in..y a know the 300 or 400 dollar range... lol!

After the mall, I went home for a little while... and then I slept over at Meggggans! We watched The Perfect Score, which was awesome - but had a REALLY cheesy ending! I love the asian pot dude who had the GIANT ASS pipe. My gosssh! I wanna marry him! Megan wants the guy's older brother. lol.

XOXO,
Jamie

Tal vez es amor
Jessica Simpson

(No idea what the french means.. but amor is love i think...)

Yeah, yeah yeah yeah
Yeah yeah..
Yeah yeah Ohhhhh

Cada vez que te veo
Llenas de deseo cada espacio, tú
Me llenas con tu luz

Y en un beso
Yo te lo confeso
Veo todo azul
Cuando llegas tú
En mi mente
Tanto cuando estás aquí
Pienso cada vez más en ti

Tal vez es amor
Hoy yo siento que me enamoré
Y me olvido de quien soy
Ya no sé quien ser
'In love'
Hoy yo siento que me enamoré (Tal vez es amor)
Descubrí lo que es amor
Cuando te besé

Tú llegaste a mi lado
Y me has dejado sin sentido tú
Como lo haces tú
Pedías mucho más
Fuí valiente y me dejé llevar
Soy tuya hasta el final

En un sueño tú llegaste a mí
Hoy no sé cómo estar yo sin ti

Tal vez es amor

Hoy yo siento que me enamoré
Y me olvido de quien soy
Ya no sé quien ser
'I'm In love'
Hoy yo siento que me enamoré (I'm in love)
Descubrí lo que es amor
Cuando te besé
Hoy yo siento que me enamoré
Descubrí lo que es amor
Cuando te besé

Yo no sé lo que pasa en mí
Algo falta si tú no estás
Antes de llegar yo te sentí
Junto a ti me siento volar

Tal vez es amor

Hoy yo siento que me enamoré (I think I'm in love)
Y me olvido de quien soy
Ya no se quien ser
Tal vez es amor
Hoy yo siento que me enamoré (In love with you)
Descubrí lo que es amor
Cuando te besé

Hoy yo siento que me enamoré (In love with you)
Y me olvido de quien soy
Ya no se quien ser
Tal vez es amor
Hoy yo siento que me enamoré (For you)
Descubrí lo que es amor
Cuando te besé (Going out of my mind boy)

Hoy yo siento que me enamoré (Tal vez es amor)
Y me olvido de quien soy
Ya no se quien ser
In Love
Hoy yo siento que me enamoré
Descubrí lo que es amor
Cuando te besé

Hoy yo siento que me enamoré
Y me olvido de quien soy
Ya no se quien ser
Hoy yo siento que me enamoré
Descubrí lo que es amor
Cuando te besé

Turkey Day

2004-11-25T18:30:00.000-08:00

Happy Turkey Day! Gobble gobble! So today was just sitting around, watching movies with the family.. stuffing my face... and ya, basically an average Thanksgiving.

I woke up and watched A Little Princess, which I LOVE! It's such a sad movie! :( I've loved it since I was like 5. Then I watched Hook. Yup, another Peter Pan movie. Didn't get to finish it though cuz my parents decided to start Harry Potter 3, which they rented. Thennn we ate dinner, I stuffed myself. And now I'm all tired and fulland happy! :D After dinner my parents and my brother and I played Texas Holdum.. is that what it's called? My dad had to learn it because he's going to some guys night out poker thing at one of his accounts, and my brothers like a pro and plays it all the time. So he kept trying to bluff and stuff or do things that were supposed to make me think he had 3 of a kind, but since I'm dense I just basically put in a bid one every hand! lol. I ended up winning though, so I guess it's a good strategy. I figure.. since there wasn't any actualy money involved - what's the point?

Soooo. Turkey day was fun, but I'm looking forward to the rest of the weekend more. :D

XOXO,
Jamie

Take My Breath Away
Jessica Simpson

Watching every motion
In my foolish lover's game
On this endless ocean
Finally lovers know no shame
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Watching I keep waiting
Still anticipating love
Never hesitating
To become the fated ones
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Through the hourglass I saw you
In time you slipped away
When the mirror crashed I called you
And turned to hear you say
If only for today
I am unafraid

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Watching every motion
In this foolish lovers game
Haunted by the notion
Somewhere there's a love in flames
Turning and returning
To some secret place inside
Watching in slow motion
As you turn around and say
My love

Take my breath away
Take my breath away

Finding Neverland

2004-11-24T22:26:00.000-08:00

It took me 20 minutes to run 2 miles today in P.E., which is alot. But for me it's NOT. I didn't stop at all, which is a big deal for me. lol. But after my entire face was like bright pink :P And it was stinging cuz my face is all dry and peeling cuz of this stupid Retina A stuff I'm using that totally murders my face. :( But hopefully after a while it'll stop and just start making my face better. But ya.

It's Frinsday! Friday.. Wednesday.. get it? good. SOO excited for a 4 day weekend! Although tomorrow I can't do anything but sit at home bored cuz it's thanksgiving. Hoping to get some good after Thanksgiving shoppin in this weekend though! :D

Today afterschool Megan came over to bellevue and has lunch with all of us at Taco Time (and Mr. burrito sexy man was there. lol Shula!) It was fun, no ice went down anyones pants this time though. LOL.

So now I have to start thinking more about x-mas gifts... which isn't fun because I can never figure out what I want to get anyone! And I need alot more money to be able to guy things.. argh. My mom has now decided everytime I want to buy clothes that she has to put them away and not let me wear them so that she can call them x-mas presents. Lol. We went into Hollister today (after she bought me more pants because she enjoys bleaching all mine) and I wanted to buy some pants and underrrwear, and she goes "Okay you have to wait outside" Then she comes out like 10 minutes later and goes "Sorry, the lines were too long" A nice try on her part, except for the fact that there were NO lines.. the store was basically empty, and that I could see her trying to hide the Hollister bag behind another bag. It was cute tohugh. Lol.

So after lunch, and before shopping, I went to see Finding Neverland with Harrison. Really cute movie. Johnny Depp is sexxxxxy! Lol. But it was a really good movie! Prolly helped that I'm totally in love with any sort of Peter Pan story or related things.. but HEY! Lol. I cried during the newest Peter Pan with Jeremy Sumpter.. it was SAD! I hate it how Peter goes awayyyy! He should stay with them. :( But anyways.. good movie! You should see it.

My parents let me take a bus home after dark today. Lol. It sounds like sumtin little, but for them it was a big deal because they're CONVINCED I'll get raped or something - I dunno. But my dad was like "Make sure Harrison walks you to the bus stop!" Lol.

So ya, that was my day today! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

Sweetest Sin (I LOVE THIS SONG!)
Jessica Simpson

Yeah...

Can you imagine us?
Making love
The way it would feel the first time that we touched
Can you think of it
The way I dream of it
I want you to see it like I’m seeing it

It’s a picture of perfection
The vision of you and me…

Your lips upon my lips
Can you just picture it?
Your finger tips on my finger tips
Your skin upon my skin
Would be the sweetest sin
That would be the sweetest sin *yeah*

All night I lie awake
Cause it's to much to take
Dreaming about the love that we could make
All day I think of schemes
To get you next to me
I want you so bad that I can barely breathe

It’s a sign of my obsession…
That I can stop thinking bout…

Your lips upon my lips
Can you just picture it?
Your finger tips on my finger tips
Your skin upon my skin
Would be the sweetest sin *oh baby sweetest sin*
Yeah, you are the sweetest sin

Your lips upon my lips
Can you envision it?
Temptation I could never resist
Your skin upon my skin
Would be the sweetest sin *baby yeah*
That would be the sweetest sin

It would feel so good
To be so bad
You don’t know how bad
I want that
I would do anything to feel your.....

Your lips upon my lips
Can you just picture it?
Your finger tips on my finger tips
Your skin upon my skin
Would be the sweetest sin *you are the sweetest sin*
That would be the sweetest sin

Your lips upon my lips
Your finger tips on my finger tips
Your skin upon my skin
Would be the sweetest.... sin

Bus

2004-11-23T21:01:00.000-08:00

I'm glad it's only a three day week! Nice long weekend filled with lots and lots of turkey day left overs!!! :D And SLEEPING IN! That is a BIG one. Lol.

Today was.. normal I guess. Nothing really stook out that much. The drama seems to be winding down right now, which I'm REALLY happy about. But for some reason it seems like a never ending rollercoaster. It goes wayyy up, then down for a short while, then sky rockets right back up again. Hopefully it wont! *crosses fingers*

After school today Harrison rode my bus and got off at his work, and even though its only like.. 10 minutes more together, it really makes a difference. Since we don't spend too much time together at all during school - and when we do it's never alone. And it's just - I really wish I could spend more time with him... because I just love it when we're together. So I dunno, it just sort of started off my night on a better note, which continued for a while.

My house is abnormally cold! I don't know why. The heat is like dead or something.. I'm wrapped up in two blankets right now! :(

I went to jazz tonight, which was fun. We had a different teacher, and she taught really fast and like almost everyone got totally lost. Except Megan and I cuz we rock our socks! ;)

So.. I think that's basically all I have to say for today! :O

XOXO,
Jamie

Sweet Kisses
Jessica Simpson

oooh ooook oooh
couldn’t look me in the eye
he apologizes
he didn’t make enough to take me out tonight
i beg him not to worry, please don’t turn away
i don’t need a world of riches
i just need a little time with you and
sweet kisses..
all I really need is
sweet kisses..
it’s what moves me
and his lips are pure emotion
he smiles because he knows how much I love the way he makes me feel inside
and suits all my wishes
who could ask for more?
doesn’t have to say I love you
all I need he tells me with his
sweet kisses..
all I really need is
sweet kisses..
it’s what moves me
he heals me.
he touches me down to my soul
my heart’s beating out of control
i just need a little time with you
sweet kisses..
all I really need is
sweet kisses..
it’s what moves me
sweet kisses, baby it’s all I really need from you
sweet (don’t need your money baby. just want your time now, baby) kisses
cause that’s what moves me honey. sweet kisses
sweet kisses. (your kisses) And that's what moves me
sweet kisses

Jack in da BOX

2004-11-22T20:35:00.000-08:00

In P.E. today we started off doing kickboxing, but when Mr. Desmond left.. David ran up to the T.V. and fast forwarded it - it was SOOO funny. Then Desmond comes back and goes "everyone to the field" And makes us run the rest of the period for it... but it was worth it because I just about peed my pants laughing. Lol.

Today I went out to lunch with Laura at jack in the box. She's a cool kid. I got frenchfries and she got a giant burger, then I went to 7-11 to buy candy, so it's all good ;) While we were at Jack in the Box a giant group of short, old, mexicans guys with the same hair cuts and same facial hair came in. It was like a little herd! Wow.. that wasn't meant to sound that racist!

After school I went to Starbucks and bought a gingerbread cookies.. they are REALLY REALLY good! I think I might be addicted ;) I loooove them!

Other then that it was.. a pretty boring day I guess... besides all the drama and stuff, which is started to become a really big issue. I hope it gets solved soon, cuz its worrying me.

XOXO,
Jamie

My Wonderful
Jessica Simpson

The time when I was down and out no lovin in my life.
This angel came and brought about a meaning of so right.
Took my black and lonely days and turned the light with his loving ways.
He's my wonderful. Everything a girl could want to love and all I need.
Yes he's my wonderful. He must have been sent from up above just for me.

Gotta have him close to me each and every night.
To give me that security of dreamin him delight.
Love has got a grip on me, oh so tight.
Hope he never lets go.
He's my wonderful. Everything a girl could want to love and all I need.
Yes he's my wonderful. He must have been sent from up above just for me.

Cause I don't never wanna be freed from this lovin care that most people never see.
And at night I pray that I?ll have my way and hand your love for eternity.
He's my wonderful. Everything a girl could want to love and all I need.
Yes he's my wonderful. He must have been sent from up above just for me.

No one could ever do for me the things he does cause...
He's my wonderful. Everything a girl could want to love and all I need.
He's my wonderful. (Wonderful) He must have been sent from up above just for me.

He's my wonderful. Everything a girl could want to love and all I need.
Yes he's my wonderful. He must have been sent from up above just for me.

He's my wonderful. Everything a girl could want to love and all I need.
Yes he's my wonderful. He must have been sent from up above just for me.

He's my wonderful. Everything a girl could want to love and all I need.
Yes he's my wonderful. He must have been sent from up above just for me.

National Treasure

2004-11-21T20:27:00.000-08:00

My mom keeps bleaching my clothes! In the past week shes beached : 5 pairs of socks, a black tank top and 3 pairs of pants!!!! GRRR!

She took me to the mall today to get new pants, but only to the Bon. And all the size 5's were the right length.. but like GIANT!! They were HUGE! It was totally weird. And size 3's fit, but they are too short. I think they are making the sizes bigger so people think they are thinner - I definatly know im not losing ANY weight at all, so it can't be it. Weirdness. So I didn't end up getting ANY pants - and I tried on about 12 pairs too! It was dumb :( But I pointed out the Doonie and bourke and the northface I want for x-mas. :P Now if I can convince my parents to get me and ipod and a tiffany's bracelett too. Lol. I'll prolly end up only getting the North Face though, so whatever. Gets 30 percent off at Nordstrom next sunday, so that's when shes buying everything.

After the mall I walked to the Galleria and saw National Treasure with Harrison. It was a good movie.. I would suggest seeing it if you want to. It's all like.. riddly and stuff. I dunno - kinda makes you think. And my clod sore is like basically gone, and prolly not contagious anymore :D Very happy, they suck butt! :(

XOXO,
Jamie

My Way Home
Jessica Simpson

I will give it all

We've all been down the dusty road trying to see around the bend
In search of something
Lots of faces different places, emptiness had settled in
And then I saw him

I'm the lover of your soul
Deep inside this man that I know

Vision picture perfect world as you focus in the lens
Fairy tale begins
I'm so happy that I found you
I just wanna break down and cry and laugh and hug and kiss

I'm the lover of your soul
Deep inside the man that I know
I will give it all and let go
Through his eyes I find my way home

He can take me to heaven
That's why I need him, and I want him
That's no one I'll ever love, no other can touch him
I will promise you with all I am

I'm the lover of your soul
Deep inside this man that I know

I will give it all and let go
Through his eyes I'll find my way home

I will find my way
I will find my way

I will give it all

I'm the lover of your soul
Deep inside this man that I know

I will give it all and let go
(go go go go)
I will give it all and let go

Busy

2004-11-20T20:27:00.000-08:00

So today was kinda crazy. Woke up at like 10, got ready.. then went to Gaia's at like 11:30 and hung out there.. then Dmitri came to her house. Which was cool, I haven't ever really had like much of a conversation with him before so it was fun. He knew my frist and last name and that was weird since I dont even know his last and not that many ppl at Odle knew me if I didn't know them, except everyone who saw Fame. So then Ashley and Laurel came. Laurel gave Gaia REALLY nice **earings** Green ones! lol. ;) Then a bunch of random people came, who I didn't know and it seemed their whole life was like.. smoking. But that's okay - I could just be judging them wrong.

So after that we went to my brothers house to look at all his new furniture and to watch the Apple Cup. Huskies are unbelieveably bad this year. It's good they're getting rid of the coach - no matter how much of a "nice guy" he is or "loyal" or whatever. He's not a good coach. We left at 1/2 time so that my parents could drive me to Shulas!

Shulas dog is cuuuute! I didn't stay at her house very long at all though, because her dad gave us a ride to where Harrison and his brother were having their party. And we got way off because the directions that map quest gave us were totally wrong. Which is weird, but they were like WAY off and had us going the wrong direction.

The party was lots of fun, I wore myself out and got really really tired though. Lol. And I got an icky scrape on my back that hurts :(

After the party Shula slept over, and we had fun pigging out on ice cream and being dorks :D

The drama at BHS never seems to stop. And alot of it is caused by people assuming things.. like that if you like hanging out with someone that your in love with them. Or that you cant be friends without one of you liking the other. And it just causes one big giant messsss.

XOXO,
Jamie

Loving You
Jessica Simpson

I keep on
I keep on loving

Oh, oh
Oh, oh
Mmm
(I'm gonna keep on loving you)
Mmm
(I'm gonna keep on)
I'm gonna keep on loving you
(Loving you)
Oh
(I'm gonna keep on)

Don't tell me it's time to go
I think my watch is too slow
Please, I don't wanna know
(I don't wanna know)
Baby, what will it hurt
If I stay on tonight
And bring yourself into me
Boy I think you should know
I'm not letting you go

All night
I don't wanna have to say goodnight
Hold tight
I just wanna stay and hold you tight
So right
Feels so right no matter what we do
I'm just gonna keep on loving you

Yeah you're like heaven to hold
And you're the flame when I'm cold
(Boy I think you should know)
Boy I think you should know
I'm not letting you go

All night
I don't wanna have to say goodnight
Hold tight
I just wanna stay and hold you tight
So right
It feels so right no matter what we do
I'm just gonna keep on loving you
All night
Love me like the rainbow loves the light
Hold tight
Feels me like the raindrops kiss the sky
So right
Feels so right no matter what we do
I'm just gonna keep on loving you

I think I should stay awhile and keep enjoying you
Come close, wrap me in your arms
Say you want me too
Intoxicated by the way you're making me move
I know I'm gonna keep on loving you

Oh
(la, la, la, la, la, la)
(So right)
(la, la, la, la, la, la)

I'm gonna keep on loving you

TGIF

2004-11-19T17:41:00.000-08:00

Thank GOD it's friday! A week needed weekend thats for sure. And a totally packed one! Like crazily busy! Got 2 parties tomorrow, and going to Shula's between them... and then Shula's sleeping over after the 2nd. Then homework, swimming, and mall sunday. And tonight I couldn't do anything because we had a family dinner, but I was invited to go to ike 3 places. Geez. Why is it all this weekend and no one invites me other weekends? Lol. I guess that's not totally true, but why SO much this weekend? Not that I mind! I love having things to do :D

So today was fairly normal. I did NOT get enough sleep last night though, so I was 1/2 dead all day. But that's alright.

I got 49.5/50 on our math quiz. High score :D

I've become like.. addicted to writing everyone notes now. Lol. It's bad cuz then I don't pay attention in my classes.. like Spanish. Which you neeeeed to pay attention to or you get confused - like me.

Starbuck's ginger bread cookies are REALLY good! :D I had two today.. lol.

The bus ride home was fun today, Jared (my hip hop teacher) was on the bus. Along with Nathan Hassbleblad (the gay 1 whose hilarious) Audrey Brown (Ashley's sister) Kyle (head of the bhs robotics club.. hes a lonely little boy, who uses VERY big words) and Harrison rode it to his dads shop to go and work. So it was like a little party on the bus ;) lol. We had some fun conversations, as always.

So tonight all these relatives of mine are over because my cousin is moving back to Montana because she finished school at WSU.. and so we're having a giant good bye dinner thing for her.. fun stuff :P

XOXO,
Jamie

Irresistible
Jessica Simpson

You Know I Don't know what it is
but something about you is so irresistible

Dont you try and tell me that he's not my type
To Hide what I feel inside
When he makes me weak with desire
I Know that im supposed to make him wait
Let him think I like the chase but I cant
stop fanning the fire, I Know I meant
to say No

But he's irresistible
up close and personal
now inescapable
I can hardly breathe, more than just
physical deeper than spritual
his ways are powerful
and irresistible to me (yeah yeah, I can hardly breathe)

Dont yoy think I'm trying to tell my heart whats right
That I should really say goodnight
But I cant stop myself from falling (falling)
Maybe I'll tell him that i feel the same
that I dont want to play no game (No)
Cuz when I Feel his arms wrapped around me
I know meant to say No (I Meant To Say No...)

But He's Irresistible (Irresistible)
Now inesacpable
I can hardly breathe ( I can hardly breathe)
more than just physical
deeper than spritual (oh oh yeah)
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me

Cant You see whenever he's close to me
I really find it hard to breathe
Hes soo irresistible
baby you know its more than just spritual
His kisses are powerful

He's So Irresistible (yeah yeah)
Up close and personal (oh yeah)
Now inescapable I can hardly breathe (I can hardly breath)
More than just physical (oh yeah)
Deeper than Spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me

He's Irresistible (yeah yeah)
up close and personal (irresistible to me)
I can hardly breathe
more than just physical
deeper than spritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible To Me....

Ipod Case

2004-11-18T19:07:00.000-08:00

We did Tae-bo in P.E. again, and at the end of the class Mr. Desmond goes "Good job today O'Neil" Okkkay? I think he has like.. multiple personalities. He's seriously Bi-polar!!!! Crazy ass teacher...

We're making ring in jewerly, which is cool... only we HAVE to have like wire designs, I'd rather just have a pretty plain ring. But oh well. I'm sure it can't turn out THAT bad.

We did our scene in drama, I guess we did pretty good. Stephanie talked VERY fast though, it was cute! lol. I kept trying to like slow her down - it didn't really work though.

THE OC IS ON TONIGHT! I'm excited!!!!!! How crazy.. but I am.

So this whole.. student store being closed and all the pop machines being shut down and the lunch guard people because of littering is starting to bug me! I NEED MY CANDY AND POP PEOPLE! Why dont that WANT MY MONEY? You could like.. bring bottles of coke and sell them for like 5 bucks. It'd be like the black market! Only, not. But STILL.

So today afterschool we went to McDonalds (Im going to get FAT!!!!) And then I bought Harrison his extremely ate birthday present.. and Ipod Case. And its NOT MY FAULT it was this late! He made me wait until the type he wanted came in! ;)

It's sad.. but I'm already planning out my christmas presents for everyone! lol. YES I DO HAVE A LIFE THANK YOU VERY MUCH! I just have fun making presents! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

Imagination
Jessica Simpson

I sit alone
Wishing that you were here
I pick up the phone and no one's even there
But I hear your voice
And it sounds so clear
And I'm telling you just how I feel
Wishing that you'd come and make it so real
(Are you just a vision in my mind?)
Have you really right here tonight?
(Are you gonna make everything right?)
Why you standing here inmy door
Are you the one that I wished for, yeah

I wished upon a tonight
That you will grant my wish tonight
And take me to the one in my imagination
I wish I may, I wish i might
Have a wish I wish tonight
Take me to the one in my imagination

Now you will mean more than the word to me
If we could be more than a fantasy
I do believe one day that you will be reality
Just you and me
Being everything I knew me could be
(Are you just a vision in my mind?)
Have you walked into my life?
Are you really right here tonight?
(Are you gonna make everything right?)
Standing right here in my door
Are you the one that I wished for?

I wished upon a tonight
That you will grant my wish tonight
And take me to the one in my imagination
I wish I may, I wish i might
Have a wish I wish tonight
Take me to the one in my imagination

I wished upon a tonight
That you will grant my wish tonight
And take me to the one in my imagination
I wish I may, I wish i might
Have a wish I wish tonight
Take me to the one in my imagination

When you're in my thoughts
(I know in my heart)
You were made for me
That's why we have to start
(Making our love so true and...)
Making a love for two
(So make my dreams come true tonight)

I wished upon a tonight
That you will grant my wish tonight
And take me to the one in my imagination
I wish I may, I wish i might
Have a wish I wish tonight
Take me to the one in my imagination

(Are you just a vision in my mind?)
Did you really walk in my life?
Are you reallt right here tonight?

I wished upon a tonight
That you will grant my wish tonight
And take me to the one in my imagination
I wish I may, I wish i might
Have a wish I wish tonight
Take me to the one in my imagination

Retainer

2004-11-17T19:30:00.000-08:00

So today I had to run for 20 minutes non stop in P.E... and I actually ran alot! Like, I stopped a little... but not too much. I was all pink after it though, it wasn't fun :(

I haven't had to present my English report.. or do my scene in Drama, and the scene I'm looking forward to, the English report - not so much.

For lunch today we all went to Taco Time, which was fun.. better then eating at the school or McDonalds like we ALWAYS do. There was this cute guy who worked there (well cute for a mexican.. JPJPJP) And he kept like staring at us (specially me and Shula.. lol score shula ;)) Afterwards Shula's like thinking of tihngs she could have said and she goes "I'll have your bean burrito any time!" I started CRACKING UP. I thought I was going to die! lol. Shelly poured her ice down Laurel's pants... and it melted and she had a GIANT wet spot on her butt, it looked like she peed her pants. It was sad... but SUPER FUNNY!!!

Then Laurel, Shelly, Harrison, Shula and I went to the mall, Shula had to leave almost right after we got there. And we all bought Together bracelets from New Balance :D It looked really crappy having both Athena and Together, so I took of my Athena so I only have Together and Livestrong now. But thats ok.

Why is it that NO hot guys work at Ambercrombie on wednesdays after school? Do they save them all for the weekends??!?!?! It's unfair. *pout*

I got my retainer today! I talked funny with it for like the first 3 hours, major lisp. I've got it mostly under control now... mostly, but not completely. :P My orthodontist was checking out my mouth (hehe.. checking out.. like you know.. ahhh nevermind! lol) And he see's my retainer and he goes "How cute! You have good taste" and like, pats me on the cheek. I was like oooookay...... WEIRDO!!!!! But my retainer is cute! It's like a clearish material with rainbow polkadots. I'll show you if you wanna see it. It's easy to put in, but I have MAJOR issues getting it off. It's hard to get it off! And It HURTS! :(

Coldsores are evil. Did you know 95% of the population has the form of herpes that causes cold sores? But only 10% of those 95% actually GET coldsores. What does that mean? That I'm just unbelieveably unlucky I guess. I've been getting them since I was like 6, and I hate them and they're lucky and you can't kiss anyone when you have them! Luckily it's fairly small.. so it SHOULD go away fast, and so far coverup seems to hide it fairly well. It's not like you can't see it... but atleast its less noticible.

My dad paid me 10 dollars for every A i got this quarter.. which would be 6, so I got 60 bucks! :D He says if I have a 4.0 at the end of the year he'll give me five hundred dollars. FIVE HUNDRED DOLLARS!!!!!! I hope I get a 4.0... cuz that would be aweosme anyways, and then 500 dollars to top it off would be like.. stupidly amazing! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

I Wanna Love You Forever
Jessica Simpson

You set my soul at ease
Chase darkness out of view
Left your desperate spell on me
Say you feel it too
I know you do
Pour yourself all over me
And I'll cherish every drop here on my knees

I wanna love you forever
And this is all I'm asking of you
10,000 lifetimes together
Is that so much for you to do?
Cuz from the moment that I saw your smiling
face
And felt the fire in your sweet embrace
I swear I knew
I'm gonna love you forever

My mind fails to understand
What my heart tells me to do
And I give up all I have
Just to be with you
And that would do
I've always been taught to win
And I never thought I'd fall
Be at the mercy of man
Now I only want to be right where you are

I wanna love you forever
And this is all I'm asking of you
10,000 lifetimes together
Is that so much for you to do?
Cuz from the moment that I saw your smiling
face
And felt the fire in your sweet embrace
I swear I knew
I'm gonna love you forever

In my life I've learned that heaven never waits,
no
Let's take this now before it's gone like
yesterday, no
Cuz when I'm with you
There's nowhere else that I would ever wanna
be
I'm breathing for the next second
I can feel you loving me

I wanna love you forever
And this is all I'm asking of you
10,000 lifetimes together
Is that so much for you to do?
Cuz from the moment that I saw your smiling
face
And felt the fire in your sweet embrace
I swear I knew
I'm gonna love you forever

Tuesssday

2004-11-16T19:53:00.000-08:00

So this morning, I decided to sacrafice straightening my hair, just so that I could get 15 more minutes of sleep. Lol. Now that I think about it, it was kinda a stupid thing to do.. but I was TIRED! Since wednesday and monday I slept in for my ortho appointments... and then there was the 4 day weekend, so I wasn't use to having to wake up in the morning - it was like murder.

P.E. Seems like the longest period ever when we have to do that fitness stuff that we're doing. We're learning about flexibility.. and they are all saying don't
partner strech or over strech yourself. If you don't strech over as far as you can go.. you're not going to get ANYWAY. And partner streching helps alot, you just gotta make sure you tell them to stop before your in like EXTREME pain. So the crazy Fitness P.E. people dunno crap.

We changed seats in spanish, and I'm in the back on the side.. RIGHT in front of the door, and it's like FREEZING constantly. And whenever the door opens I get this GIANT gust of freeezing cold air.. it's not fun :(

I had to go to the skin docter afterschool, for all the lovely things wrong with me. I had a list of like 10 things, she only looked at like 5.. and like barely talked because she was freakishly rushed. Then she gave me like.. 5 billion samples of stuff to use. Two things for my face, this ointment for my white spot on my chest where there is no pigment. So she gave me Retin A or w/e it is the acne stuff for my face.. and now I have to wear like loads of sunscreen, IN WINTER! It's silly.

XOXO,
Jamie

I Think I'm In Love With You
Jessica Simpson

Every time you'r near baby
I get kinda crazy in my head for you
I don't know what to do
And oh baby
I get kinda shaky when they mention you
I just lose my cool
My friends tell me
Something has come over me
And I think I know what it is

I think I'm in love
Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I'll be doin silly things when it comes to you
Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been telling all my friends what I feel for you

Just the other night baby
I saw you hangin
You were with your crew I was with mine too
You took me by surprise
When you turn and look me in my eyes
Boy you really blow my mind

I don't know what's gotten into me
But, I think I know what it is

I think I'm in love
Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
In love, boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you

Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
In love, boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you

Something strange has come over me
Got me going out of my mind
Never met a guy like you before
You make me feel special inside

I think I'm in love
Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
Boy I think I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you

Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
Boy I think I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you

Boy I think that I'm in love with you
I've been doin silly things when it comes to you
Boy I think I'm in love with you
I've been tellin all my friends what I feel for you

BRACES!

2004-11-15T18:01:00.000-08:00

And It's offfficial! :D Jamie is now BRACES FREE! My teeth are all slippery and I LOVE IT! My tongue hurts now.. from running it over my teeth and stuff. I have a permanent retainer on the bottom, its bumpy and not smooth though.. and that's driving me crazy!!! The end of my tongue is all cut up cuz I keep running it against it. I also have a small retainer behind my two front teeth. It's kinda like they superglued a staple to my teeth, cuz its got two BIG bumps, and you can feel the glue stuff around it. But hey.. my cheeks are no longer getting cut up!!! And I guess I don't look THAT weird without my braces... maybe?

I got to sleep in again today, and I went to 1st lunch instead of turning in my note and going to spanish to hang with every1 with that lunch.

After school I was supposed to go with Amy to the library for our Genocide project.. but we didn't end up doing that so I just went to the mall for a while and took the bus home. I missed my stop on my bus, and had to get off down on West Lake Sammamish Park way.. the road by Lake Sammamish, and then waslk 5 or 6 blocks up to my house... and it was dark and rainy and icky and I was tiiired :( So not fun!

XOXO,
Jamie

How Could I Let You Down?
Jessica Simpson

Sometimes it's hard when you're so deep inside
To see all you can lose in a blink of an eye
Dreams could be shattered
You could be gone
How would I survive
Cause you're where I belong
My soul-believer
Without you, I don't know who I would be

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go

Sometimes I listen to a voice that isn't mine
I disconnect from everything inside
And I have made choices
And wasted all the days
I could have been with you
Where my heart stayed
I know you've waited faithfully
Blessing our love even stronger

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you go

And I've been blessed
For every kiss
For every breath
(How could I let you down)
And I've been touched,
By hands I trust
My love is risen

Underneath, I can feel you move through me
Inside out, you surround me
I breathe you like I'm taking my last breath
Oh, you're everything I know
So how could I let you
How could I let you go

Love

2004-11-14T20:02:00.000-08:00

I GET MY BRACES OFF TOMORROW!!!!!!!!

So after being totally lazy and sitting around in my pjs all day, at 2:30 I had to get ready to go to the library to work on my Genocide project for english with Amy and Aya, none of us could work the library computers.. I'm sure we were quite funny to watch. So after 3 hours of getting off track and going on side conversations about Hilary Duff to the creepy librarian who kept watching us.. we got fairly close to being done. But not totally done. Then I was 15 minutes late to church - my parents fault not mine. Where the whole service was about never giving up. '

We have a biology write up due tomorrow, and I can NOT figure out where the heck I left my lab book. Hopefully it's in class.. and it didn't just fall out somewhere randomly like my wallet did that one time. But I was lucky with my walled :D

Soo.. on to today's rant :D

"To describe love is very difficult, for the same reason that words cannot fully describe the flavor of an orange. You have to taste the fruit to know its flavor. So with love."
-Paramahansa Yogananda (nice name)

"There is no fear in Love; but perfect love casts out fear."
- The Bible

Once again, I've decided to do another Love post. It's been a while, so why not?

What is love? It's weird how a 3 word question, can cause so much wonder and thought to so many people. What really is love? It really can't be described, atleast not by me. Love is something you learn about as you grow. You have to learn bit by bit what love is like... it's not like it can just all appear in you. And you also have to feel it to really know what it is. Love is... a bond, or connection if you will, between two different people. It brings out the best in both people. Makes you want to spend every moment of your life with them, makes you miserable when you're away. It's wanting to wake up every morning, cuddled into their arms. It's never being able tog et them off your mind, even in your dreams. It's the most exiting, most powerful, most renewing, most exhilerating, most inspirational, most joyous, most complex, most intuitional, most magical, most mysterious, most energizing, most intimate, most affirming, most stress-relieving, most uniting thing that human beings are themselves capable of. It's telling someone something about yourself, and worrying that once they find out they won't love you anymore... and it's the shock that you get when you find out that they still do, that your honesty makes them love you more. That nothing you could say about yourself could stop that feeling.

When I try to decribe what love it, it's like I'm going around in circles with my mind. It's illogical, but its above all logic anyone could have... Thinking of why I know I'm in love.. it just comes out as I know I love him, because I love him. And I love him.. so that means I love him.

"Love seeks no cause beyond itself and no fruit; it is its own fruit, its own enjoyment. I love because I love; I love in order that I may love."
- St. Bernard 1090-1153, French Theologian and Reformer

Love is wanting the best for a person, wanting them to be happy no matter what. Giving youself up.. just to see them smile. Looking past all the little imperfections that a person has, thinking of them as perfect.. and really knowing that they are. It's how one person can say your perfect, and get you to start believing you really are. It's seeing the person for their soul, for what they are inside. Loving someone for who they are, not for who you think they should be. Love is loving someone, and not expecting to get anything in return. Love has to judgements, it has to restriction or expectatons or limitations... Its letting someone go, and knowing they would come back to you.

"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth."
-Billy, age 4

I think love can't really be a question. Because with questions, there must somehow be an answer. But the only answer to the question of love.. is, itself, love. Love? Love. And I have fallen into it.

XOXO,
Jamie

He's Irresistible
Jessica Simpson

You know, I don't know what it is
But everything about you is so irresistible

Don’t you try to tell me that he's not my type
To hide what I feel inside
When he makes me weak with desire
I know that I'm supposed to make him wait
Let him think I like the chase
But I can't stop fanning the fire
I know i meant to say no.....

But he's irresistible
Up close and personal
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe,
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me
(oh, oh, I can hardly breathe)

Don't you think I'm trying to tell my heart what's right
That I should really say goodnight
But I just can't stop myself falling (falling)
Maybe I'll tell him that I feel the same
That I don't wanna play no game (No)
'Cause when I feel his arms wrapped around me
I know i meant to say no
(I meant to say no)

But he's Irresistible (Irresistible)
Up close and personal
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe (I can hardly breathe)
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual (oh oh yeah)
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me

Can't you see whenever he's close to me
I really find it hard to breathe
He's so irresistible
Baby you know it's more than just spiritual
His kisses are powerful
He's so Irresistible (He's so irresistible)

But he's irresistible (yeah yeah)
Up close and personal (oh yeah)
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe (I can hardly breathe)
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual (oh yeah)
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me

He's irresistible
Up close and personal (yeah)
Now inescapable
I can hardly breathe (Irresistible to me)
More than just physical
Deeper than spiritual
His ways are powerful
Irresistible to me....

Shall We Dance?

2004-11-13T21:38:00.000-08:00

I think my mom is a dork.. I guess through listening to conversations I have in the car and on the phone when I'm near her, she learns about the relationships between all my friends. So in the car today its playing "Freak-a-leak" And when its doing all the names of girls she goes "This must be Andrew's song!" And I started CRACKING UP! She must have overheard something about Andrew cheating on Vesi.. but I thought I was gonna pee my pants. She also gave me a lecture today on how guys pressure girls into doing things and say things like "If you really loved me then you would..." Because she read in Dear Abby about a girl who got drunk and her boyfriend raped her. And she decided to tell me how my dad said something to her like "Freshman guys are just all horny" Mmmhm.. okay.. ya. Harrison's gonna rape me when I'm drunk, cuz he's SUCH a bad guy like that.

So I went to Shall We Dance with Harrison. Considering it had J-Lo it wasn't THAT bad. I got a bloody nose at the end tho, it was seriously not fun. It wans't too bad, and didn't get on Harrison.. lol that would ahve been mortifying. I mgiht have ruined my Abercrombie grey zip up though, grrr :( I hope not. I think X-roads is bad luck. Last time I went I started my period RIGHT as I got to the movie. Baaad luck!!! Lol. I hate bloody noses, and I haven't gotten one in a really really long time. It was so random though, like nothing hit my nose or anything - it just started bleeding.

I was going to go to the BHS play off game tonight, but after the bloody nose incident I didn't really feel like it.

XOXO,
Jamie

Everyday See You
Jessica Simpson

Sometimes the breaks don't go my way
Sometimes there's no good news today
Sometimes it all just hits the wall
Sometimes I think it's all my fault
But I'm not stressing out
You know I could be downtown lost in the crowd
Without even
One tiny ray of sunlight breaking through the clouds

But I got the sun when I need it
I got the sun
I got the moon
I got someone I can talk to
'Cause I get to everyday see you
I got the sun
I got the moon

Raindrops like ice cubes on the ground
And a sound like people talking
There's a lotta things trying to keep me down
But I betta just keep on walking
'Cause I'm not staying here
I'm looking up and my forecast is clear
You wrap me up in blue skies
Whenever you are near

I got the sun when I need it
I got the sun
I got the moon
I got someone I can talk to
'Cause I get to everyday see you
I got the sun
I got the moon

I got my best friend
Best that I ever had
I got a nightlight
Get me through when it gets bad
Feels like angels following on my heels
You are my sunshine

I got the moon
I got someone I can talk to
'Cause I get to everyday see you
Baby, I get to everyday see you
I got the sun
I got the moon
See you
See you
Get to see you
See you
See you
Get to see you

See you
See you
Get to see you
See you
See you
Get to see you
See you
See you
See you
Get to see you

Everyday
See you
See you
Get to see you

Shelly's

2004-11-12T23:59:00.000-08:00

Do people like not understand you can be someones friend without liking them? Or wanting any for of relationship from them... It's like if you hang out with anyone of the opposite gender ONE of you just HAS to like the other.. like it's some sort of a rule. And it's really starting to bug me. I do not like Sean, Sean does not like me, we are not going out.. or in any way what so ever romantically involved. So Ccan people stop talking about it? It seems really silly to me that I can't hang out with a guy without people thinking we like each other. And I know everyone who knows us well knows that nothings going on or going to happen, its more of the people who don't know us.

Today I went to the mall with Sean for like an hour, and everyone in the world was there. Lol. It was really really strange, then we went to a movie with Elizabeth.. cuz she had originally invited me and I invited Sean.. lol. We were going to see Bridget Jones, but ended up seeing the Incredibles, which was a pretty good movie. The son of the family is awesome, lol. He had to be like the best part. I think Sean idolizes him. lol.

I missed the last like 2 minutes of the movie becuase my mom made me come out early.. and it turned out she had to go around the block and ended up not getting back to the galleria until the movie was out anyways! I was angry! But like I got up to leave, and Sean followed cuz he didn't want to be alone with Elizabeth, so we just left Elizabeth sitting there alone in the movie, and she like called me and was all upset about it. I was like "I HAD to leave.. its not my fault Sean left too" But ya.. whatever.

So after the movie I went to Shellly's house! Shula Harrison and Sean were also there. It was fun just hangin out, we watched Anger Management.. that movie never gets old. :P Shula and I slept over and da boyz had to leave at 11, which is early so that sucked. And we stayed up talking about life.. mostly guys of course.. but life. Lol.

XOXO,
Jamie

Did you ever love somebody?
Jessica Simpson

Did you ever love somebody?
So much that the earth moved
Did you ever love somebody?
Even though it hurt to
Did you ever love somebody?
Nothing else your heart could do
Did you ever love somebody?
Who never knew

Did you ever lay your head down
On the shoulder of a good friend
And then had to look away somehow
Had to hide the way you felt for them
Have you ever prayed the day would come
You'd hear them say they feel it too
Did you ever love someone?
Who never knew
I do.

And if you did
Well you know I'd understand
I could, I would
More than anybody can

Did you ever love somebody?
So much that the earth moved
Did you ever love somebody?
Even though it hurt to
Did you ever love somebody?
Nothing else your heart could do
Did you ever love somebody?
Like I love you
Like I love you
Like I love you .. .

Summer

2004-11-11T23:32:00.000-08:00

I was just remembering all of my posts from this summer.. dont know if any of you were reading my blog during the summer, but its pretty interesting for me to go back and read what I was thinking. It's like every post says something about one of my many guy things over on with one of the.. seven? Was it seven? I dunno. Guys that I liked.. or complaining about my ugly tan lines. And I sound really bitchy in alot of them. I dunno, things have changed a lot. And I guess I've prolly changed a lot.. even just in 8th grade I did. But like.. throughout all of middle school I totally flip flopped into like, a different person. Hopefully a better person, but ya. :)

Today I went to the mall with Megz and like everyone in the world was there. Lol. It was strange. I got a free doggy thing at victorias secret.. its really cute! Becuase when you buy something from the Pink section you get a free one. And then I got.. sweats and 3 shirts from Hollister. I think I own about 1/2 of that store now. Lol. So I really don't need to buy anymore shirts, but I COULD use more pants. I told my Mom I wont shop anymore this weekend, but I'm up for shoppin a bit next week if ya wanna come! :D

Harrison and Sean came to the mall for a while, but Meg and I had to leave like 40 minutes after they got there.. so that wasn't very fun. But it's okay I guess since we got to hang a little bit atleast.

Megan slept over and we watched THE OC! Which was good.. it's always good ;) I can't stand the Marissa girl though, she just DUMB!!! It bugs me! Lol. Summer is cool, Seth I love, and Ryan is HOT. But Marissa is just....gr... Her dumbness annoys me! lol ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

I Have Loved You
Jessica Simpson

Remember that blue crystal sky
The sun reflected in your eyes
Kissed me unexpectedly
A moment I just can't forget
We filled the air with promises
Took them up so tenderly
But life never asks you what you want
It's just gonna have its way
Sometimes it doesn't give like it takes

If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you

Don't think I'll write another letter
Or watch anothere pink sunset
Without thinking about you
I take a walk along the blue seaside
How will I sleep at night
How will I wipe the tears from your eyes

If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you

Without a single hesitation
Without thought or reservation
Baby, I'll be waiting
Even if I never see your face
And wings take you away from me
And tomorrow never happens, baby
If the world comes tumbling down
And crumbles all around us
Fate turns cruel
You're on your knees
So desperate for one truth
Know that I have loved you

I have loved you

If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
With all my heart and all my soul
The world comes tumbling down
And crumbling all around
I have loved you

If I never see your face
If wings take you away from me
I have loved you

Sleepin In

2004-11-10T21:37:00.000-08:00

Ahhh.. I got to sleep in before my ortho appointment today.. I didn't get to school until 5th period, which is Spanish. And I'm SOOOO happy I got to sleep in, it was like HEAVEN! lol.

So first quarter is basically over..in Spanisn I got 127/100 on participation.. so i have a 99.7 in that class. LOL. Awesome :D Im SO PISSED ABOUT P.E.! I missed the run today, because I had my ortho appointment.. and he gave me ZERO our of TWENTY!!! Even thoguh it should be excused because its an excused absense!!!!!! ARGH! That brought down my grade to an 88% and fucked up my 4.0!!! Imma call him and complain and all that jazz tomorrow to get an excused for it. Because its REALLY not fair, I couldn't help that I had a fucking appointment! Although.. technically I could have not slept in and gone to class. But where's the fun in that? ;)

My dad bought a new car today Acura RL I think it is.. 2005 series and its black. It looks majorly spiffy. You can lock it by running your hand over the outside door handle thing. Its cool ;)

After school a group of us went to the mall, and basically hung out at mcdonalds until like 3, because we are uber cool like that. Then Larel and Shelly came over and we chilled. :P and played Dance Dance Revolution.. it twas the first time i've played in like a year.. and the first time Shelly or Laurel had ever played.. so it was entertaining to watch! LOL.

SOO glad we have a 4 day weekend. If you wanna hang call the celly and talk 2 me or leave a message or sumtin. 2064068220

XOXO,
Jamie

I Can I Will
Jessica Simpson

Oh oh hoh. Ooh ooh. Yeah ah.
You know I can. (Can). I will. (Will).
Hooo yeh.
Listen baby.
Sometimes the world is a dark and lonely place.
Remember my love is always here for leading on oh baby.
Sometimes it feels just like you’ve lost your way
So if you need a guide in life then baby let me be the one.
Whoo ooh yeah.
Nobody understands your secret dreams your heart felt plans.
When no one appreciates the love that you need well then save it for me.
Cause I can (can), I will (will).
If you want, you know you can trust me.
My hand (hand) is right here (here)
So hold on.
It’s breakin’ my heart to think you would ever cry.
How can a tear ever dare to fall from your sweet eyes? They’re so beautiful.
Nobody understands you’re secret dreams, your heart-felt plan.
When no one appreciates the love that you need well then save it for me.
Cause I can (can), I will (will).
If you want, you know you can trust me.
My hand (hand) is right here (here)
So hold on. Baby, you know that
I can (can), I will (will). Make you strong.
I’ll be there for you.
I can (can), I will (will). Make you warm.
If you want me to.
I know you’re ready for the love that you deserve.
So whenever you want me just say the word because you know that
I can (can) and I will (will).
If you want, you know you can trust me baby.
My hand (my hand) is right here
So hold on. Gotta hold on.
I can (can), I will (will). Make you strong.
I’ll be there for you.
I can (can), I will (will). Make you warm.
I can (can) and I will (will).
If you want, (if you want me to)
My hand (my hand) is right here (Is right here)
So hold on
I can (can), I will (will). Make you strong.
I can (can), I will (will). Make you warm.
Make you warm, yeah, baby.
I can (can) and I will (will).
If you want, yeah..
My hand (my hand) is right here

P.E. Sucks ass.

2004-11-09T17:30:00.000-08:00

So I found out today Mr. Desmond gave me 0 out of 20 for our run we did yesturday. We had to do 10 laps in a given amount of time, and I only did 7. And so since I didn't get ten he gave me a ZERO! How fucking messed up is that little asshole. God! He should fucking go and burn in hell. I am SERIOUSLY PISSED! I have a 90.2 in that class, hoping to skip the mile run tomorrow and sleep in before my ortho.. and if he doesn't excuse me for that (which he like has to.. cuz it would be an excused absence) I wont get an A. And that would ruin my 4.0 for this quarter! Urgh I wanna MURDER HIM! He comes up to me in class and goes "O'Neil, I've heard you've been complaining about P.E. In other classes!" Which I don't remember doing so I was like "Have I? I don't think so. But it makes sense because I complain about P.E. all the time because I HATE IT!" He like gives speeches on intensity and how we need to start out slow and work our way up and not push ourselves so hard. Yet he expects me to be able to do just as well as everyone else and if I cant he marks me down for it. That is total and complete bullshit. ARGH!

Now that my rant for today is doneeee... on to other news.

So they're like closing the school store and the pop machines and stuff are gonna be closed starting monday cuz of "too much littering" ??? Is that true? Cuz that's gonna SUCK if it is! :(

Afterschool Sean, Ashley, Chantelle and I went to the library and just sat by the food machines eating and talking.. good times good times. Today was a very non-dramatic day, which is surprizing for BHS. lol. I hear so many stories about stuff all the time, and mostly its about people I dont know at ALL.. so it's hard to keep track!

We had to listen to this letter thingy or w/e from the dumbass president about veterins day today... and it was like 5 minutes long, yet all classes were made 10 minutes longer :( It sucked butt. And yesturday we watched the same movie we watched at Odle last year for veterins day.. with buffy the vampire slayer... which was even MORE boring the 2nd time. Atleast we didn't have the random old guy talk to us about fighting in wars like we did last year. And No Mr. Roberts giving his speech EVERY year about how he was in the marines and then playing taps. He prolly just hid in a hole the whole time while he was in the marines anyways... lol. I wasn't a fan of Mr. Roberts. ;)

So how many genius people have noticed the trend in the person who sings all the songs I've been using at the ends of my blogs? lol. Good job if you did! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

Heart Of Innocence
Jessica Simpson

Whoo yeah.
Sometimes I wake up in the dark night.
And in my mind there’s a picture of you.
I know someday this dream will come alive.
So for now your shadow will do.
I’ve never seen your face but I know you’re in my heart.
Baby some day some place I’ll hold you in my arms.
I have a gift for you. Something I’ve held on to.
Waiting for your sweet caress. (Sweet caress.)
No ribbon has been untied from all that I hold inside.
And only you will possess
This heart of innocence.
I lay my head down on a pillow of white.
Here in the dark, I am cradled in peace.
No loss from yesterday to harm me at night.
No tears to dry. No sad memories.
There’s a heart to hold and I will safely keep
The strength

Happy Birthday Laurel!

2004-11-08T21:19:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Laurel! Finally the big 1-4? Took you FOREVER geez! ;) Youngin. Lol. Now we've only got Ashley left on friday and we wont have any more little 13 year olds. lol. Wow... for some reason 13 seems like REALLY young. Werid. I remember when I was 12 I was talking to this 15 year old and we were saying how we wanted to be 13 forever. How about NO. Lol. I'm enjoying 14 a very large amount more then 13, and I bet 15 will be even better. I think staying at 21 forever would be nice. Being able to drink (legally) and not being too old and mature and saggy yet. Lol. Saggy?!?! Where did that come from? 'Eh. Oh well.

I got my LiveSTRONG bracelets today.. finally.. it took atleast a month! I only got like 10.. but if you want one talk to me at school (most of ya will have to pay for it of course) But yeahhh...

I decided not to do gymnastics, no one else was doing it and I just didn't feel really up for it. I dunno maybe I'm just a lazy ass. Lol. So I'll prolly start up a couple dance classes and Elizabeths. My dad wants me to join some sort of Theater group. My parents keep bugging me about getting "involved" and getting "Excercise" which makes me think.. involved= doing something so I cant go out and get high after school and excercise = not getting fat because I sit around the house all day. Hmmm.. thats encouraging ;)

I get my braces off in ONE week! Nervous about looking like crap without them and with my GIANT overbite. But heyyy.. thats ok. ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

Forever In Your Eyes
Jessica Simpson

Eyes like fire - Burn desire
As we dance away into the night
This attraction - Fuels a passion
That's just too strong for us to try and fight
Each moment we're together
I just never want to end
'Cause I could never feel this way again

'Cause nothing else had ever felt so right
To feel your body lying next to me
As the rhythm of your heart beats through me
All through the night
I never thought I'd ever realize
A long that feels so close to paradise
Boy I could spend my whole life living
Forever in our eyes

Lips so tender - I surrender
Everything I am is yours alone
When you tough me - All that I see
Fire feeling that my heart has never known
You're all I ever dreamed of
You're my every fantasy
Whoever thought on angel could bring heaven here to me

'Cause nothing else had ever felt so right
To feel your body lying next to me
As the rhythm of your heart beats through me
All through the night
I never thought I'd ever realize
A long that feels so close to paradise
Boy I could spend my whole life living
Forever in our eyes

You're the one my heart beats for
You're my everything and more
It's a burnin' love I can't seem to ignore
All the things I feel inside
Are too strong for me to hide (baby)
I need you by my side
'Cause I could live forever in your eyes

'Cause nothing else had ever felt so right
To feel your body lying next to me
As the rhythm of your heart beats through me
All through the night
I never thought I'd ever realize
A long that feels so close to paradise
Boy I could spend my whole life living
Forever in our eyes

Forever

2004-11-07T20:18:00.000-08:00

Here's a little quote that definatly gets you thinking about life:
"Duct tape is like the force. It has a light side, and a dark side, and it holds the world together!"
Hehe.. I love it! Ahhh... Maybe I'm just wayyy too easily amused. :P

My prayers are still going out to Ari, and if you have heard about what has happened with her... weather you know her or not, you really should stop by her guestbook on the website her family updates about her and leave her a message. I know I'd love to know even people that I have never met or heard of are hoping for my fast recovery, so I'm sure Ari will love it to. The link to the guestbook is on http://drew.batcave.net/Welcome.htm

Is it weird that thinking about not spending forever with someone you barely know and are with at such a young age can tear you up inside? Maybe I'm just really dramatic.. or totally out of it. Maybe I'm expecting too much too young. I don't really know. But I know that thinking about not being together hurts. It hurts alot. And that's kind of scaring me to be honest. It's like my mind is out of control and I really don't know how to get control over it again. I dunno, it's hard to explain. Wishing you could spend the rest of your life with someone.. but knowing its basically impossible and totally improvible. Knowing it could basically never happen. It's like some guy with a dull spoon slowly digging into you... Okay maybe not quite like that, because that's SERIOUSLY disturbing. But pretty close I guess. Sorry for writing a totally messed up half mushy half crazy spoon man deformed rant... lol. Hope it was maybe a little interesting to read! ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

Forbidden Fruit
Jessica Simpson

There's a game you want to play
There's a risk you'd like to take
But words can't change what you feel inside
There will be not goin' back from here
I'm scared it'll lead to tears
Patience boy and I will Decide
If a kiss is sweet
If I want to feel you touch
You should know
I can read your mind
If the deal is worth the pain
If you just won't die of shame
But I am tempted to try

If you taste this fruit
forbidden to eat
You can drink this wine from a love so deep
I'd dance for you, let you come within
If you sware to me that it ain't no sin

There's a world you want to know
There's a place you want to go
Take your time and it will delight
Smell of spices everywhere
There are mysteries to share
Be gentle boy and it, It will be alright

If you taste this fruit forbidden to eat
You can drink this wine from a love so deep
I'd dance for you, let you come within
If you sware to me that it ain't no sin

If you taste this fruit forbidden to eat
You can drink this wine from a love so deep
I'd dance for you, let you come within
If you sware to me that it ain't no sin

Oh yeah....oh
Oh if ya....oh if ya sware to me....

If you taste this fruit forbidden to eat
You can drink this wine from a love so deep
I'd dance for you, let you come within
If you sware to me that it ain't no sin

Sky Captain

2004-11-06T22:26:00.000-08:00

Ashley's house was fun last night! :D Good times good times... My mom came at 10:30 to pick me up though, and made me clean like the ENTIRE house for my allowance *pout* But she gave me an extra 10 bucks for all my work, so it's all good :D It was the first time I've ever washed a shower/bath tub... I mean they get water in them ALL the time, why the hell do you have to WASH them? Eh.. oh well. I wish I was as rich as every other BHS kid and I could just like hire a maid. :P lol

After all my endless chores I went to see Sky Captain.. which was totally confusing and made absolutly no sense, and my understanding of it definatly was NOT helped by the fact that I went to see it with Harrison. I think it had to do with a crazy scientist dude kidnapping a bunch of other scientists.. and making them help him with this noah's ark type thing.. only it was a spaceship and once it left the earths atmosphere it would make the earth explode. Only the crazy ass scientist was already dead and died like ages ago... It was the weirdest thing ever.......

THENNN I went to this T.J. Maxx Gymnastics thing at Key Arena with my mom, which was actually pretty okay.. except for the fact that my mom was being obnoxous and acting like a 5 year old. I really hate going places with her sometimes, she needs to grow up... grrr *pout* But I love her. So anyways the thing ahd like these olymic people. And one of the guys had like the same haircut and body type as Harrison.. it was really really strange. Only he was like.. twice his size, but ya. It was still cool. There were alot of cute performances and stuff, worth paying the 25 dollars each ticket we paid.. but not really worth paying too much more then that at all.

XOXO,
Jamie

For Your Love
Jessica Simpson

You are every part of mre
And with every breath I take
Your love will light my way
And for every day I live
The promise that I made
Is I will never let you go babe

I swear I never knew love like this before
And for everything you are
I gotta make you know
For your love...

And I'd give anything for your love
'Cause baby I'd never make it alone
And forever I'll stand by your side
I just gotta make you see yeah
I only live... for your love
When I was running out of faith
You still believed in me
And never let me fall
And the times I lost my way
You're the one who held me up
And brought me through it all

I swear I never saw it like this before
'Cause baby with your love you gave me
The reason to go on
And for your love

And I'd give anything for your love
'Cause baby I'd never make it alone
And forever I'll stand by your side
I just gotta make you see yeah
I only live... for your love
When I was running out of faith
You still believed in me
And never let me fall
And the times I lost my way
You're the one who held me up
And brought me through it all

And everything I am
And all that I could be
Would mean nothing now
If you're not with me
Shinin' your light on me
When night is closen' in
When I was weak
You were the one who made me strong
you gave me faith to carry on

And I'd give anything for your love
'Cause baby I'd never make it alone
Anf forever I'll stand by your side
I just gotta make you see yeah
I only live... for your love
When I was running out of faith
You still believed in me
And never let me fall
And the times I lost my way
You're the one who held me up
And brought me through it all

BHS VS. NHS

2004-11-05T23:59:00.000-08:00

10 days until I get my braces OFF!!!!

TGIF! Viva Viernes... etc..etc..etcccc. SO FUCKING HAPPY ITS FRIDAY! Surprizingly enough.. this week went by really fast, but it's still VERY good to finally have the weekend to look forward to. If I don't get some actual sleep Imma fall over. lol.

Today was my last day of freedom after school! I have gymnastics starting next week (if they accept my stupidly late sports form thing.. but hopefully they should) And thats from 3:30 to 5:30 everyday! Argh. Talk about taking up alot of time. But its not that bad since I usually had to take the 3:50 bus home everyday cuz my parents are buttfaces. They've also decided that they don't want me taking the bus home after gymnastics cuz it'll be dark and they don't want me walking down the hill to the bus stop in the dark. Riiiiight then....

The football game against Newport was today. We beat then (duh) like 39 or 38 to 0 :D It was SOOOOOOO COLD! I thought I was going to like die! Andrew almost did.. he was shaking and stuff and he looked REALLY sick, I felt really really bad for him, it was scary. :(

So after the game Laurel and I went over to Ashleys house.. and like as soon as we got there we changed into sweats and jumped into Ashleys bed cuz it was sooo cold out. And we just had fun and were sexy until we fell asleep at like 11:30! lolol. Yeah, we're definatly cool! And we made ourself pancakes for breakfast... they were REALLY REALLY good pancakes. :P

XOXO,
Jamie

Angels
Jessica Simpson

I sit and wait does an angel contemplate my fate and do they know the places
Where we go when we're grey and old
'Cuz I've been told that salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed thoughts running through my head
And i feel that love is dead I'm loving angels instead

And through it all He offers me protection a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me
When I come to call He won't forsake me I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak and my pain walks down a one way street I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love and as the feeling grows
He breathes flesh to my bones and when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead

And through it all He offers me protection a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me
When I come to call He won't forsake me I'm loving angels instead

I'm loving angels instead
Oh oh yeah

And through it all He offers me protection a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me
When I come to call He won't forsake me I'm loving angels instead

THE OC

2004-11-04T16:53:00.000-08:00

When the world wasn't upside down, I could take all the time I had
But I'm not going to wait when a moment can vanish so fast

'Cuz every kiss is a kiss you can never get back

Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night

When the answer to all my dreams is as close as a touch away
Why am I here holding back what I'm trying to say?

Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
Hold me close to your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting for this
This is the night

This is the night where we capture forever all our tomorrow's begin
After tonight, we will never be lonely again

Lift me up in your eyes
If you told me that is what Heaven is, well, you'd be right
Hold me close to your heart
I would go with you to the ends of the Earth and we'll fly
I've been waiting forever for this
This is the night

I'm such a sucker for back massages.. lol. One of my weak points that I'm pretty sure basically no one knows about, so ya learn something new everyday!

THE OC STARTS TONIGHTTTTTTTTT!!! SOSOSOSOSOSO CRAZILY EXCITED!!!!! :D I'm more excited about the OC then I am about getting my braces off... lol weird. Oh well.

This week has gone by superfast.. which is awesome because I am DEFINATLY ready for a weekend. :D

BHS is playing Newport tomorrow... mm ya we're gonna kick ass, but I'll go anyways to watch us dominate! ;)

We did Tae-bo today in P.E. Lol it was AWESOME! I was totally getting into it ;) It was fun, like a strange dance class basically. :P

Sometimes life seems so perfect, that you have to think that maybe it's not real, But you know it has to be...

XOXO,
Jamie

What is Mona
without Lisa
or ham
without cheese
What is appreciation
without thank you
or politeness
without please?

Can fish live
without water
or a flower
without rain
Can Romeo live
without Juliet
or Tarzan
without Jane?

What is popcorn
without butter
or cereal
without milk
What is rough
without sandpaper
or smooth
without silk?

Is there Robin
without Batman
or Scooby
without Doo
Is there life
without love
Is there me
without you?

Sweetest Sin

2004-11-03T21:30:00.000-08:00

I have these weird random straches/welts on my arms near my elbows.. they're freaking me out because I have NO idea what they are from... 'eh... Hopefully they will go away soon.

Another wednesday come and gone... I'm still complaining about the lack of lunch! lol! Argh I can't wait for this weekend, I need SLEEP!

I found out today cherry jollyranchers taste kind of like bad cough syrup... yuck. I gues I'm just not really one for cherry flavored things, huh?

My brothers fiancee just asked me to be a bridesmaid in the wedding! They think it's going to be sometime int he summer! EXCITING!!!!!!!!!! :D

I saw Napoleon Dynamite today with Harrison, well I KINDA saw it. It was better the second time.. but that might have been for other reasons. lol But okay. ;)

Alright! It's about 3 hours later and my welty things are gone! :D

"When one finds a worthy wife, her value is far beyond pearls. Her husband entrusting his heart to her, has an unfailing prize."
Proverbs 31:10-11

"I may be able to speak the languages of human beings and even of angels, but if I have no love, my speech is no more than a noisy gong or a clanging bell. I may have the gift of inspired preaching; I may have all knowledge and understand all secrets; I may have the faith needed to move mountains-but if I have no love, I am nothing. I may give away everything I have, and even give up my body to be burned-but if I have no love, this does me no good."
1 Corinthians, 13:1-13

"Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth: for thy love is better than wine."
Song of Solomon 1:2

"Come let us take our fill of love until the morning: let us solace ourselves with loves."
Proverbs 7:18

"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear."
I John. IV. 18

"Many waters cannot quench love, neither can the floods drown it."
Song Of Solomon 8:7

"Love is patient. Love is kind. It does not envy. It does not boast. It is not proud. It is not rude. It is not self-seeking. It is not easily angered. It keeps no record of wrong doing. It does not delight in evil, but rejoices in the truth. It always protects, trusts, hopes, perseveres."
Corinthians 13

"You haven't found the right person if you can live with them, you've found the right person if you can't live without them."

"Last night I matched each star with a reason for loving you. I was doing great... until I ran out of stars."

"Most people want to be the sun that brightens up your life, but I'd rather be the moon that shines down on you in your darkest hours."

"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you made me smile, I'd have the entire night sky in the palm of my hand."

XOXO,
Jamie

Can you imagine us,
Making love...
The way you would feel the first time that we touched,
Can you think of it...
The way I dream of it,
I want you to see like im seeing you...
It's a picture of perfection,
The vision of you and me...

Your lips upon my lips,
Can you just picture this...
Your finger tips on my finger tips,
Your skin upon my skin...
Would be the Sweetest Sin,
Would be the Sweetest Sin...

All night I lie awake,
Cause it's too much to take...
Dreamin' about the love that we could make...All day,
I think of scenes...
To get you next to me,
I want you so bad that i can barely breathe...
It's a sign of my obbsession,
That I can't stop thinkin bout'

Your lips upon my lips,
Can you invision this...
Temptation that I could never resist,
Your skin upon my skin...
Would be the Sweetest Sin...

It would feel so good,
To be so bad...
You don't know how bad...I want that,
I would do anything to feel your love...

Your lips upon my lips,
Can you just picture this...
Your finger tips on my finger tips,
Your skin upon my skin...
Would be the Sweetest Sin,
That would be the Sweetest Sin...

Your lips upon my lips,
Can you invision this...
Temptation that I could never resist,
Your skin upon my skin...
Would be the Sweetest Sin,
Would be the Sweetest Sin...

Your lips upon my lips...would be the Sweetest Sin

Good Song

2004-11-02T19:18:00.000-08:00

Hands Down
By Dashboard Confessional

Breathe in for luck.
Breathe in so deep.
This air is blessed, you share with me.
This night is wild, so calm and dull.
These hearts, they race, from self-control.
Your legs are smooth, as they graze mine.
We're doing fine.
We're doing nothing at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me?
So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

The words are hushed, "let's not get busted."
Just lay entwined here, undiscovered.
Safe in here from all the stupid questions.
"Hey did you get some?"
Man that is so dumb.
Stay quiet, stay near, stay close, they can't hear.
So we can get some.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me?
So I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst,
to break or bury, or wear as jewelry.
Whichever you prefer.

Hands down this is the best day I can ever remember.
Always remember the sound of the stereo.
The dim of the soft lights.
The scent of your hair, that you twirled in your fingers.
And the time on the clock, when we realized "It's so late!"
And this walk that we share together.
The streets were wet, and the gate was locked,
So I jumped it, and let you in.
And you stood at your door, with your hands on my waist.
And you kissed me like you meant it.
And I knew...that you meant it.

Braces

2004-11-02T17:50:00.000-08:00

I have a cut on the end of my tongue.. and it HURTS! It was bleeding in jewerly yesturday and now its just like an evil deep paper cut right on the TIPPPP :( Not fun!

I GET MY BRACES OFF IN LIEK TWO WEEKS!!! Argh Imma look totally weird without them.. they are like part of me! Geez! :( Oh well. I will be VERY GLAD to get rid of them. VERY VERY VERY GLAD!!!!! We decided agaisnt the surgery because I look like a freak with my jaw moved forward, so I'll keep it back and super from a stupidly huge overbite cuz I like it more, ya i know im weird.

My parents are being dumb and bugging me constantly about stupid things and i wanna just whack them. Buuuut I wouldn't cuz that's mean and I'd be grounded FOREVER. But ya.

Gymnastics starts next week, I dunno if I'll actually be able to do it cuz its taken my mom FOREVER to do the stupid form thingy correctly and it's supposed to be turned in 2 weeks ahead of time (woopsie...)

We get to run in P.E. tomorrow... god I hate it with a passion. I really wish I could skip P.E. everyday, and just sleep in. That would rock!

I've been kinda out of it all day, I'm really tired and I have so much on my mind it's kinda crazy.. wishes and regrets and insecurities and happiness and saddness and weirdness and... lol I'll stop. My gosh if people could read my mind they wouldn't even be able to understand it. I think that I think in like gibberish, and I can't always translate it. lol.

XOXO,
Jamie

Your gentle voice sooths my soul,
Never letting to want you to go,
When we are talking time goes so fast,
I don't even notice any has past,
You tell me my dreams will someday come true,
I think it will happen if I am with you,
Your caring heart and loving touch,
Oh man I want it all so much,
I know we just met a few months ago,
But everytime we talk I want to see you more,
I know we don't know each other all that well,
But as they say only time will tell,
You might end up being my dream man or just a friend,
I hope no matter what we never come to an end.

Rainy

2004-11-01T20:02:00.000-08:00

Ari has a guestbook up that people can sign now. Weather you know her or have just heard about what's going on with her I think it would help her alot to know how many people really care about her. You can get to the guestbook off the site with her updates on it. http://drew.batcave.net/Welcome.htm

It's monday, and yet it feels like it should be a friday. I need another weekend.. a nice looooong weekend!

Our T.A. in Mrs. Kubej's class is taking over the class for a while... Mr. Fergison or something like that, but he's waaaaaay more awesome so far so thats good!

In P.E. we were doing push ups and he made us hold it until everyone did it, and he said my name ONCE and then I put more effort into it, then he walked tot he other side of the room and was still making us hold it and everyone was like "JAMIE!" And like yelling at me for it. I wanted to slap them all. ARGH. And after I was like "It wasn't me, he wasn't even looking at me" and Melissa (dunno her last name.. brown hair) goes "No Jamie it was your fault, if you had just done it we wouldn't have had to hold it" in this bitchy bitchy bitchy tone. Argh. *STRANGLE* It seriously pissed me off. Then we were supposed to do lunges down and back but NO ONE did them, and he made me and like 2 guys do them again. I was doing more lunges then 1/2 the other people. So I just stood there and refused to do any extras. I HATE P.E. I generally dispise it, and I'm not even joking.

It was all rainy and icky today, I really hate that because it makes the day seem like all gloomy and not fun. And it was like DARK at 5, which through my whole time scale way off.. because I thought it was like 7 when it was like 4.. lol'

"If ever you think of me out of the blue, just remember it's all the kisses I've blown in the air finally catching up with you!"

"The sound of a kiss is much softer than that of a canon - but it's echo lasts a great deal longer."

"If kissing was just two people touching lips, it wouldn't touch our hearts and bind our souls the way it does."

"Never thought that love could feel like this and you changed my world with just one kiss, how can it be that right here with me there's an angel?"
- NSYNC Song

"One word frees us of all the weight and pain in life. That word is love."

"I smiled to many people for more than a billion times; but when I first saw you, my heart took over and smiled for the first time."

"Love, an emotion so strong that you would give up everything. To just feel it once, to know that you are part of something special. To know that you can feel what love really is; to know, to feel, to love."

"I do, cherish you, from the depths of my soul, it's beyond my control, I've waited so long, to say this to you, if you're asking do I love you this much, I do."
- 98 Degrees Song

"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end."

"A hug overcomes all boundaries. It speaks words within the mind that cannot be spoken."

"It's not just a physical attraction, I love him for every single thing he is. Every word he says, every step he takes. This is something that will never die. I have tried to stay reasonable with this, but I just can't anymore. I just can't."

"Giving away a heart can hurt ... having a broken heart can be life threatening, even to the strongest people. But, receiving one is the greatest gift."

"Love is the passion that we feel inside of our hearts that we can't hide. We pretend to hide it, but it burns us more and more until the pain grows and grows and it never ends."

"You know you truly love someone when everyday you meet is like the first time you fall in love."

"It's in the way that you move me, and the way that you tease me, the way I want you tonight. It's in the way that you hold me and the way that you know me, and when I can't find the right words to say ... you feel it in the way."
"The Way" by Clay Aiken

XOXO,
Jamie

Why do I feel. . .
Each moment is brand new?
There's no day I can't get through
Nothing I can't do.

Why do I know. . .
That life is more than it seems?
I've realized all my dreams
About what true love means.

Why do I say. . .
My life is now whole?
I've fulfilled my soul
Your happiness is my goal.

Why do I imagine. . .
About that special type of love?
Angels sent from above
The perfect companion I think of.

Why do I believe. . .
All these things are true?
The greatest love I ever knew
The answer is simply "you."

I know exactly how I feel in my heart....
I hope you and I never part.

Halloween!!!!

2004-10-31T22:00:00.000-08:00

H
A
Double L
O
W
Double E
N!

Lol. I remember learning that song in like.. 2nd grad. Mr. Anderson's class at Bennett! That's also where I learned "Gross" was like.. an amount of something... or sumtin like that... lol

Ari keeps getting better and better, and I thank God for that. She's such an awesome girl, and I love her to death! The website about her is still being updated frequently at http://drew.batcave.net/Welcome.htm

Sweetest Sin - Jessica Simpson (My newest song obsession)

**This is just a little bit of the song.. the other parts of the lyrics tend to be a bit... hm... interesting to say the least. You can look them up if you want. lol. These are just the best parts**

Your lips upon my lips,
Can you just picture this...
Your finger tips on my finger tips,
Your skin upon my skin...
Would be the Sweetest Sin,
Would be the Sweetest Sin...

Your lips upon my lips,
Can you invision this...
Temptation that I could never resist,
Your skin upon my skin...
Would be the Sweetest Sin...

So I woke up stupidly early.. (like 7:30) and I could NOT get to sleep. And it took me about 2 hours to get to sleep last night cuz I kept thinking about stuff and my mind would NOT turn off! *pout*

So today I went to X-roads, bought a costume type thing, met up with Harrison, and got a ride to Teo's house from Megan.

At Teo's we started watching Taking Lifes, but it was dumb so we left. And then people went on a scary dark trail thing (which scared the shit outta me so I left and went trick-or-treating, cuz I'm sexy like that) And we just hung out and stuff, it was pretty fun.

XOXO,
Jamie

Love makes you tingle,
It makes you blush,
It makes butterflies stir,
It makes your blood rush.

It warms the heart,
It fills the soul,
It drives you crazy,
It makes you loose control.

It hurts,
Yet it feels so good,
It's indescribable,
It's unstoppable.

Once you've fallen,
Will you fall out?
I don't know,
But I dont want to find out.....

Ari

2004-10-30T19:14:00.000-07:00

Ari's doing alot better, and I'm glad. Megan and I were going to see if we could visit her today, but her family said that the hospital really doesn't want anyone except for family members visiting right now, so we'll just wait until they are accepting visitors.

Last night was a rough night, but it all seems like a sort of hazy dream now. Yeah, I know.. weird. But like, I dunno I can't explain it. Just the fact that it happens still seems to unreal. I'm afraid if I go to see her I'll start crying again, luckily I'm pretty good at holding it in.

So Megan and I went shopping, since shopping always helps everything. Which it did, it sort of took away all my worries for a while... but of course they come flying back once it's over. But that's okay, because everyone needs some time to grieve... that's just how people work. And I know after a while everything will turn out fine. Atleast I hope so.

But I got a cuteeee skirt, a shirt that says "blue eyed beauty" and underwear (lol) at Hollister! :D And I love them so that put me in a better mood.

Newport and Issiquah people have fun at your Homecoming!!!! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

You're nice and caring, tall and strong,
I think about you all day long.
I thank God daily that you are here,
To help me through my pains and fears.

You're here for me through good times and bad
Especially when I'm feeling sad.
I love you and you knows it's true,
Because you say you love me too.

Together forever is what I hope we'll be
But I guess I'll have to wait and see.
Nothing or no one will keep us apart,
Because you are my soul and heart.

I'll always remember the first day we met,
The way you looked at me, I won't forget.
We get closer and closer everyday,
How much I care for you, I can't even say.

I'll do anything I can to make you see,
How much you really mean to me.
When you takes your strong hands and lay them on my face,
I can feel the warmth and security that no one can replace.

The way you strokes my hair,
Helps to show how much you really care,
The way you look at me with those deep eyes,
You've got me hooked, baby you have me mesmerized.

Car

2004-10-29T22:43:00.000-07:00

So today started off good, and ended like a shithole. But I'll start from the beginning.

There were a few people wearing costumes today, BRAVE people. Lol. I don't know if I'll even end up getting a costume, so whatever. But ya. Mrs. Hudson was dressed in a dark purple dress and a lonnnng black matrix style jacket and vampire teeth. She asked us what she was and we all said "Vampire" of course, and then she goes "No I am me when I was 16" Yes.. Mrs. Hudson was GOTHIC and she wore VAMPIRE TEETH TO SCHOOL. Interesting fact..

None of my other teachers dress dressed up, Mrs. Kubej wore all black and an orange shirt and like a pumpkin pin thing.. She looked like even MORE of a witch! ;) And she assigned us two major projects to finish within like a week! GRRRRR!

So after school Harrison and I hung out, and went to dinner and a movie as a sort of late birthday celebration thing. And the day was going totally awesome until Megan called me after the movie while I was picking up my stuff from Harrison's house.

I was trying to tell her I'd call her back when I got home, but she was being so insistant that she talked to me right then that I knew something was up. When I first heard it was kinda a shock... like, that it couldn't of really happened... but it did. Ari Nevans got hit by a car this morning, and was taken to Harborview because Overlake couldn't handle the situation. Now I don't know how many of you know Ari... But i've known her since 1st grade and just recently saw her for the first time in about 4 years over last summer when she helped out at Samena like I was doing. She's such a sweety, and her family has had to go through so incredibly much that it just seems totally unfair. Why them? Why does it always have to be them??!?!?!?! God. It just isn't fair! I would love it if everyone would help out and keep her and her family in their prayers, I know I definatly am...

If you want to read more about what happened, her older brother Drew changed his website to post updates on how she is doing.. and the story of what happened. Click here

XOXO,
Jamie

Your touch so soft and warm,
Like the calm after a big a storm,
Your eyes so brilliant and blue,
Baby, I wish I belonged to you,
Your kiss so hungry and yet sweet,
When our lips do finally meet,
Our bodies held so close now hot,
In each others passion we are caught,
Please carry me away baby tonight,
Wrap your arms around me oh so tight,
Don't you never ever let me go,
Because darling I love you so,
Make passion last throughout the night,
Make me shine and twinkle like a star bright,
It would be the ultimate dream come true,
If only it were possible to belong to you.

Thursday

2004-10-28T19:54:00.000-07:00

Argh I'm startin to get nothing to write about!!!!!

My day's been kinda.. dull... I dunno. Just not a very good day and it's been getting worse and I sort of just feel like going to bedddddd. And it doesn't help that it was all cold and rainy

My parents are being buttfaces, just all around.. and it's super not fun.

Thank GOD tomorrow is friday. I need a niceee break and some sleeping in time. I think I'm just getting really tired so I'm getting cranky.. 'eh I dunno

The marines and Army people came to our school today, and they had people doing pull-ups and a couple different things and getting prizes for it. Guys had to do 10 pull ups for a prize, and girls had to hold themselves up for 70 seconds... which I doubt I could do soooo I didn't try! :P

XOXO,
Jamie

Love is the dew on the pedals of a delicate rose
the gentle way the water of a stream flows
The peacefulness of a sunrise
the tender way in which he lies
It is the sweetness of his lips
The loving caress of his fingertips
It is the smoothness of his skin against mine
the small gestures, charming and kind
It is the way he looks at me and holds me tight
the way our puppy love takes flight
It is the way I want him when he is not there
and the way he lightly strokes my hair
It is the way I need him each and every day
it is the blooming of flowers in may
A rainbow in the bright, blue sky
watching a beautiful bird fly
The crashing of the ocean tide
and a wonderful man by my side.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HARRISON!!!!

2004-10-27T18:56:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday Harrison!!!!!! I hope you had a good day! :D

I still have a year before I turn 15.. GREAAAT.

Is it just me.. or is EVERYONE born in October? Sunday was andrews birthday, monday was alahandra, tuesday was chris from my math, and then today is Harrison and some Cubby kid.. GEEZ! But hm.. whats 9 months before October... OH! FEBRUARY! Valentines day... got'cha. Alright I get it now ;)

So the bad news.. my butt and my back STILL hurt. The good news.. so does everyone else's now :P YOU GET TO SHARE MY PAIN!!! Arn't you happy? ;)

I got to get a phsyical done today.. my doctor person I was was pregnant and expecting in January! :D so they did all the normal physical stuff and they GAVE ME A SHOT!!! Ouch! It was a tetnis or sumtin.. and the lady's like "It'll bruise up and hurt for a day or two" greattttt... Like I need MORE pain ;) lol

XOXO,
Jamie

There is a risk involved in everything
Every time you share a smile,
Every time you shed a tear
You are opening your self up to hurt.
Some people tread slowly through life
Avoiding the closeness risks brings,
Side-stepping what they can't understand
Turning away from those who care too much,
Those who care stay too long
Those who hold to tightly.
There is never an easy way to love
You can not approach it cautiously,
It is not reliable, it is not cautious,
It is not sympathetic,
It is un prejudiced and un merciless.
It strikes the strongest of minds,
and brings them to their knees in one blow.
Even in the best of times love hurts
It hurts to need, it hurts to belong,
It hurts to be apart of someone else
Without either of your consent,
But, from the moment it over takes you
It hurts worse to be all alone.
The risk of love never depletes:
It grows stronger and more dangerous with time,
But, it's in the total surrender of all defense
that we, no matter weak or strong,
No matter willing or captive
No matter what, we truly experience love.
Despite many things that love is not
Out weighing it all are the things that love is:
Love is surrender with out loss,
It is a gift with out cost
It consumes your every thought and desire,
Every breath you take
It is the fire that fuels you,
to do more than just pass through life-
It urges you instead to live.
No matter what the out come, having felt love,
You will never be the same.
It may scar your heart and soul
and leave you only memories of forever,
Or, it may cause every day of your life
to feel like there is no need for tomorrow.
But, Love is worth it. It is worth the risk...
For in all of life,
Love is the only risk worth taking.

Butt

2004-10-26T20:23:00.000-07:00

AHHHH! MY BUTT HURTS SOSOSOSOSOSOSOOOOOOOO BAD!!!!!!!!!! Ouchie... When we did the crazy ass stupid things in P.E. yesturday lunges and stuff, it's extreme pain going on here. Lol. And I mentioned it in English and Justin was like "Want me to give you a massage?" UHM NO!!!!!! I don't want you within 10 feet of me!!!! Wait.. make that ONE HUNDRED FEET!

I hope all this lovely drama gets settled soon.. it's driving me crazy! So-and-So did this... so-and-so said that! Blah.

Happy Early B-day Harrison! MWAH! :D

I want an ipod.. but like 300 dollars is ALOT of money.. I could get alot of clothes for 300 dollars.... hm... lol. But I'll prolly end up BEGGING for one for x-mas.. SO HEY! ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

You'll never know the love I feel
so deep and strong and true;
Or of the times I speak your name
when my heart is blue.

The beachside walks, hand in hand
with breezes on our face;
Knowing that in you, I've found
I'm in the perfect place.

You hold my arm, and pull me close
Into your eyes I look;
Without a word, you know my heart
And read me like a book.

Our gazes lock and penetrate
We're lost together in time;
For now I know that I have found
The love that's meant as mine.

These moonlit nights we love to share
And bask amid its glow.
Its silver light upon your hair
We're in love, oh yes, we know!

Our hopes and dreams will last so long
As we both shall breath;
That in time, look back we'll know
This love we share and need.

No other love before or since
Has been so deep and true.
For all that love compares so pale
To my love for you.

But as I have breath, and beating heart,
Each day I live I'll tell
That I love you, Dear, so much, it's true
And forever I'm in your spell.

Cheating

2004-10-25T21:07:00.000-07:00

We did this weird physical excercise thing in P.E... like doing crab walks and lunges and ski jumps and bunny hops.. it was really really really weird and REALLY tiring and the guys had a fun time watching us do lunges *blah*

So the drama has started up again with a certain someone being fucking stupid and cheating on one of my best friends. Just to let people know.. I personally think there is no excuse at all to EVER cheat on someone who you are going out with. You agreed to go out with that person, meaning you AGREED to only be seeing that person and not going off and messing around with other people. That just distroys whatever trust you have in your relationship.. and trust is a huge deal in relationships, without trust there really can't be anything else. And if anyone cheats on one of my girls or anything like that and makes her cry from here on I'll make sure you hurt just as much as you made her hurt. So don't be dumb.

I spent a very VERY long time on the phone today... 4 different people and probably around 5 hours on the phone. Yikes.

I've been on aim for like 25 days straight.. haha now that's DEFINATLY a new record!!! :P

XOXO,
Jamie

I think of you, when you're not here,
and even when you are.
I pray for you before I sleep,
and thank my lucky star.
That I might have a love so true,
a love I can't forsake,
one that brightens up my heart,
a love no one can take.
My heart is filled with love for you,
and only you my dear.
Through thick and thin, I'll love you still,
as long as you are near.
For better or for worse my dear,
I'll love you just the same.
No one can take my love for you,
eternally it shall remain.

Saturday and Sunday

2004-10-24T23:59:00.000-07:00

My weekend wasn't very eventfull... I have a new Sister-in-law to be, which was exciting! And they came over sunday and had lunch with us and stuff, and then like everyone else in the world came over for dinner and we had turkey and pumpkin pie and sweet potatos and mashed potatos.. it was like a little mini-thanksgiving! lol.

My parents let me go to Harrison's house to help him babysit saturday.. which doesn't seem like much at all, but when you think about it being MY parents. My stupidly over protective parents who originally told me i wasn't going to be dating at all Freshman year (mmmhm sure) But ya.. I was surprized. Although I had to leave REALLY early.. but just the fact they would let me is crazy.

Then sunday I went to Taxi with Harrison, and compared to all the awful reviews it got.. the movie wasn't all that bad. Besides the skank girls in it ;) lol There's some pretty good one liners too.

So basically my weekend was boring except for spending time with Harrison. lol.

I hope all you SHS people had a blaaaaaaaaast at homecoming! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

All of my life I have just been one part,
I was always one half, with a lonely heart,
But finally I know what was missing me in me,
Was the other half of my soul, now that I can see.

When you came into my life, with care, honesty, and trust,
In no time you made me see, a smile is a must!
You let me bear my soul, and all of my pain,
And through all of it, you loved me the same.

When you have troubles, and pain of your own,
You talk, I listen, our friendship has grown.
Now we tease, we laugh, and always seem to find,
That together we share, a special peace of mind.

Sometimes when we talk, or are just having fun,
Our words are the same, in complete unison.
Then we say to each other, it must be ESP,
But it's a close bond, a fact both of us can see.

My love you're a blessing, who's made my life whole,
You balance my heart, returning your faith is my goal.
You're one in a million, and I'm most proud to say,
I'll be here for you always, Forever and a Day.

SHS Homecoming

2004-10-22T22:22:00.000-07:00

Sooo we got our homecoming pictures today! I'll try and get a copy of mine onto my computer... the far away one looks pretty good, but the close up is kinda goofy.. its VERY obvious my smile is fake! lol. Argh I was wearing too much make up :( I look like a HOOKER!!! But ohhhh well. The pictures are cute and I wuv them. I almost left them at Starbucks! Lol! My bus pulled up and I was like "SHIT! PICTURES!" So i had to run to the Starbucks and get them and run back, Harrison held the bus for me though cuz he's awesome like that ;) mwah! There was this lady on the bus who comes on and shes listening to Nathan, me, and Kyle (leader of the robotics club at bellevue.. he's a senior and just a LITTLE nerdy. lol) And I was telling Kyle how he can get rich enough and just buy himself a hot girlfriend, and how I'll just marry some really rich guy.. but that it would be juts a bit too awkward if I married him and stuff. And the lady starts CRACKING UP! And she's like "Am I on a hidden camera show?" I was like "Uhhh... no.." Crazy woman.. geez.

So then after school I come home and my mom tells me that Bryan (the youngest of my three brothers.. he's 22 and just got out of college) is proposing to his girlfriend of about 2 or 3 years Koreen tonight! She's the sweetest thing EVER! I love her to death and I'm SOSOSOSOSOSO excited! Finally all those years of being the only girl in the family.. besides my mom. I already have one sister (in law.. but that doesn't matter) and getting another! :D Then we'll have a tie of 4 girls and 4 boys.. and I doubt Jeff (The middle brother) will be getting married anytime soon.. so it'll be like that for a LONG time. He still plays video games and going to movies and hasn't actually gotten a college diploma, and he's like 24. I don't think he even knows girls exist.. or if he's ever HAD a girlfriend, I know he never went to prom or anything either. But his car is super-spiffy! :D It's BRIGHT ORANGE! But anyways, I'll try and find out HOW he asked her to tell ya'll about it.

So ya. And then I went to Megans house and chillllled around, and I got to see her new puppy! Which is basically like a little movng teddy bear.. like the dog from Shrek 2! lol. And then we went to the SHS homecoming game, and I got to see all my SHS homies. They lost.. but that's okay because the game was fun anyways, just very very very cold.

XOXO,
Jamie

For you I would climb
The highest mountain peak
Swim the deepest ocean
Your love I do seek.

For you I would cross
The rivers most wide
Walk the hottest desert sand
To have you by my side.

For you are the one
Who makes me whole
You've captured my heart
And touched my soul.

For you are the one
That stepped out of my dreams
Gave me new hope
Showed me what love means.

For you alone
Are my reason to live
For the compassion you show
And the care that you give.

You came into my life
And made me complete
Each time I see you
My heart skips a beat.

For you define beauty
In both body and mind
Your soft, gentle face
More beauty I'll ne'er find.

For you are the one
God sent from above
The angel I needed
For whom I do love

Plans

2004-10-21T17:29:00.000-07:00

We got my math teacher, Mr. Marble.. who has a lisp!!! To wear a black do-rag (can't spell it!) it was the funniest thing ever! Eric Block put it on him and then put a hat over it all off to the side gangsta style. And like EVERYONE took out their picture phones and were taking pictures. And he ahd his arms all crossed and was glaring. It was SOOOOOO funny!

That was about the highlight of my week right there. lol. Taking the 3:50 bus everyday sucks BUTT... but it's okay cuz I have Nathan H. to talk to.. and he's HILARIOUS! I love gay guys! :D

I've noticed that as different things happen to you, they can really effect how you view your goals. Like in 8th grade when I thought I'd be a virgin until I was married... But once I got into highschool I realised that is so NOT going to be happening.. Orrrr. Thinking in 5th grade when we did DARE that I'd never drink. Mmmmhm sure. So I've decided I'm just going to try to live life by each day.. and not make plans for when I'm going to do, or not do, things. I dunno, it seems better that way.

XOXO,
Jamie

Many simple thoughts
I have of you,
You cross my mind,
more than you know,
Times when I am awake,
and times as I sleep,
Wanting to feel you,
next to me,
Just the way you are,
in those thoughts,
and my dreams.
Feeling the warmth,
of your body,
touching your skin,
tasting your lips,
Cuddled so close,
I hear your heartbeat,
knowing I am exactly,
In the place,
I have longed for.
Maybe soon,
In your arms I will be,
no longing needing,
just to dream.

Stoner

2004-10-20T17:40:00.000-07:00

We had to run again in P.E. I think I'm going to end up dying from that sometime.. like I seriiiiously do. Grrr P.E...

So afterschool I went to the park, and Harrison left him backpack on the bus (cuz he's a dork like that! ;) lol jpjpjpjp! A very CUTE dork!) But ya and then at the park I left my backpack by a bench and came back and it was gone.. we ended up finding it like over by these bushes with stuff taken out of it.. but my cellphone was still there and no money was gone from my wallet.. they didn't take ANYTHING. Weirrrrdness. But ya.. so I ended up missing my bus and having to come home later. Which my parents then said "You're always forgetting what time it is" and used it as an excuse for why they think I'm doing drugs... mmhm okay SUUUUURE. Because I am SUCH A DRUGGIE!!!!!!! :P

Also, when I came home out hidden key thing wasn't where it was supposed to be, so I had to turn on all the garage lights and eventually found it on the floor - thank god!

Soo as of today I am a stoner and almost got locked out of my house and almost lost my backpack... yay! ;) Buuuut it was a good day anyways! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

I sit here and wonder, how we ever came to be...
My heart chained to yours, your love given to me....
I marvel at my luck, the completeness now I feel...
I can't help but to ask myself.. Can this truly be real?

Have I finally found the one I need,
The opposite half to my soul?
Have I stumbled upon the one I sought,
The one to make me whole?
The one to love beyond all bounds,
The one to adore always,
The one I can give my heart and my mind,
To kneel before all of my days.

Short

2004-10-19T18:20:00.000-07:00

Is it just me.. or are the days sort of starting to blend into each other with nothing really interesting is happening, and yet I'm the happiest I've been in a really long time. Funny ol' world isn't it?

Do you ever think some things were just meant to be? That you can't explain something using words... but you can sense it...

Okay. This is gonna be an amazingly short blog.. Sorry! I might add stuff later or something...

XOXO,
Jamie

Kisses are like raindrops,
such soft and gentle things.
Falling in a puddle of love,
making little golden rings.

The clear night sky is loneliness,
calling out to me.
Though I shall not succumb to it,
it shall come to me.

The sound of hatred fills the world,
It cuts like broken glass.
I wait for peace to come instead,
and take me home at last.

In my dream your waiting there,
your arms open wide.
I long to be there in your arms,
Safe and warm inside

So when the rain begins to fall,
and clouds are dark and gray,
Fill your heart with lasting love,
And I will come to stay.

Dull

2004-10-18T18:44:00.000-07:00

I just about died from hypothermia today in P.E. it was REALLY REALLY COLD! And sum1 stole my P.E. clothes! Like.. my entire LOCKER was gone!!! And I had it locked and everything. It was the dumbest thing in the world. grr >=( Luckily all i had was a 5 dollar ugly P.E. shirt and REALLY REALLY ugly pants.

Today was... dull. Just to put it plainly. Nothing really happened at all. I did good on all the lovely tests I had. Life is just all around going well for me! :D And I'm happyyyyyyyyyyy. :)

So after school I had a gymnastics meeting thing.. some of the returning members are really.. REALLY annoying. They kept like screaming and stuff, and I sort of just wished I could get out of there. So practices start like Nov. 8th and they are from 3:30-5:30 everrrrry day until January! Yikes! But it gives me something to do. I guess that means I'm prolly not starting up dance again... lol.

And then I went to the mall with Sean and Vesi and Sean PUNCHED ME IN THE FACE!!! Okay.. so the back of his head accidently whammed into my face. Hurt's alot with braces though.. and it made my lip bleed! :(

XOXO,
Jamie

Since the very first time
I saw your smiling face,
I knew in your arms
Was God's most perfect place.

Ne'er could I imagine
That on this earth I'd find,
A love so deep and true
A love like yours and mine.

Until you graced my world
I spent many years hesitating,
But now I truly know
It was worth all the waiting.

When you love someone as much
As I do so love you,
There's no challenge I can't meet
Nothing I wouldn't do.

Words cannot express
The feelings which we share,
Two souls intertwined
Happiness beyond compare.

I can't describe the feeling
Which comes over me,
When I look into your eyes
Our future is all I can see.

Angels brought us together
To share the most precious gift,
So from here to eternity
We'll live the love God blessed us with.

Ikea

2004-10-17T21:32:00.000-07:00

So today was incredibly boring... I don't have much to say, and I would do a love rant but it would all come out as a total big blob of incoherent happiness that no one would be able to really understand.. so I won't. lol

I went to Ikea with my mom today, and both of us were in VERY bad moods - it was not fun. But I got a few cute things for my new room. We're in the process of moving between my current one and the other one, so I have two rooms. Lol. And I love it! :D

Then.. after that it was church and then homework and then bed. Wow... how... exciting!!!

Wasn't this a blog worth reading? ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

Awake from your slumber!
Arise from your sleep!
A new day is dawning,
For all those who weep.
The people in darkness,
Have seen a great light,
The Lord of our longing,
Has conquered the night.

Let us build a city of god,
May our tears be turned into dancing,
For the Lord, our light and our love,
Has turned the night into day.

We are sons of the morning,
We are daughters of day,
The one who has loved us,
Has brightened our way.
The Lord of all kindness,
Has called us to be,
A light for his people,
To set their hearts free.

Let us build a city of god,
May our tears be turned into dancing,
For the Lord, our light and our love,
Has turned the night into day.

(It's a pretty good song actually)

Homecoming

2004-10-16T23:59:00.001-07:00

You will know the real meaning of love
when you fall in love.
- A.Terance Dinesh -

To the world you may be one person,
but to one person you may be the world.
- Bill Wilson -

Love isn't blind; it just only sees what matters.
- William Curry -

Soo my day today started at like 9, when my mom decided I needed to do chores because of all the money shes spending on me for Homecoming.. FUN. So I ended up like cleaning the entire house!!! lol!

Then I had my hair appointment at Gene Juarez at 12:45, the girl did a good job. It started off looking REALLY bad and I was really scared that I was gonna end up looking like a dog (because I did at the time) but she ended up making it turn out okay. It took an hour and a half to do, but I had a magazine to read so it was fine. Theeeeen it was off to MAC in Nordstroms for my makeup. The girl did a really good job, and she did it fast too! I liked it ALOT!!! I saw sooo many Bellevue people there.. it was packed and like crawling with people!

After my makeup, we picked Vesi up and brought her to my house so we could continue getting ready. I was running around in a short skirt and I had on a button up shirt (so my hair dun get messed up when you take it off.. yaaaa) that I had tied up, and my hair was all curly. I looked like a hooker... or like Britney Spears in her Hit me Baby One More Time video!!!! lol.

My mom offically doesn't know how to take pictures.. she must have tried to for about 5 minutes or more, and ended up with about 5 pictures... and considering how many times she pressed the button she should have had about 40. lol. And they all turned out baaaaaaaad!! But I'll post a few at the end.

So after Harrison came with his dad and picked us up (and gave me a build a bear.. which was REALLY cute!!!! :D) and then we went and picked up Andrew and went to pictures where we met up with Teo and Sean.

For dinner we went to the Cheese Cake factory with Me, Vesi, Chantelle, Teo, Sean, Andrew, and Harrison. We didn't have enoguh room for everyone else and I felt bad that we had to sorta ditch them... Teo and Chantelle got a salad while Vesi and I split a GIANT plate of nachos. lol! And I couldn't even finish my cheesecake! :( We told the waiter that it was Teo's birthday so they brought her this whipcream with a candle in it and sang happy birthday and she goes "This is the best birthday EVER!" I thought I was gonna die laughing.. it was SOOOO funny!

So we ended up being like an hour late to Homecoming, but it didn't really make much difference.. it was still really fun, but seemed WAY too short!

When you walked in they had couches and stuff, and these cool circle ribbon things hanging over tables that had peanuts and some thing that was like a chocolate covered peanut or something.. I dunno. Then down stairs there was the whole like hiphop- type music, there was a techno room with like oldies and stuff, and then the courtyard had slow songs playing and tables set up, and drinks, and there were candles all over.. it was pretty pretty! But of course everyone was lighting things on fire in the candles (Including me- I couldn't resist! lol)

So we danced alot, and sometimes the girls would take off their shoes to dance, but by the end we just kept them on... I wonder how many guys got stepped on with our giant heels! lol!! By the end of the night my feet were about ready to fall off.. the balls of my feet hurt SOOO bad, I could barely walk! :(

"You can't blame gravity for falling in love."
-Albert Einstein

It was just all around awesome, I had an amazing night- definatly one I'm going to remember for a very very long time (thanks to sum1 ;))

Okay! PICTURES!!!! lol

Getting ready.. Sexy face there vesi!

Another getting ready picture. Me: Hurry up.. and take the picture before I DIE!

What are we looking at?

Me looking pained

Full length view of my TEN DOLLAR dressssss

Mmmm... I look like a HOOKER in all of them! *pout*

So after Homecoming, Vesi and Teo slept over at my house.. which was fun! We just about died laughing in the morning! Lol... Teo... "I don't NORMALLY do this!!!!" Good times.. Good times!!!

I love you all, and for all those who weren't at homecoming: I missssed you! And I wish you could have come! And for those who were: It was awesome getting to see you! Everyone looked AWESOME!

XOXO,
Jamie

Is it normal to get stressed,
when you're not around?
Is it normal to live,
on the love that I've found?
Is it normal to think,
about nothing but you?
Is it normal to cry,
when I have nothing to do?
Is it normal to lie wide awake,
in your bed and think?
Is it normal to let your emotions,
fill up to the brink?
Is it normal to be so focused,
and yet have your mind whirl?
Is it normal to give up,
everything else in the world?
Is it normal to write,
a poem about your lover?
Is it normal to know,
you love him and none other?
Is it normal to have,
your entire life already planned?
Is it normal to get,
everything that you demand?
Is it normal to confess your love,
after a short period of time?
Is it normal to feel safe,
in the knowledge that you are mine?
Is it normal to want to be held,
in your arms forever?
Is it normal to think,
that things cannot get any better?
Is it normal to try,
for what is so forbidden?
Is it normal to think,
our love could never be hidden?
Is it normal to be so young,
and be so in love?
Is it normal to have god,
send an angel from up above?
Is it normal to understand,
someone completely like we do?
Is it normal to witness two people,
the first time they say I love you?

Homecoming Game

2004-10-15T21:11:00.000-07:00

I had three tests today... Math, Bio, and Spanish. And I was the first one done in EVERY class. I feel like a nerd! But there's always the possibility I was just VERY fast at failing.. like on all the math tests LAST year. lolol.

So we had an assembly with the homecoming movies today. I think the sophmore class's was the best. They had the whole spiderman climbing buildings and swinging around this.. it was awesome. The freshman one sucked of course, and the junior one was pretty bad too. The senior was okay.. but had alot of Napoleon dynamite stuff in it, which I am starting to get sick off. lol.

After school everyone went nuts yelling about Homecoming and trying to figure out what the hell we were going to do, it was pretty funny to watch though.

Then there was the Sammamish vs. Bellevue game.. where we kicked ass of course! ;) SOOO many people I knew were there it was crazy. I'm surprized we didn't get jumped when we were on the Sammamish side screaming "GO BELLEVUE" and stuff. Although this lady did turn around and tell Andrew to stop being so rude. lol.

XOXO,
Jamie

You are the perfect match that I thought I'd never find,
In the past month there hasn't been a day that you haven't crossed my mind.

You came into my life and swept me off my feet,
With you around I feel like my life is now complete.

You've spoiled me with your massages and your soft and gentle kisses,
The way you caress my skin and how you always call me princess.

In what seems like such a short time you've taught me so much,
I know now what it is to feel love's pure and gentle touch.

Although by now I've seen your face many times more,
Each time I see your loving smile my heart flutters and I love you more.

You fill my days with laughter, listen to my problems, and try to ease my fears,
No matter what, you're always there to kiss away tears.

On you sweetheart, I know, I always can depend,
You are my heart, my soul, and of course my very best friend.

You love me like no one ever has before,
You are my one true love, that's one thing I know for sure!

They say it's just puppy love and that be apart someday we will,
Maybe they are right, but we can enjoy our time together still!

Alterrrred

2004-10-14T21:30:00.000-07:00

ARGH! hour and a 1/2 of P.E. was like the worst thing EVER!!! It took me 30 minutes to run 9 laps, and I just about collasped. There was one point where I had REALLY bad craps on BOTH sides of my stomachs and I did something to my ankle... lol. It sucked butt.

For some weird reason, math didn't seem very long... but Spanish seemed REALLY REALLY long, and Jewerly Design seemed fairly long.

Our Homecoming thing is so messed up. Our group got to like 20 people, so we tried to cut it down but now everyone is getting all upset that they can't be with us and it's getting annoying. Because like.. I don't want to be mean and leave people out.. but 20 people is an unreasonable amount.. Blah.

Nhaka's mom altered my dress for me today!!!! I love it! :D She fixed the messed up boob issues that it had going on, and we ended up changing it into a halter from just spaghetti straps. I'm REALLY tall with my shoes though.. it's kinda weird. lol. I don't really like it, but the shoes are way too awesome to resist so I'm just gonna deal with it. I'm like 5'10 with them. O.o since they are 3-inches. That's REALLY tall. Like.. ANGELA TALL! (Lol Angewwwwa! I love u! mwahhhh!) Or like.. Nate and David tall. That's too tall. But I LOVEEEEEEE THE SHOES!!!

I don't think I'm going to end up gettting my nails done.. which sucks, but I guess I'll just have to live with it since I broke two of them in the past week anyways *grrness*

I have 3 tests tomorrow.. in Bio, Math, and Spanish.. fun stuff.

I also bought some flowers from Michael's... to maybe think about putting in my hair and stuff, but I'm not sure how I'm gonna do it yet.

HOMECOMING IN TWO DAYS!!!!!!! SOOO EXCITED! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

Once in every lifetime, someone comes along,
The one special heart
You've been waiting for your whole life long.

Once in every lifetime, God sends an angel from above,
To make your life complete
Who you can give your endless love.

When a love like this comes, make any sacrifice,
For the best things in life
Seldom come along twice.

There is no love that compares to yours and mine,
A love from heaven that only comes
"Once In Every Lifetime."

Block

2004-10-13T18:03:00.000-07:00

"If I could reach up and hold a star for every time you've made me smile, the entire evening sky would be in the palm of my hand."

So the block schedule turned out pretty good. Drama and English were fine, but Biology seemed like it was FIVE HOURS LONG! My god! Minutes seemed like hours.. and I'm not even joking, it was terrible. And I have a feeling that I'm going to have a VERY VERY VERY long day tomorrow too... BLAH. Not looking forward too it. Luckily today I didn't have P.E!! Which ROCKED! I didn't have to run the 2 mile thing.. but I'm gonna have to tomorrow so... it's not all that great.

SO I found out today I have about 23,000 dollars in stock... which is awesome. Would be higher if microsoft was doing better, but hey I'm not complaining. I can't get into it until I'm in college though. But I get like 1,400 dollars from a microsoft payback in December which i am very happy about. :D lol

Sooo we got out at 12:10, which was cool. And I hung out with Elizabeth, Keaton, and Harrison for a while until Keaton and Elizabeth left. It was fun! :)

Hmmmmmmmm.. not much to say today... How about another love rant? (Yes, I am doing them alot. My advice to you: DEAL WITH IT!!!! YOUR THE ONE READING MY BLOG!!! lol, arn't I nice? ;))

So today.. how about a few nice love quotes to enjoy? lol

If thou remember'st not the slightest folly
That ever love did make thee run into,
Thou hast not loved.
--Willian Shakespeare

The sound of a kiss is not so loud as that of cannon, but its echo lasts a great deal longer.
--Oliver Wendell Holmes, Sr.

Love means giving one's self to another person fully, not just physically. When two people really love each other, this helps them to stay alive and grow. One must really be loved to grow. Love's such a precious and fragile thing that when it comes we have to hold on tightly. And when it comes we're very lucky because for some it never comes at all. If you have love, you're wealthy in a way that can never be measured. Cherish it.
--Nancy Reagan

Love is the vital essence that pervades and permeates, from the center to the circumference, the graduating circles of all thought and action. Love is the talisman of human weal and woe--the open sesame to every human soul.
--Elizabeth Cady Stanton

You've been in love; you know what it's like. It's a sense of delight, not just in the person you love, but in all people, in yourself, in life. Suddenly you see beauty, excitement everywhere. You're not afraid to express your love: passionately, gently, in words, or in silence. And you feel strong, generous, fully alive.
--George Weinberg

One makes mistakes, that is life. But it is never quite a mistake to have loved.
--Romain Rolland

Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. Love does not demand its own way. Love is not irritable, and it keeps no record of when it has been wronged. It is never glad about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
--Corinthians 13:4-7

"You don't marry someone you can live with - you marry the person who you cannot live without."
-unknown

"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous."
-Ingrid Bergman

"Who ever loved that loved not at first sight?"
-Christopher Marlowe

"Tell me whom you love and I will tell you who you are."
-Houssaye

"Better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all."
-St. Augustine

"Friendship often ends in love; but love in friendship - never."
-Charles Caleb Colton

"The richest love is that which submits to the arbitration of time."
-Lawrence Durrell

"There is no disguise which can hide love for long where it exists, or simulate it where it does not."
-La Rochefoucauld

"There is no remedy for love but to love more."
-Thoreau

"If you love someone, let them go. If they return to you, it was meant to be. If they don't, their love was never yours to begin with..."
-Unknown

"You call it madness, but I call it love."
-Don Byas

"Within you I lose myself
Without you I find myself
Wanting to be lost again."
-Unknown

XOXO,
Jamie

The way I feel about you
This one special emotion
With those before was a river
But with you is an ocean

From the moment we met
I knew I had found
The one with whom I
Could build my world around

I'm amazed and thankful
With each passing day
How having you by my side
Makes me complete in every way

I know each time I gaze
Into your gentle eyes
Together we will spend
The rest of our lives

Every time my heart beats
My feelings for you grow stronger
I pray that somehow God
Could make each minute longer

Whether sharing in your joys
Or brushing away a painful tear
You never have to worry
For I will always be here

Cellphone

2004-10-12T19:22:00.000-07:00

AHH! We got 50 dollars in overages in Septemper for my cellphone! Ooopsie. So if your planning on talking to me call my home line. Or call my cellphone and say you'll call me back on my home, so you can be sure I pick up, or ask for my home number! Because if I go over that much this month my mommy might take away my phone! :( But suprizingly enough she hasn't gotten mad at me yet.. and she didn't really get very mad at me for coming home late and not calling her soon enough to tell her about it! :P

Is anyone else as excited for Homecoming as I am? Even though I have NO CLUE what's going on... lol. REALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY EXCITED!!!!!!!!!!

So tomorrow we have some weird block schedule thing were we oly have periods 2 4 and 6 and the are 90 minutes long.. and we get out at 12:10. And then thursday we have 1,3,5,7 and they are 90 mins long. Apparently they are thinking about making it always like that next semester on wednesdays and thursdays. Which seems fine to me since getting out at 12:10 would rock! :P

I hate how P.E. makes my hair wavy! GRRRRNESS! ;)

Information found when I googled "What is love?" And it gave me a site with definitions. I would have to say 9 is one of my favourites

1. a strong positive emotion of regard and affection; "his love for his work"; "children need a lot of love"

2. any object of warm affection or devotion; "the theater was her first love" or "he has a passion for cock fighting";

3. a beloved person; used as terms of endearment

4. a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction; "their love left them indifferent to their surroundings"; "she was his first love"

5. sexual activities (often including sexual intercourse) between two people; "his lovemaking disgusted her"; "he hadn't had any love in months"; "he has a very complicated love life"

6. have a great affection or liking for; "I love French food"; "She loves her boss and works hard for him"

7. get pleasure from; "I love cooking"

8. be enamored or in love with; "She loves her husband deeply"

9. Is a feeling of intense affection, given freely and without restriction. The best way you can show your love is to wag your tail. If you're lucky, a human will love you in return.

10. knowledge: the essence of God's being and relationship to His creation, which is unchanging and eternal; beyond definition and teaching, and can only be experienced or known once the barriers of guilt have been removed through forgiveness. true perception: impossible in the illusory world of perception, yet expressed here through forgiveness; the emotion given by God, in contrast to the ego's emotion of fear, and reflected in any expression of true joining with another.

11. Love.. is more then a feeling. Love is an action. Love happens when you don't feel like it. Love is treating others with respect because they are made in God's image. Love is treating others the way God would treat them. Love is agreeing with God about how you treat yourself and those you come into contact with. Love is wanting the very best for another.

12. vLove was the impelling motive for manifestation. It is the creative, attractive force in the Universe. Love is magnetic, unifying; it creates understanding and is radiant. It cannot be limited to one person because it flows constantly from and to and through everything. Christ revealed a "God of Love" and that "God is Love". Love introduces a new relationship among men. The fire of Love burns away all distinctions and makes us soul-centred individuals.

13. To love someone is to be sustained by their mere existance. In Love: To be in love is to be better sustained in direct proportion to one's proximity to a loved one

XOXO,
Jamie

I don't know what it was
About the word you said,
Which on that certain day
Caused me to turn my head.

When I looked into your eyes
I could see my hopes and dreams,
And each time I hear your voice
I know what forever means.

There isn't a star I wouldn't give you
I'll say the sweetest words you've ever heard,
Not a day will pass, when I won't be there
I know all this from your one simple word.

Your smile tells the truth
And I know without a doubt,
In my heart, from the start
You were the one I couldn't live without.

What is this word you said
Which gave me the greatest love I could know?
I've loved you from the moment you spoke
The Moment You Said "Hello."

SHOES!

2004-10-11T20:12:00.001-07:00

Originally I was going to do another LOVE rant today.. just because it's been on my mind alot... But I had alot to say already so I'll spare you and keep it for another day.

In P.E. today we did this stupid learning about counselors and stuff in the library.. And that was about the most boring hour of school I have one through so far this year. We were all asleep and the stupid people kept asking us questions like 'Can any of you juggle?' And no one would answer.. so they'd just continue with their speech and ended up having to say all the answers to their questions themselves. Lol.

I did my monologue on thursday in Drama.. I don't know if I already mentioned that or not, so I'll just say it again. It was actually not that bad, like I wasn't nervous at all or anything. I was just REALLY excited to perform. I guess I'm kinda like that though, huh? I love attention! :D :D :D :D lollll!

Got 68/71 on our Spanish ch. 1 test! w00000t! That's like a 96% or something, which is pretty good. :D Very happy cuz I was sure I was gonna flunk that or something. Spanish is evil. The teacher is crazy though, which is entertaining. And we've got some cool people in the class to keep it fun.

Some kid has a lazer in Biology, which was funny cuz the teacher never noticed :P

After school I got my SHOEEEEEEEEES! Which as everyone knows, is the only reason you even GET a dress - so that you can get shoes for it! They are all pretty and silver and sparkly and hurt my feel like hell! :D They kinda remind me of like.. Marlyn Monroe mixed with a Cinderella type thing. Only.. not glass slippers. Those would be pretty, but very very very uncomfy. lol So my shoes were 8 times the cost of my dress! Lol yeah.. 80 dollars. That's ALOT for shoes. The heels are like 3 or 4 inches high on the website it says 3 but it looks like more, I might be crazy though, I'm hoping I won't be taller then harrison with them on. ;) lol. Is that possible? I dunno, I'll find out tomorrow. I think he's more then 3 inches taller then me... well I'm like SURE he is. but ya.

My shoes! Harrison dont look! :P <-- Only those are gold, and mine are silver and they look waaaaaaay more sparkly normally.

I also got a breat cancer Athena braclet thing. The cheap ones ya.. I bought an extra if anyone wants it for a dollar... or more if ya wanna tip me ;) But you can but them at Tully's so it's not that big a deal. They run out alot though.

XOXO,
Jamie

I would love you until the sun does not shine,
and still, even then, I will love you through time.

If the moon shines above and a new day has not come,
in the dark of the night I would love you the same.

If the snow fell in Egypt, and sun beat down here,
I would still love you more, year after each year.

And if the day comes that the stars fall from heaven,
I would love you that much, oh that plus eleven.

Snow flakes do not amount to how much I love you.
Rain drops cannot explain it, they are just far too few.

The ocean cannot explain the depth of my soul.
It is much, much to shallow and much, much too cold.

If the winds fail to blow and the grass fails to grow,
I will love you always, at least that you will know.

SeaHawks

2004-10-10T20:02:00.000-07:00

I feel better today, which is good because last night was not any fun at all.

Today I went to the SeaHawks game with my mom, dad, jeff, brian, brian's girlfriend Koreen, Randy, and my new sister-in-law Brenda. It was SeaHawks Vs. the Rams. We were up wayyy up high and the tickets were STILL 50 dollars. But it was a pretty good view because you could see everything that was going on. It was the first like professional football game I've been to.. that I remember at least. Basically its a bunch of older guys getting drunk and acting crazy and screaming and cheering for no reason what so ever while a bunch of guys wearing a verrrry large amount of padding jump on each other. But I actually understand it a little bit now, and I admit football is fun to watch. :P

Tail-gaters are funny. A bunch of people that are WAAAY too into football painting their faces and going crazy out in the parking lot. Awesome to watch though! :D

When we were standing in line to get in we were by the line for the honey-bucket things and this guy goes up and opens the door to one and there was a person in it sitting on the toilet! It was hilarious! All the people waiting in line started clapping and stuff, lol.

So the SeaHawks were winning basically the whole game, but in the last 5 minutes of the 4th quarter I guess our defence just gave up because they started sucking ASS. And by the end of the 4th quarter the Rams had caught up and were tied with us! GRRR. So we went into overtime and it was the first team to score wins.. and the Rams scored. So that was depressing and a bad end to the game, plus there were Rams fans behind us who were screaming and cheering their heads off which made it even worse.

I think the SeaHawks have a curse that they will never be able to start off a Season 4-0. Never never never! Don't quote me on that though! ;)

I think it would be fun to be a SeaGal! Like.. the cheerleader dancer people. That would be an awesome job. Although I don't think they are really paid much if anything besides like free tickets. And then besides that they get paid for like appearances and stuff too. Most of them probably have second jobs at like Hooters.. lol.

So Harrison and I have been dating a month now. Doesn't seem like a month!!!! But I'm not really sure what it seems like. Like.. it seems like it's been way more then a month, but then again it seems like its only been a few days. Strange how that works isn't it?

XOXO,
Jamie

I lay awake every night just thinking of you,
How your love means so much to me,
And it's just to good to be true,
How I feel when you kiss me.

Knowing nothing can go wrong,
Believing you and I will always belong,
How when I'm with you there's always a smile on my face,
A smile I just can't seem to erase.

How you make me laugh until I cry,
Only for you I would die,
In your arms I know I am happy and safe,
And the place in my heart no one could ever replace.

How you have always been there for me,
Caring more then could ever be,
Through thick and thin,
I opened my heart and let you in.

Sick

2004-10-09T22:30:00.000-07:00

So I spent like all of today at home, trying to figure out what was going on this all this drama was about. Not really a good day...

And then I went out to dinner with my family at Arnies, which is like this fairly nice Seafood place thing - one of my parent's accounts. And it was pretty good, but half way through the dinner I started feeling really sick.. and it lasted all night long, really not fun. I was all light headed and dizy and nauseous and it was hard to walk... I'm not sure what the heck was going on, but it was REALLY not fun. So as soon as I got home I went to bed.

After dinner though, we went to my brothers house and watched a DVD slideshow thing from my brother's wedding. It was soooo sweet! It basically like told the story of the wedding with all the pictures and it had really good songs that went perfectly with it. I hope that when I get married I can get a photographer as good as the one that did their wedding.. because seriously he was AMAZING. Like you have no idea. I love weddings! :D I'm going to go like nutso with mine when I get married, like my sister-in-law did... but only not as much. Their wedding was like 23,000 dollars. I was like WOAHHHHH when I found out. Geez that's alot. But then again my brother makes a lot of money cuz he's like a genius or something... lol.

XOXO,
Jamie

Sorry I had to tell you this
But that is how it is
I hope you'll still be there
'Cause for you I really care

I just need to tell you what has happened
That might make things change all of a sudden
It might make you mad
But, please don't make me feel bad

You have been a very special friend to me
But that is what I no longer see
Since I no longer consider you as a friend
But, try to understand that our friendship was bound to end.

For, I see you in a different way
And this is what I have to say
This is very true
Because... I've fallen for you

Drama.

2004-10-08T23:59:00.000-07:00

M.I. actually BEAT SHS. How weird is that? It was the first game they had won ALL YEAR.

I hate highschool!!!!!!!! GAH!!!!!!!! I hate all the stupid drama and people making up shit. And people who I THOUGHT were my friends going behind my back and sayign fucked up lies about me that make no sense for no fucking reason at all. WHAT ARE YOUR FUCKING PROBLEMS? DO YOU LIKE CREATING DRAMA FOR PEOPLE? OR ARE YOU JUST FUCKING JEALOUS OF EVERYONE ELSE?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?

And stop lying to me. Lying doesn't help anything. Because sooner or later I will find out, and it will take longer for me to forgive you then if you had just told me the truth in the first place, because yes I would probably get angry... but you know I can't stay angry at like anyone for any period of time - unless they lie to me.

So suck it in, grow up, and face your fears. You are the ones that started this shit - and you've gotta be the ones to stop it. Don't leave it for other people to clean up.

XOXO,
Jamie

If I were to told you close,
And rub my nose against your nose,
If I were to hold you near,
And whisper love words in your ear.

If I were to kiss your lips,
Or trace your face with my fingertips,
Would you know then how I felt,
And that you make my heart surely melt?

If I took you into my arms,
And looked at you with all my charms,
If I lifted you off your feel,
Would your heart surely skip a beat?

If I walked you to your door,
Would you invite me in for more?
If I asked you to please be mine,
Could we go out on a date sometime?

HC DRESS

2004-10-07T23:59:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy I can actually THROW a football. It's just the catching I need to work on... lol

URG! MY nail broke off. Like the whole white area is GONE. And I was growing them all out for homecoming so I could get like a cute manicure and now it's like.. they are all nice and long except for one thats FUCKISHLY SHORT! grrr. lol.

We had an assembly today with the Homecoming royals, murals, and songs/skits. Overall all the freshman ones SUCKED. Our song was bad, but not nearly as bad at the Sophmore one. They did the "Spiderman, Spiderman, does what ever a spider can" Song. And there was this guy at the beginning who was doing hiphop.. and he was AMAZINGLY good, and he also did a backflip. But then these girls started dancing. And they were all doing different dances and stuff. There was one who was like going fucking nuts with wanna-be hiphop and trying to be all sexy and stuff and she looked like she was spazzing out and I actually felt embarressed FOR her. Then one girl was doing handsprings and stuff and kept falling, and the other two girls just stood there.

Our mural was definatly the worse though. It had that green alien dude, and then it said "Let the freshman force be with you" Since our theme was star wars.

There was also a contest with ticking lifesavers on the faces of people, where one girl and one guy from each grade went up ang the girl had to stick lifesavers to his face. Freshman only got TWO. Lol. How sad! :(

I went to the mall with Danielle tonight, and I got my homecoming dress! Get this.. it was like 80 dollars normally. Then it was on sale for 50 dollars on the tag, and then later I noticed it was crossed off and said 25 dollars on the tag.. and when we got to the register the girl toldus the actual price was... are you ready????? I don't think you're ready for this........ you sure??? TOTALLY SURE???? Okay fine... TEN DOLLARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I just about DIED! It's a bit too big on the straps, so I'm going to try and get it altered somewhere, and maybe make the stomach area a bit smaller cuz it's loose there too and it looks weird. But its a pretty dress! And I'm hoping to get my make up done at MAC in Nordstroms.. but they don't let you call in to make an appointment until monday for next saturday.. so I'm going to have to make my mom call.

My parents are letting me spend more on my hair and makeup since my dress was 10 dollars.. lol. And I'm glad! :D

SEAN IS THE SHIT (there your in my blog. Happy? lol)

XOXO,
Jamie

I'm lying awake and I just cannot sleep,
For the love in my heart is surely so deep,
When I lie here in thought with you on my mind,
I'm always restless and sleep I just can't find,
Wanting your warmth, all through thenight,
Lying here beside me warmly cuddling in tight,
Then I know I'd sleep with a beautiful smile,
Because you'd be beside me for a while.

Odle

2004-10-06T20:40:00.000-07:00

SEAN ROCKS!!!! lol

Grrr. I spent all morning straightening my hair... and 20 minutes in P.E. makes it TOTALLY wavy again! UNFAIRRR! *pout* I absolutly HATE p.e. >=(

Wednesdays seem SOOO long even though they are shorter.. probably since there's no lunch, but it really bugs me.

This Steven kid in my Spanish class brought a laser pointer and Mr. Crawford FLIPPED! It was soooo funny! He started talking in English and was liek "I. Am. Very. VERYYYY. ANGRY!" :P

So after school Tamar, Vesi, Harrison, and I went over to Odle. We didn't get there until like 1:40 though.. and almost every1 was gone. But I saw Mrs. Benzinger, Mrs.. Kol, Mrs. Brown (grr), and Mrs. Lambert! Although I only got 2 of my CD's back from Mrs. Lambert... NO idea where the others went! Arghhh. She still has my Justin Timberlake, and Clay Aiken CDS! And like some random Kelly Clarkson one that I don't care too much about getting back.

I bought 3 new lip glosses today.. they all smell REALLY GOOD. But they don't take like much.. which is stupid cuz the ones that taste good are the best! But hey.. you cant always get what you want!

HOMECOMING IS SO SOON!!! I'm totally excited!!! Even if the dance sucks I'll have spent more time with SOMEONE (lol.. guess who! ;)) So it'll rock anyways!!!

Yesturday's drama is all fixed up, and I'm REALLY happy about it! :D

XOXO,
Jamie

"Some people think of Teen Love and smile. It's not real love, they say. Puppy Love, they call it. Those people, I think, have very short memories, and no longer recall the realities of their first love experiences. While few expect teen love to last a lifetime, that hardly makes it less real. Half or more of all adult love doesn't last a lifetime either. Teen love is very real. And powerful. Perhaps at no other time in our lives are the joys and pains felt as strongly, or experienced more deeply. Who among us, after all, can ever forget our first love?"

Drama is fucked up.

2004-10-05T17:56:00.000-07:00

I've had a bad day. People get so dramatic geez.. Drama drama drama. So ya. Bad dayyy. Even I can't trust people I though I could, and everyone gets so upset over a stupid little thing.

Friend ships should never be ruined over nothing, and fights shouldn't start out of something so really small. I understand its the whole "princible" and that crap, but seriously. It's fucked up and just plain stupid.

After school Harrison and I went to Starbucks.. we REALLY need stop going there. lol

I'm sort of glad my bus ride is so long, it really gave me time to think alot of things over. And the fact that I'm being blamed for something that's not ALL my fault is just stupid. Like I'm willing to take all the blame, but people need to realize this huge thing wasn't just caused by me

So I might go to Odle tomorrow, I'm not really sure though... so YEAH.

XOXO,
Jamie

Have I ever told you how much you mean to me?
And how it feels like heaven whenever you're with me.
I just love the way you hold me in your warm embrace.
And when I'm down, how you gently wipe the tears from my face.
The way you kiss, how your lips softly and sweetly meet mine.
The way you innocently look into my eyes, with love and passion
and never cold like ice.

Lockdown

2004-10-04T18:46:00.000-07:00

In P.E. we're doing flag football.. which I think is silly, because it'd be awesome to get to tackle people, but whatever. I can actually throw the football right! But just.. not a very far distance, and I can't catch it for beans. Lol.

So we had this really huge stupid lockdown thing today. Because some guy went into a store 3 blocks down and said he was going to commit suicide using a hand gun. He was big built, 35, and wearing a BLUE POLO SHIRT. lol. At first they only told us what he looked like and not what was happening.. so we're all like "Ohh... scarrrrry. A guy wearing a BLUE POLO SHIRT" And then we thought it was dumb that since the guy was going to kill HIMSELF that we all had to sit in a lockdown. But yeah. It lasted for like an hour, and we had to be really quiet and sit on the floor with the lights off. It was SOOO boring. I basically just talked to Max the whole time because it was in Spanish. Then the teacher gave us a bag of pretzles (cant spell) For the class to share because everyone was complaining about being hungry. So that was cool.

Lunch was only 1/2 hour long.. which was SERIOUSLY not long enough, so we ended up staying through most of 6th period in the lunch room and claiming to be "confused" by all that happened. Mmmmhm sure ;)

After school I went to the mall with Sean.. He's a cool kid. We decided too much drama sucks ALOT. I'm guessing that's gonna be basically there all through Highschool though.. Drama Rama.. Save the drama for your mama!!! Lol sorry, couldn't resist ;)

XOXO,
Jamie

I love the way it's hard for me to say good-bye to you,
I love the way you're perfect in everything you do,
I love the way I love you more with each and every day,
I love the way I love you more than words could ever say.

I love the way you smile, 'cause it makes me smile, too,
I love the way I cannot seem to get my mind off you,
I love the way I hold your feelings deep within my heart,
I love the way I love you, and I hope we never part.

Shaun of the Dead + Shark Tales

2004-10-03T20:00:00.000-07:00

So I saw Shaun of the Dead last night with Talli, and saw Melissa and Amelia there so we hung out with them. The movie was REALLY funny.. but also like really sad. And GROSS. It was all gorey and there were guts and blood and ew... I thought I was gonna throw up. And at the beginning the fire alarm went off and we had to stand outside for like 20 minutes while the building was "cleared" by the fire department. But we got a free movie stub thing for another movie at a Loews theater... so that's pretty cool. And why did the fire alarm go off? Because a pizza at like cuchina-cuchina or whatever resturant it was got too hot, so they poured water on it and the steam made the fire alarm go off. SMOOOOTH one there guys ;)

And then today Vesi, Andrew, Harrison, and I went to see Shark Tales... which was pretty cute. It wasn't anything compared to Finding Nemo though, but it's worth seeing I guess. Nothing about it really like.. sticks out in my memory though. Sooo ya.

Thennn I ate at the Cheese Cake Factory with my family, and I couldn't finish my slice of cheese cake.. I NEVER can. Lol. Luckily my brother came along.. and he's just like a giant food disposal so he finished it for me. Lol.

Our priest at church from like 3 years ago came back. He's mexican and talks REALLY REALLY slow and every other word he says is "Beautiful" It was all just so BEAUTIFUL.
I really thought it was BEAUTIFUL. Life is just BEAUTIFUL. GAAAAH!!!!!!! Lol. He makes an hour long serivce take about an hour an a half with all his slowness and his beautifullness.

Grrr I don't want to go to school tomorrow, this weekend has been WAY too short. Luckily friday there's no school!!!! :D Very very happy.

XOXO,
Jamie

"Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth."
(1 Corinthians 13:4-6)

BHS vs. Mt. Si.

2004-10-02T17:18:00.000-07:00

Soo BHS crushed Mt. Si last night, no surprize ;) The game was pretty fun, just sorta normal most though.

Except for Ricky.. that kid won't leave me alone. He was like "You know you would dump Harrison and go out with me!" And I just laughed because I thought he was joking and he's like "No I'm totally serious" And I was just like "No thanks, I like Harrison" And then like at the end of the game he was like "Arn't you dating that really hot sophmore guy?" And it took me a couple seconds to try and figure out what that heck he meant.. and then I realised he meant himself so I said "You?" And he said "Yeah" and I shoke my head "no" and he goes "Would you like to be?" And I just mumbled a "Not really" and moved away from him veryyy quickly. Lol. He's not that bad.. he just can't understand that I've already got a b/f, and I'm not really looking to be dumping him anytime soon.

Take a peek at my Xanga.. I don't use it, but I added some funky quiz things into it and it has an interesting picture of me. Lol.
http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=hihiimjamie

So after the game a lot of us went tot he Teen Center, which was closed. So we hung out across the street and this dude drives by blasting "I'm a Barbie girl" So we start cheering and he ends up pulling into the parking lot and we hung out dancing by his car to his music. Lol. It was pretty fun. There was these other random people there who were TOTALLY drunk, and pretty funy to watch. At one point I looked over and the girl was like ontop of the guy in the car and the car was like rocking. It was hilarious!

So Vesi slept over and we were up the whole time pigging out. Lol it was fun!!!

Then after we drove Vesi home, in the car ride back my mom attempted to give me the Sex talk. Apparently she got pregnant twice, even though she used condoms. Once was with my oldest brother, and the other time was with me. So she basically said she wants me to also take birth controls when I get "Sexually Active" .. it was funny though because she was all awkward. And at the end she was like "You can get pregnant from making out too!!! But you never do that do you?" In a joking voice. and I was just like "Huh? What? What do you mean?" Lol

I hate the way you talk to me.
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots.
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh.
Even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it that you're not around.
And the fact that you didnt call.
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you.
Not even close, not even a little bit, not any at all.

Love

2004-10-01T18:09:00.000-07:00

I fell on my ass today in P.E. It was VERYYYYYYY smooth. Lol. It was like slow motion cuz I tried to keep myself from falling, so I sort of slowly slid down. And Of course I tripped over nothing.. except for my OWN FEET. Because I'm awesome like that. lol. It was awesome becuase about 2 minutes later, Justin tripped over nothing and went slamming down onto the ground too. Lol. :D Mine was way more gracefull though. ;) Then in the hallways later Mr. Desmond comes up and goes "That was the best move ever O'Neil when you fell today, truely awesome." Evil pedafile enjoys picking on me. SICKO PERVERTED SEXIST TEACHER! He's awesome though... because of how much he favors girls. Lol.

So I was thinking about today.. about life... ya know. And the meaning of love. Here's some of the things I thought up or came across. Be prepared for a LOT of crap that makes no sense.

Love, a word that is overused in today's world. The meaning of Love, the true meaning is when you care about someone so much you would do anything for them. Where you would literally die for them if you had to. It's where the only thing you want is for them is to be happy - even if its with someone else. When you love someone you always accept them and care for them no matter what they've done. It is the indescribable feeling where that one person means everything to you, and without the, you would lose all will to love. There are two main things... One, When you feel it while with them it’s the best feeling in the world, nothing surpasses it. Two, when you feel it without them it makes you feel bad and yearn for their presence, but you still feel that happy feeling somewhere inside and it confuses you terribly. Many guys use it just to get in a girl's pants, but when it's truely love you would be fine without hooking up... as long as you are with that person. You're love could overcome the lust that you feel, and if you really care for that person.. you'd respect them enough not to just want to get in bed with them. Although you and the person may seperate... your love will never truely die. First loves, and true loves last forever. "Lust is the need for another's body; Love is the need for another's soul." Love is always thinking greatly about a person you feel a bond with. Going to sleep everynight wishing you were holding them, or waking up in the morning hoping to see their beautiful eyes. Love is wanting nothing more than to be with that person as much as possible and taking care of their every needs. Love is doing sweet little things for that person, and always appreciating them.

Symptoms of love:

-A complete trust that your thoughts and feelings and other aspects (if not all aspects) of your life/self will be safe in the hands of another.
-You can’t do anything without thinking about them.
-Longing to hold them (or be held by them) and be with them.
-Wanting to be with them every second of the day.
-Without them with you feel empty inside and incomplete.
-The desire to learn (everything about the one you love) and to teach (everything about yourself.)
-Knowing that they will always be there for you no matter what happens.
-An intense devotion to him/her.
-Knowing that nothing else matters more than them.
-When you accept the other person entirely and completely.
-Knowing if you were without them you could not live.
-Love makes you look down on everyone else, because they do not feel what you feel (presumably.)
-Everything seems better when they are in your life, they make the sun a bit brighter, the birds chirp a bit louder, your heart beat a bit faster and there is a spring in your step too.
-It makes you feel like you are stuck in a dream.
-They make you get butterflies in your stomach when they look at you and they make your pulse race when they touch you.
-It’s not to be mistaken for lust.
-They can make time stop dead in its tracks when they kiss you.
-You would go to great extents for them.
-You can picture yourself forever with the person, and can't imagine life without them.
-Sometimes you just want to break down in tears for no reason at all.
-Love is reciprocated.
-When they tell you they love you it makes your heart weak and your chest tighten.
-When you think about how they love you (and you can’t believe it) it almost brings a tear to your eye.
-It makes you blind.
-It makes you happier than you have ever been before.
-It makes you feel like you've known the person for your whole life

It is something that need not be exclusive to one person
It is something that need not be measured.
It is something that need not be logical or thought out
It is something that defies petty language. Something primal and deep.
It is the thing that keeps you up late worrying about someone.
It is the thing that lets you realize just how beautiful a mother and child really are.
It is the thing that lets you call a comrade brother.
It is the thing that lets you not worry what the person thinks of you.

But really.. love is so much, and yet so little. It's the most confusing in the world, and yet the easiest. It's always there, and yet it's not always there. And there can be no way to express the great feelings of that emotion into words.

Now how's that for something to get ya thinking?

XOXO,
Jamie

She asked him if he liked her, and he said no.
She asked him if she was pretty, and he said no.
She asked him if she left if he would cry, and he said no.
She turned to leave, but he grabbed her arm and said:
I don't like you - I love you,
You're not pretty - you're beautiful,
And I wouldn't cry if you left - I would die.

Armpits

2004-09-30T18:26:00.000-07:00

AHHHHHHH! The lady who gave me the weird look on the sky bridge ended up finding my wallet. AND me dad went to get it.. AND she started talking to him about how boys seem to flock around me and stuff like how they seem to be all over me and stuff. O.o HOLY CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPP! I hope she didn't tell him like.. anything else. Lol. And now since she got my wallet, my dad wants me to bring her a rose. Talk about awkward... *shudder*

My hair got all wavy during P.E. today! grrr that makes me anggggry >=( so I had to put it up!

Mrs. Hudson doesn't shave her armpits. And it's GROSS!!!!! It makes me want to gag. Lol. GIRLS NEED TO SHAVE THEIR ARMPITS. Case closed. :P Why are girls even born with armpit hair? That's silly. They should just totally elimate it by like.. editing everyones genes. OH!!! good idea! That's what I'll work on when I'm older. Getting rid of armpit hair-growing genes. Lol. GOOD IDEA!!!

This week has gone by REALLY fast. It's strange, it feels like tuesday. Is it just me?

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING GLAD THAT I FOUND MY WALLET!!!!!

XOXO,
Jamie

Love is a bird in the air,
A song in the breeze.
A friend among strangers,
A cure to a disease.

A cute furry puppy,
All rolled in a ball.
A five year old boy,
Making himself look tall.

Love is an emotion,
Something you can embrace.
Love is a hand,
Slapping you in the face.

Taking you back to reality,
Your feet on the ground.
A thousand hearts breaking,
Without making a sound.

Dress

2004-09-29T21:30:00.000-07:00

Wednesdays seem REALLY REALLY long, even though they are shorter. Probably because there's no lunch.. so they seem like they last FOREVER.

I finished my ugly mask in jewerly design... and FINALLY decided on a monologue I want to do. It's about this guy cheating on his girlfriend and how she can't believe she fell for his act and how she's ust a trophy for his collection. It's interesting.. I like it. I wanted something more along the lines of like a girls boyfriend dying (Lol. No specific reason there dun worry Harrison ;)) I just heard this one monologue about that and it sounded REALLY good and I wanted to do it. But oh well.

After school we went and hung out at the Bellevue Park for a while, which was fun! Just a good time and stuff ya. lol.

Thennn Elizabeth and I went to the mll for dresses. I was supposed to catch the 5:50 bus, which I totally missed, and when I tried to call ym mom I had no service. Sooo I continued to try things on and stuff. Then we went to Nordstroms to look as shoes, and my phone rings and it's my mom and shes like "WHERE ARE YOU?!?! WHERE HAVE YOU BEEEN?!?!" And it's then I realize that it's 7:00, and I haven't gotten a hold of her since 5. SHIT. So she freaked out, and went all nutso. And said I have to be on the 3:50 bus like everyday for the next week or two.. and if I'm not, and I don't call her. Then I can't go to homecoming. Which is fucked up, I would fucking sneak out of my house and go in JEANS then miss it. So that's NOT going to be happening.

But I found a dress that's really cute. It's black though.. so It's kinda plain, but ya. And it's 168 dollars! :P I didn't mention it to my mom - since she was in a very very pissy mood, and I figured it could wait until she's a liiiitlle happier. I might also look in Seattle this weekend for a dress.. so YA

XOXO,
Jamie

P.S. Poem is really REALLY strange... since it seems like weirdly fitting.

There is this guy I thought I knew,
I really felt a dream come true,
With soft blonde hair,
A caring stare,
And sparkling eyes,
And taller than me - what a surprise.
I love it when we can just talk,
There's also something in his walk,
And in his eyes I could get lost,
And his personality I'd take at any cost.
He makes me feel perfect,
And he always gives me so much respect,
Laughing and alive;
The way I feel can not be described.
His loving arms around me,
I wonder if he'd agree,
With the taste of your sweet kiss,
I go into a feeling of bliss.

Wallet

2004-09-28T19:53:00.000-07:00

SHIT DAMN FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK! I lost my wallet today! *pout* And I looked everywhere for it. that's 30 bucks, my asb card, bus pass, and like ALL my other crap. GONE!!!1 URG VERY ANGRY!!!

OMG! One of my embarrassing stories is in Seventeen magazine. Holy crap! Funny! I submitted it like 3 months ago. It's in the October 2004, Katie Holmes one... and it's called "Southern Exposure" and it's about an airport in Bozeman Montana. Lol.. that's so cool. Almost as cool as hearing Vesi try to Stump Kayola on Kiss 106.1 last night. Something about fear of peanut butter wasn't it Vesi? I dunno. But it was cute. So yaaaaaaaaaa. If you wanna read my story check out that magazine. They revised it a bit though, and made it sound weird. But that's okay. I'm proud of my embarrassing story ;)

Today in math this guy was sleeping and Mr. Marble goes "I'm a very good tickler" And I like BURST out laughing. It was SOOOOOOOO funny. Because I wasn't listening to what was going on.. and all I heard was "I'm a very good tickler" Coming from a VERY gay teacher... it was almost too good to be true. lol It was SOOO funny. Man...

I FINALLY FOUND A MONOLOGUE!!! It's about this girl who'se parents get divorced. Weird part: The girl's name is Jamie. Talk about a cowinkiedink ;)

I really should get to work on adding in more music to this thing... Lol. ahhhhh Maybe later. I'm too lazy ;)

So Harrison and I were sitting on this sky bridge thing *cough* Talking *cough* and this lady walks past and she gives me this FUNNIEST look ever! It was like one of those "Kids these days are so crazy" looks. And I burst out into giggles. It was like the funniest thing EVER. I can't get that image out of my mind. Se like raised her eyebrows all funny and waved and OMGGGGGG it was hilarious.

SOOOOO pretty eventfull day. It was fun. Except for the whole wallet thing. That stunk big time.. but other then THAT... yeah. :D

XOXO,
Jamie

My knees start to weaken
At the first sight of your face
My heart starts to melt
At the thought of your embrace

Your love flows through me
Like a river flows down its path
Your kiss lifts me up so high
I could probably fall to my death

I really wish that
When I looked into your eyes I could see
Exactly how it is that
You feel about me

I get nervous when you're around me
I feel I could cry when you're away
I dream about you
Every night and day

I want you to know
My last three words will always remain true
Regardless of what I may say or do
You'll always know that
I love you.

My Perogative

2004-09-27T21:10:00.000-07:00

Get Busy!
Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
I don't need commission, make my own decisions
That's my prerogative

They say I'm crazy
I really don't care
That's my prerogative
They say I'm nasty
But I don't give a damn
Getting guys is how I live
Some messy questions
Why am I so real?
But they don't undersand me
I really don't know the deal about her brother
Trying hard to make it right
Not long ago
Before I win this fight, sing

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
Tell me why I don't need commission
Make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
It's my prerogative (it's my prerogative)

It's the way that I wanna live (it's my prerogative)
I can do just what I feel (it's my prerogative)
No one can tell me what to do (it's my prerogative)
'Cause what I'm doing I'm doing for you

Don't get me wrong
I'm really not souped
Ego trips is not my thing
All these strange relationships really gets me down
I see nothing wrong in spreading myself around

Everybody's talking all this stuff about me
Why don't they just let me live?
Tell me why I don't need commission
Make my own decisions
That's my prerogative
It's my prerogative (it's my prerogative)

I can do what I wanna do (it's my prerogative)
I can live my life (it's my prerogative)
And I'm doing it just for you (it's my prerogative)

Tell me, tell me why can't I live my life
Live my life without all of the things
That people say oh

Yo, teddy kick it like this
Oh no no I can do what I wanna do
Me and you together together together together together

Fixed P

2004-09-27T19:28:00.000-07:00

Ugh. I hope this is the last week we're soccer.. I think it is. and I'm GLADDD!!

I still haven't found a monologue for drama, and like everyone else has. Lol. Oh well.

Jewerly design is messed. We're making stupid metal masks.. and they are REALLY ugly. I think we should wear them around school one day and scare the fuck out of EVERYONE. lol ;)

Spanish test tomorrow.. erg gonna FAIL that. Lol

We switched seats in math.. and I'm with this crazy group of girls. And in the equations they used "P" as a variable for Profit and the girls were like "haha. P.. peee!" And started CRACKING up. And it said "fixed" as in a fixed rate. And the other girl goes into like histerical laughter. It's awesome! They're realllyyyy funny. lol.

We went to Starbucks again after school. Lol. We have no lives. :P Then like Ashley, Vesi, and Chantelle left. So Harrison and I walked to the library to try and find them.. WHICH they like weren't there (little liars ;)) But that's okay, we had a pretty good time anyways!

On the bus this girl calls and shes like "Debororah?" (it was something like that.. not Deborah.. it was like STRANGE) and I'm like "This is Jamie, and it's my cell phone" and shes like "Is Debororah there?" No. "Can I leave a message" Uhhh.. no because I don't know her! "You don't?" No. I think you have the wrong number. "Ohhh. okay bye."

Shes certainly not the brightest crayon in the box there..

My parents left for some weird food conference thing. Yes. there's conferences about food. Lol It's called "Food Show" But it's not actually like.. a show. Lol. Nevermind. It's stupidly hard to explain. :P So I've had the music like blaring and I've been dancing and screaming the lyrics and stuff. Amazing what fun I can have all alone in an empty house 'eh? ;)

Call me I'm BORED.

XOXO,
Jamie

You leaned over and you kissed me
I felt my knees go weak
You leaned over and you kissed me
I couldn't even speak
You leaned over and you kissed me
With a passion flowing free
You leaned over and you kissed me
Sparks flew that we could see
You leaned over and you kissed me
A touch so soft and tender
You leaned over and you kissed me
A kiss I would remember
You leaned over and you kissed me
I'm sure I kissed you back
You leaned over and you kissed me
With the fire no kiss should lack
You leaned over and you kissed me
You left me wanting more
You leaned over and you kissed me
My soul you did explore
You leaned over and you kissed me
My heart no longer full of pain
You leaned over and you kissed me
Come on, kiss me once again

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